1 Intro

Seven years ago

Logan Johnston

Ait, so the party was banging, the liquor was flowing, the people were dancing, having a good ass time, and the music was on point. These were the things that always made me love what I did, I loved the vibe of a good party, as long as it was going according to plan, with no hiccups

Who am I? I'm Logan, Logan Johnston, LJ for short, but Eva just calls me Lo. I'm twenty-two from Cape Town, a successful business woman, and what I'm doing here, at this party is making sure that it goes according to my clients expectations. I'm an events coordinator, well, at least that's one of my jobs

My sister, Eva (pronounced A-va), and I started a company that coordinates events for just about anyone when we were in our teens, which turned into the lucrative business that it is today. Leo's Events helped us start several other businesses, like our fashion line, which Eva wanted. A tattoo shop, both in Pretoria and Johannesburg, where we are both from. Boutiques, where our clothing lines are sold, and me personally, I teamed up with Adidas to start a new sneaker range. Plus with our combined IT, and web designing degrees, we started an IT company, that helps companies create their own websites, and get them technologically advanced too

Basically one company, helped my sister and I start up a big ass cooperation, Leo Corp, and now, we on our way of opening up our first restaurant. Eva always had a passion for cooking, she even went to school for it. We still tryna work out the kinks of it all, but soon we will be opening Eva's, along with a club

Enough of my background talk, back to the task at hand, making sure that this event is running smoothly, "Ms Logan?" My assistant Noma called​ me

"Yeah" I turned to look at her

She cleared her throat, "We have a problem" ah shit, those were not the words I needed to hear right now. I frowned at her, urging her to continue, "Its seems as though the bar is about to run out of liquor. We ordered more than enough, but we didn't anticipate that this many people would be here tonight" she fidgeted, looking scared as shit, "The venue has extra liquor, but we will have to pay twice the amount for their stash"

Ouch, twice the price, I didn't like that at all, but we didn't have a choice, we needed to make sure that our customers are satisfied. Not having enough alcohol shouldn't be the reason that our customers are not happy, so if twice the price is what we have to pay in order to do that, then so be it

I sighed, as much as I didn't like it, it had to be done, "If that is the amount we need to pay, then so be it. We'll deal with the payment​ later" I dismissed her by waving my hand

People could say that I'm a ruthless boss, I however, disagree. I just believe that everything should be done in a meticulous manner. Perfect, so to say

Now that that dilemma was sorted, I needed to find Eva so we could enjoy the festivity. I passed by the dance floor that was packed with men and women, mostly the latter, that were swaying to the beats of whatever song was playing. I continued off the dance floor and headed to the VIP, where one of the booths was, which we'd rented out just so that we could chill and let our people take over the reigns

What I didn't expect to see was Eva dancing all over some random guy I didn't know. I walked up to them, watching as she moved to the beat, while Mr Unknown swayed along with her, roaming her body with his hands

Well this is interesting, I wonder if I should break up the sex-fest I thought to myself, hell that's exactly what I'm going to do. So I walked over to Mr Unknown and tapped him on the shoulder, which caused him to pause his little sex-fest with my sister and look at me with a mug on him face. But when Eva realised who had stopped her fun, she looked at me shock eyed, then whispered in Mr Unknown's ear. I'm guessing dismissing him, much to his disagreement he left, very pissed off might I add

"Uhm, it's not what it looks like" Eva said eying me, like I cared what it was

I scoffed, and put my hand in her face, "Me, personally, don't care babe" I said as I gently hit her cheek. I looked out at the dance floor, watching as people enjoyed themselves, dancing, drinking, and most likely making some bad decisions, but I didn't care. My job was to satisfy my client, who by the way, was some big shot NFL player that I ain't never heard of, but his agent called wanting us to throw him this big shindig, the money was good, so I honestly didn't care who he was, as long as I got paid

The place was popping. I was glad, cause this shit nearly gave me stress

Eva walked over to where I was, and smiled at me, "We did one hell of a job sis, I'm happy it worked out" she shouted in my ear

I nodded, hell yeah we did a stand up job here, and we better be getting a hefty tip, "Well let's hope Odell likes it"

"C'mon let's go dance" Eva said as she dragged me downstairs to the dance floor. I looked at the back of her head, mugging her, I stepped closer to her ear, "Oh, like you was doing with ol' boy?"

