7 My Little Secrets

I felt restless. You see, there were guards. Big guys with overwhelming muscles. Don't say afraid, I didn't even flinch to see their swords. Okaasama's cold eyes were much scarier. I didn't really remember her face yet, but I could vividly imagine the way she looked angry in disappointment. In my almost twelve years there, or my almost hundred days here, nobody could make me helplessly shrinking like Okaasama did.

This time was not the same. I was not afraid. But, definitely there was someone who made me creepy all over my body. When our eyes met, I just knew that person was up to no good.

"What are you looking for?" Mother hold the restless me carefully.

[Mother, look, it's her again!] I locked my focus to an old woman not far.

She was everywhere. In the garden. In the house. In the backyard. I only felt save when we were in our bedroom. First I thought it's just coincidence. But then, I remembered Anna's words the other day. When I started consciously look at my surrounding, I found the source of my bad feeling.

[Why'd no one understand baby language?] I complained to nobody.

"Annie, could you hold her?" Mother gave me to Annie and started wobbling.

[Are you not feeling well, Mother?]

"Let's go back, my Lady." -Annie-

Oh noo! Mother... sick again. Why? Didn't she take her medical bath, so why?

I behaved myself in my crib. Annie checked Mother with her magic before letting the other maid to call a doctor. And again, doctor said Mother just tired.

"Let me take baby Princess with me..." -Annie-

"No! It's okay. Anyway she can't sleep without me, so it's okay." -Mother-

I forced myself to sleep, so Mother could rest earlier. But then, I woke up at midnight. I was bored, so I started training my body. Well, basically just a little move with my four limbs up and down. Hey, maybe I could train at night. There wouldn't be anyone see even if I were to fail. Let's roll!

[Who is there?!] I felt someone watching me. Not the first time happened.

I just opened my mouth, ready to cry out loud, alarming everybody. Then suddenly...

"Sshh…" an angel descended from the ceiling.

Who?? I didn't fell any danger from him. Well, I admitted 80%, maybe I just struck by a big lightning that called handsomeness.

[Oniisama, sorry. You're no longer my number one.]

"Why are you not sleeping? Hungry?" he asked while carefully hold me up.

[Not hungry. So, who are you, big brother? A knight passing by? This is ladies room, you know? Don't think I'll let you just because that angelic face!]

"Mmhh…" Mother voiced a low cry in discomfort.

KPB (Knight Passing By) brought me near Mother. He looked at her with... not sure, complicated? Why'd he give that face?

[Are you a bad guy? Kidnapper? Or Assassin? Oh, I should know human couldn't be trusted!] I started to panic.

I thought to coax him so he would pity us, but how??

[Maybe I should give a puppy eyes? But... I only knew a dog, how would I know to mimic a puppy?!]

"I'm sorry...," he whisper softly.

[What are you going to do with my mother?!] I struggled again and again. Pull his ear, and hit his jaw. But my poor little fist did absolutely nothing. (And my brain totally forgot my baby's greatest weapon, I could just cry!! I felt stupid whenever I remembered this day.)

"What?" finally he changed his focus on me.

Well, I never see a puppy, but I had seen a baby. I just have to widen my eyes, and smiling.

[Take this... baby eyes beam!!] I tried, you know? And why this person just staring with no reaction?

"Your mother isn't feeling well," he put a hand in her forehead and tucked the blanket carefully.

[If you're not a bad guy, you could just say so! Why'd scared me like that?] I blushed with shame.

"I don't have milk, but if you're hungry... here!" he gave me something from a weird bottle.

I wanted to protest. But... my hands couldn't help but grabbed the bottle neck. [It's delicious. Hmm... what is this? How much you have, give me all of it!]

Okay, I would kept his coming here a secret. Anyway, he's not doing anything bad. It's definitely not because that delicious drink, I promised.

And of course, I would never tell anyone. In a tender age of three months++, I seduced a boy and failed miserably. Instead cute, he thought I was hungry.