1 Goodbye

Can you hear me?

Screaming and yelling

Asking for help

This so not who I wish to be

I don't want to be this quite kid

Who acts like everything is alright

But truly her life is f#cked up

Who lives her life surrounded by darkness

Is in the room but her mind is clouded

She is thinking of ways

To end it all

Or maybe

a way in which she can seek help

But in this world

No one can really tell

That she gets up in the morning

Trying to tell herself

That today will be different

But the very moment she steps out of that hundred and four bus

The ground begins to spin and her head begins to hurt

Her stomach grumbles and her legs begin to tremble

"I am not scared"

She yells

But in reality she is more than scared

And yet, when I ask

"Are you okay"

"I'm okay"

Yet,I don't see it in her eyes.

She ties her hair up

The same everyday

Because she fears they will laugh

She wears no jewellery

She claims they make her uncomfortable

She wears pants everyday

She says they are comfortable

They really are tho

I am rather insecure

But there is nothing I can do to change that

Because I will never be alright

So, goodbye.