2 chapter 1

I sit there in our room an empty shell of my self, trying to figure out how it all happened. Lucas and I had been dating for 3 years and last week i had found a ring in his coat pocket. I guess im really unlucky. I knew from first sight we would be together. I thought we would grow old together. Sadly his time on Earth was cut short.

Its been 3 weeks since the funeral and I still havent left our house. Mom says i should get out of the house but i just can't. I have tried to find out what happed to him but every time i get close to finding out anything at all the government tells me to budd out.

Im tired of the lies and secrets. Nothing people tell me is true. The only thing i know thats true is that I hate living here, on this Earth, without him. So I stand here at the top of this cliffside, I feel the ocean breaze through my hair and on my face. My heart calm, my head clear, my mind made.