2 Chapter-2 Past Memories

No alarms and no crows. No parents for shouting wake up and no siblings for annoying and waking up. I just wake up on my own and keep lying on the bed with closed eyes. Thinking of random things, Picturing the few people I knew in the past. Remembering the incidents of the past. The embarrassing ones that no longer bother me. The funny ones that can't even make me smile anymore. The annoying ones that don't boil my blood any longer. And lastly the sad ones. Which still hold the power to make me cry. So I like to avoid them the most.

I quickly get up and go the the washroom, splashing loads of water on my face. I refuse. I refuse any sad past memory to come to me right now. I won't allow. I'll keep my mind and body busy. Yes I will.

-20 mins later-

Currently walking to university with earphones plugged in. Songs. Music. Melody. Soulful. If only I could earn money by listening to songs, I would've been a millionaire by now. Love would be too small of a word to express my feelings towards songs.

They rescue me from my thoughts and they give me thoughts too. They are my home and my prison. They are the warmth and the cold.

I don't know how to put into words. They are both, my happiness and my greif too.

-Night-

~~Tomorrow. It's tomorrow. That day will be here again tomorrow. Everything will be normal for everyone else, only I will be in more pain. I think tomorrow's letter will be longer than the others too. Because tomorrow is that day. The one I want to avoid the most. Why does it come back every year? Tommorow.....All the past memories I avoid 364 days of the year will flood into my mind. And even songs wouldn't be able to make me escape. Save Me...~~

Past and memories.....Only if I had no past and no memories. Would I have lived a better life?

Past....

Memories....