2 My Beautiful Mother

(One Week)

A're? I couldn't move my body. I had been wrapped in some soft cloths. Even couldn't twist my neck to look at the surrounding. Ohh, being a baby is super helpless! My head was fuzzy these days, but it's getting better.

"Your husband is not coming yet?"

"I'm alright. Premature delivery is dangerous after all, of course she need priority. I'm okay. Our child and I are healthy. Isn't it enough?"

So, this is a baby's skill or something? I didn't know what language they're talking with, but somehow understand. I wondered, in which country have I reborn in? Hope it's a nice place to life.

The woman laid in my right, gently stroking her finger to my cheek, is my mother. Ohh, I have a mother! Banzai! Kamisama, I love you! I prayed when I woke up, with happiness filling my heart, hoping it's not just an empty dream. No, no, no. This's not a dream. I could feel her warmth.

"If only your child was born a boy…"

"Mother, please…! My husband said, he would be happy no matter our child is a boy or a girl."

The woman sat in my left, is my grandma. The more I remembered, the clearer my mind. And then, I decided, I didn't like my grandma. If I were born a boy, I'd be troubled you know? My soul is a girl THOROUGHLY. My mother would be brokenhearted if her son couldn't fall in love with a girl, wouldn't she?! Grandma… yup, I didn't like grandma.

"It's different now! Between a prince and princess, of course a prince will be better. Listen to me, Ellie! You must grab your husband's heart before it's too late! It's a pity you couldn't be the first prince's mother. If next time you're giving him a boy, then you could life here peacefully."

[Oh, I prefer be the only child. At least until I'm twelve years old, I wanna have my parents for myself.]

So sleepy….

[Un, so warm and smell nice. Mother's hands are the best.]

(Four Weeks)

This is fun, I wanted to say that, but no. I was happy, but... but... but!

[Why aren't we getting out of the room??] my protest isn't going through.

I remembered, I liked computer more than my friends. Still, I was out of our house to get some sun sometimes. Oh, I missed my annoying Oniichan. I didn't know why, but his face was the first that I remember. Maybe because he gave me more pocket money than the other.

"Baby Lil, are you full already?"

[I'm full.] "Urg!" I burped. Hey, I AM a baby, so this's a routine.

"Good girl," Mother kissed my forehead and smiled.

Well, maybe it's just my imagination, I felt my cheeks hot from blushing. I stared at her face, she's so beautiful. And young. Different from Grandma who is like a foreigner, Mother is a bit like a Chinese than a Japanese woman. Maybe Grandpa is Chinese people? Mother...

Giving birth with that delicate body, oh Mother, it's a miracle for both of us alive and healthy.

[Thanks for being my mom, Mother.]

In my past life, I was an orphan. I often wondered who and why'd my mom abandon me. I wanted to tell her that I will always love her. I wanted to thank her, for giving me a chance. I was a hindrance enough for her to left me at the orphanage. But still, she's kind enough to let me born.

Kamisama… I wonder, would she be sad if know that I already dead? Would she regret abandoning me? I really, really wanted to meet her.

Of course, I loved... no, I LOVE my foster family even now. Okaasama too. If I was good enough, she wouldn't be like that. Because I made her angry, because I was not good enough, I ruined her life. I made her be a murderer, I was a bad girl.

"Lady Ellie..."

"Annie... good, you came. Did you see him?" Mother asked anxiously.

"No... I... I am sorry. They're busy with preparation for little prince's full moon party. I... I couldn't.... They didn't let me meet His Highness."

[Mother?]

"It's okay, Annie. You can go."

[Not many people like Otōsama, a loving and gentle father. So, don't be sad... You're the most beautiful when you smile.] I wished to wipe her tears, but my little hands couldn't reach.

[Is it... because I am a girl?]

"Sorry, sweetheart. I guess, we will celebrate your full moon without him. Daddy must missed us too. He just... couldn't help it."

Kamisama… please, please let Mother be happy. I promised I'll be a good girl. Don't separate us. In this life, let her be my only mother.