1 INTRODUCTION

being a teen in a new school might seem hard to certain people

but in a totally different country with a new language , culture and people?

it might seem impossible to cope with

exactly for a 15 year old who was forced to leave everything including her dreams behind

well maybe some elders will see it in a silly way but at least i don't

i am a japanese my name is lee but they just call me lily here

oh yeh and about the "here" i am currently living on America

my mother lived most of her life here and thought she loved their culture and way of life alot and how friendly people were

i didn't really

i was always the quiet , thoughtful girl unlike my mother and little brother who are both full of power

i was like dad always on his manner i was always more practical

but i can't really deny that i inherited a single thing from my mum being sensitive not in a way inwhich you cry if someone shouts at you

but in a way that when i really love something it is hard to leave it and so hurtful

leave us from this

now that i have been here for 4 months already some would say i got used

but i didn't really

i might have met a nicr girl in the class but not that i can call a friend not till now at least

(on the other side my brother already have everyone's phone number i think ,by next month, he will be the principal's best friend)

talking about school you can't just leave the teachers behind and tho non really seemed to recognize who the hell i was one seemed friendly the german teacher well

my 2nd language and my worst nightmares

well at least in the past few years

tho i have tried for tons of times to learn that language i never could everything was hard and i literally don't even have an idea how to use the simplest verbs

well at least i am getting better in the past 4 weeks but i am still really feeling weird of how others are trying snd i don't even get what is being told

on lunch it feels even more weird while everyone is carrying pancakes , hotdogs maybe or fruits

i usually get rice milk and some source of protein usually fish since it's my fave

(but everyone looks at me as if i am eating human meat)

i hope this year just ends really 🤦‍♀️