6 Not just a clinic

Chris drove off as me and Brad walked up to the door. When I walked inside I noticed there were a bunch of men sitting in the waiting room that was off from the reception desk.

Brad sat in the waiting room with the other men and I walked up to the desk. My mind was in a daze. Do they know why I'm here or will they think it was for something else? So manny worried started to rush though my mind. When I heard the voice of the lady behind the desk i was able to snap out of my daze. I gave her my information and told why I was there.

That will be four hundred dollars. Are you paying with cash or with a card? I handed her the card Brad gave me before he sat down.

She printed out a receipt and asked me to sign. Oh is not my card. It's my boyfriend's. I went to get josh so he could sign it for me. He looked pitiful and innocent but, I knew it was an act. He did enjoy to wear his mask.

After the payment was taken care of they showed me to another waiting room. There was a variety of different women, and only women. Three African Americans including me, one Asian, four white and two Hispanic. There were ten tan fold up chairs that sat close together and every one was full except for one by the window that had a tint to it and is want an intentional one. Everyone was quite probably because we were all wondering the same thing? Who was here for what? I was the youngest looking one. I was 18 years old. I started college at 17.

We waited in quite as one by one a lady called us into a room. Then it was my turn. Good morning I ask you few questions and then walk you through what is going to happen when the doctor is ready for you. She asked the basic question you are asked when you have a check up. She asked me if I wanted to be informed if I was having twins and I told yes. She also asked if I'd like to know how may weeks pregnant I was. I told her yes to both.

She gave me pill and told me that when I was ready I could go to the bath room and stick it inside of me. She said it loosen my walls and warned me that after I put it in if I decide to keep my baby it could be born with a disability. She had me a pamphlet that I quickly stuffed into my purse before I went back to my seat.

Someone finally broke the silence amongst us. She Looked like she was about 25 years old. She asked what we all were to afraid to say. So ... is everyone here to get a abortion? Some of us nodded, while other re responded very badly. I answers were all the same.

Turns out that Bradon really did do his homework. This wasn't just a clinic it was an abortion clinic. All those men waiting outside we're just like him. Trying to get rid of something. Turns out some of the women in here were just like him too.

The ice had been broken and the fear of judgement after being found out left the room. With the fear gone the conversation began but I remained silent and listened. Hey I heard that someone is pregnant with twins a girl said to the one sitting beside. They were telling each other why they here. Which was that one was pregnant by her teacher and the other girl felt that she was too young to have children and she began to proudly boast that this was her fifth abortion.

My mind was boggled her fifth one ..... I thought to my self if you aren't ready just use protection. There where others who were like me they were here because they were scared and felt that they had no other choice. No matter what their reason was I couldn't judge them. In the end we were all here for the same reason and we were all about to make the same choice.

As I sat the other continued to converse and one by one about ever 30mins another girl was called to the back to see the doctors. As time passed by our numbers began to decrease and there were only three of us left. The nurse informed me that I would be next and if I hadn't used the pill yet that I would go and do it now.

I stood up and walked to the bathroom door. I took a deep breath and placed my hand on the door none. Just as i was about to go into the bathroom a loud scream came racing from around the corner. It sounded agonizing you could hear the cries within it. Shut up and be still a man's voice boomed behind it. I turned around and looked at the girls that remained in the waiting room with me. Was that the doctor I asked? She must have been the one who was having twins the girl who had five abortions answered me. I removed my hand from off of the door. I can't do this I thought to myself. I stood there for about six minutes hoping that Brad would come in and save me. That he would say it ok, you don't have to do this. We can keep the baby but, he didn't come. He wasn't going to save me. I would have to save myself.