2 Forcefully Separated for now...

Baby I Love you I am going to Miss you When I go TO jail tomorrow.... This is going to Be forced Seperation for us.... I don't know how it is going to make you feel But I know I am definately going to have a hard time dealing with it...But this is what happens when I start not paying attention to my actions and my Responsibilities.... I should have been a little more focused on my (Adult like Responsibilities: But No I got caught up into wanting to get high that I accidently looked over all the warning signs... I have never felt so lost before, like I have been feeling lately...I have no Idea what has gotten into me But I need to straighten up again and get myself Back on track to doing the Right and responable things as in, on Keeping my Job that I just got and a place to live...whether it be the YWCA still or talking to that lady with 2 Rooms for rent ... That honestly would be more to my liking than staying .{or barely staying } there at the YWCA... I think I would like it a lot better with less rules probably no curfew...and I will be able to have you come over and see me or even stay the night with me... Being I am going to Jail tomorrow. What do you think about me coming and staying the night with you tonight??? If not...its cool I understand, and get it if there is a hint there that I need to open my eyes and take a hint...hopefully it is actually not like that...for many years it has always been a struggle for me to say and open up with my feelings it has always been hard for me to put my feelings out there on the table for everyone to see but with you it seems like it is a lot easier for Me to open up and let you know how and what I feel When I'm feeling my feellers...like I said last night for some reason I am sprung, Attached, head over heels for you...I feel like I never want to leave your side every time you go to drop me off anywhere... Even When you tell me that you are coming Back... When we depart from each other I get all Retarded and mentally lost and out of this world... You make me feel like I am getting high off your Love and Presants... And I love the feelings I get from being with/or around you... you can make my heart do Crazy things that are so far out of this World... Kinda like making my heart Dance, Skip, Jump and it feels like it is just going to Jump Right out of my chest... you make me so happy in so many different ways it's incredible and it is the most Incredible heart stopping and Breathtaking feeling ever that I have ever experienced ever in my whole entire (Almost) 25 years of my life... When I'm With You it's like I'm on Cloud 9 Just waiting for the most incredible and unique Ride of my life... Please let me know if I am taking my feelings and being open to far... Like it is Wierding you out and makes you wanna Just say (alright Lady take it down a notch or 2... Its okay if you do Because without knowing I let a little to many feelings get out on the table... I don't want to over do it and just go overboard with my feelings...I don't wanna freak/or Creep you out... But I have to let it out and tell someone or it will Just start adding to all the shit I hold back that eventually will just lead into a mental, and nervous Breakdown and We already know how that could workout for not only me but you and everyone else too... Someone could end up getting hurt...and we don't really Need any of that shit going on Right? Right.... Exactly my point... So you understand where I am coming from... I Hope So... I hope I am making some sense with what I am saying...I Just need to get it all out and off my chest and out in the open...but if you don't want to know or want to Listen/Read this you don't have to I Really do understand I wouldn't Wanna do it just to get Wierded Out by all my feelings: I want you to know I don't know if I can or even want to live my life without you... You Know I have dealt with alot of failed Relationships and Baby-momma drama But with you, I don't get that failed, failing or failure feeling... All I get is Love, Passion, Caring, acomplishment, Comitment, Happiness, faith, hope, Joy, courage, and importance...If Can finally say "I feel like I am actually wanted, appriciated, loved, like I actually have a purpose here (in these moments, in this town, and on this planet I feel I have an existance when I'm around you I feel noticed and cared about.. Since you have been around I haven't felt lonely or abandoned...you make my heart glow and Beat so fast and I Know for a fact nobody else has ever Made me feel so alive definately never made me feel like that ever... I tell myself that I really think your the missing piece to my never-ending Story...you give me a feeling purpose in my life that keeps me going and wanting more and more everyday...I cant get enough of your love and compassion... You definatly make me a spiritally, mentally, and emotionally stronger person and I cant help but want more...at the Same time I don't want to feel Selfish at the Sametime as feeling so loved and Charished...you are a very talented, incredibly loving, and caring individual... you Rarely, find anyone Like that or even Just anywhere Close to it...you have this sparkly-Glowin your eyes and your Smile...I Love Seeing you smile and Be So happy especially Being around me... you are very Relitively-Similar to the man of My dreams... The Dream-man I always  Wanted in my life but was told for a long time that he is just a fairly-tale of my imagination... But look they were wrong... And I just really dont want to lose Something so good that is just so important to me... I Really Do Wanna Marry you, take your last name hopefully have kids of our own and live ever-so happily and also hopefully have the opportunity to have your Kids apart of my life too (as my Step-Kids) Bring you to Meetml dad, Little Sister, my whole family from Soap Lake and here in Wenatchee... You are the biggest and most important thing in my life Right Now and I Love it...I Love You, your personality, the Way you make the feel When you hold my hand, Kiss Me on my kneck and lips and not to mention the way you can handle Me a Little Rough in Bed... Man I love the feeling I get in my whole core when you start and continue to choke Me, and not to mention your always up for a challenge... Like Your fist DAMN Baby oh how I Loved every second of it...how it felt oh so amazing when you just fucking shoved it like no other...you incredible, handsome, thoughtful and very talented with your Slick and incredibly not and Sexy moves. .. you definatluly Know What you are doing and how to satisfyingly please your "lady-friend" (your Girlfriend) I have been searching arers Where for you...and now that I got you I don't wanna let you leave.... you are litterally Who I have been searching dreaming of and waiting for, to come into my life and make me know Im definatly worthy, and actually have a purpose/a Reason why I am here: thank you Bacillio for showing me that I belong and for loving me much... You are lilterally my forever, always and infinity...