She paused for a sec, then continued on her way like I ain't even said nothing. Oh so it was like that? Fine, we'd get to talk about that later I thought to myself

The DJ was playing some reggae, hip hop tracks, and as soon as we hit the dance floor Controlla by Drake started playing, my hips moved on their own accord. Anyone who knows me, knows I love dancing, plus this was my jam

I moved my hips to the beat of the music, closing my eyes and feeling the song vibrate through me. I'd even forgot that I was here with Eva at that moment. I felt strong arms wrap around my hips, a big bulky chest on my back, and hot breath on my neck, with a nigga moving with me as I danced

See most people would be wondering who this nigga was, but I knew exactly who he was. Its like I always knew when he was around, I could feel him even before he came to me. It's like we were always in sync, and we both couldn't explain it. Hell we didn't want to

My Justice was all I kept thinking, as we danced to the next song. I couldn't even hear what it was, all I heard was the beat of a heart that matched mine, his lips at the back of my ear, his hands on my hips, and his manhood pocking my ass. Damn this nigga did some things to me, things we shouldn't have even thought of doing

He spun me around, allowing me to see his face. He gave me his Justice smile, that was only reserved for me, and them gorgeous brown eyes searched mine. I knew what was coming, but we needed to stop, as much as I loved him, I couldn't be with him, and he knew that

I turned my head away, "Don't Justice" he sighed, held my wrist in his hand, and lead us both out of the club. Oh shit, here we go again I thought as I rolled my eyes at the situation that would soon ensue

If y'all are confused, then let me explain. JT and I have been best friends since way before we started middle school, tighter then a boy scout knot. I've had a crush on him since day one, but I didn't know if he felt the same way, so I never said anything, and ended up dating dead beat niggas who didn't know how to treat me right. I got hurt so much in the past, that I decided that love wasn't for me

Now this is where it gets complicated. About a year ago Justice was going through a rough patch, and whilst trying to comfort my dear friend, we ended up sleeping together. To say that was the best sex of my life would be an understatement, it was that good

Anyway, something that should've been a one time thing, became more, and a few months back he told me that he had feelings me. Now normal people would've told the person that they love, how they felt about them, but I'm not normal, so I told him we should quit messing around with each other, and he should find himself someone who isn't as broken as I am. We haven't spoken since. Hell I haven't seen him in ages, up until this point of course

So here we are, and knowing him, he doesn't like the fact that I've been ignoring him, and he's about to fuss. I can't be blamed for that, things just got complicated

This nigga has gotta stop dragging me, I mean damn, what am I? I rag doll I thought to myself, "Will you stop, damn!" I mugged him, as I snatched my wrist from his hold once we got outside

He stopped, then turned to look at me, "I wouldn't have to do this, if you would just answer my text, calls, hell the damn door when I come to your place" he said through gritted teeth

Well he pissed, "What you want Jus?" I crossed my arms and frowned at his ass. He's being rude, dragging me out here when I'm doing my job

He smirked, "Well for starters I want you, maybe after getting you, a kiss" he brought his lips to mine, but I turned my face away. He sighed, defeated, "Maybe more"

I looked at him, still frowning, "Yeah, that ain't gonna happen. You know that Jus"

The look in his eyes told me I had just broke his heart again, "I still don't get why? I know you want this as much as I do. Why you acting like you don't? Why would you want to throw away something that could be good for the both of us?" He asked sorrowfully

Tears were starting to well up in my eyes, I didn't want to cry, but this needed to be done. I don't trust niggas, even if that nigga is my best friend, "You know why, I can't do this with you" I turned around, going back to the entrance of the club

"I'm moving to Johannesburg" he shouted out at me. I turned around and look at him as he made his way towards me. He held my face in his hands, "Lo, I'm moving to Jo'burg. My manager thinks it's a good move for my career, and I think so too" he paused, then sighed, "But I wanted to see if for once you could quit ignoring the fears you have when it comes to being in a relationship, and try to at least let us happen" he had tears in his eyes as he said this

Jozi? He's moving to Jozi? I never thought this day would come where we'd have to be apart. I never thought it would hurt this much to hear that he's not gonna be around me anymore, but it does and I hate it. I cleared my throat, looking at the love of my life, and again masking my feelings, "Well that sounds like a good thing for your career. I'm happy for you" I shrugged nonchalantly

He sighed again, "You really not gonna fight for us to happen are you?" He shook his head, tears streaming down his face, "I'm not gonna fight if you won't, Lo. I want you, but if you don't want to let go of your past, then I can't do this any more" he spoke softly

"I've been in-love with you since as far back as I can remember. I've seen you with those niggas wishing it was me, and when we ended up in bed together, I thought it was my time" he shook his head, "But I wrong"

He looked at me with defeat in his eyes, "You look at me, and see all of them, not the man who's had your back since you were five" he placed his lips on my forehead, "I can't keep loving you, when you can't love yourself. I love you Lo, but I'm done fighting. I'm going to Jo'burg, I'm sorry" he said as he turned around and left standing in the cold of night all in my own

I should've went after him, I know I should've, but I didn't. Sometimes I regret it, then there are other times when I don't. I was protecting myself, and if he loved me like he said he did, then he wouldn't have left...right?

Anyway, mama always said that if it's meant to be, then it shall. If not, then move on, and that's what I did. I watched my best friend leave me in the parking lot of the club, and let him take my heart with him

I never kept track of what he was doing, didn't need to know. If I was gonna move on then I needed to cut the ties and do me, even if it hurt me in the process