9 Part Three

Letters at the Door Part Three

/Erin/

I couldn't believe what I was seeing I thought Amy did something terrible so I came to confront her and Kayla's just standing there nearly naked. The night she came to me I could taste the alcohol on her breath that's how intoxicated she was. She told me a lot that night about what happened between Amy and her as well as her boyfriend and me. I know how protective Amy has been of me but I couldn't believe what I was seeing, that night Kayla and I slept together. Yet she also found her way into Amy's bed it seems and now I'm confused more so.

Did she not remember what happened between us I figure she left after she woke up because she was late. But finding her like this here and now was making my head race. I finally found the ability to speak, remembering she wasn't mine, to begin with. So how could I be mad at her, she even has a boyfriend still.

Erin; " I came here to confront Amy but it seems I didn't need to, everything seemed to work out overall I guess."

Amy; " Uhh what do you mean and I didn't expect you to come here so early in the morning."

Erin; " Kayla told me what you did when she was drunk but I guess it's water under the bridge. I came last night after work but no one answered the door. Well I'm interrupting something so I should leave, have fun"

I left as quickly as I could Kayla looked crushed but didn't speak a word but she doesn't need to. I thought I would cry but instead, I'm fine enough without more tears it seems. I didn't wannabe back outside but I was convinced I could help her with Amy, yet again I was wrong I guess.

Kayla; " Erin Wait"

She called out but I didn't stop walking I wanted to go home where it was safest for me. But she's quicker and managed to catch up to me.

Kayla; " Let's talk I can explain well kind of but please we should talk first."

Erin; " What's to talk about I came to set her straight but you are fine so I'm going home. You are not obligated to me in any way, so let's just walk away."

Kayla; " Look I had a lot happened yesterday, I broke up with my boyfriend and stumbled into Amy's workplace. I agreed to have a drink to get to know you and her better. It was stupid and a mistake I was just looking for an answer"

Erin; " It's fine we are just two people born to different lifestyles. Who wants different things, you have work still at the Star top so we are still going to be in contact. But for me, I need to find space and solitude."

After that, I walked away keeping myself together as best I could from years of practice. I think I found a way to be okay with this because I also realized what all this was for me. But even as I arrived at home it didn't take long to have someone knocking on my door. I figured it was Kayla but no it was Amy which could only mean she's here for a reason, I'm guessing Kayla or she followed me home. But it didn't matter I let her in because I was curious what she could want.

Amy; " Taking this better than I thought, sure you are okay?"

Erin; " Yea I was caught up in the past and I forgot myself. It took some time to realize that but I finally did. She was a crush nothing more, I just wish I realized sooner is all. I acted childish in some ways."

Amy; " We'll don't count yourself and her out she was lost you know. But she managed to find her answer, it even brought back memories for her. Well, memories of when you two had sex of course. "

Erin; " Ha... You are something else Amy, so why do you say that then?"

Amy; " She may not recall everything that we did but she was calling out your name a few times when I hit the right spot. I'm sure you found similar spots on her."

Erin; " Haha... Yeah, she has a good bit of those for sure, I guess that's a plus for her. But how about we talk about why you are here?"

Amy; " We'll I have a lost puppy mopping around my apartment so I brought her here to mope with you. But you are not mopping so you can deal with the mopping, and I can go home to get ready for work, or ill be late."

As she said Kayla was mopping but I was able to calm her down and at least get a partway smile. We sat down for her to tell me everything and what she discovered, after realizing my shortcomings I was able to be less emotional. She explained a reason other than lust as to why she went with Amy and I had to accept that, she wanted to know if there was a difference between us. This is understandable, it's sometimes difficult to find the line between lust and attraction. Similar to me since I was finding my line blurred.

She told me that she wanted to try and date properly like a go-slow thing, and see what happens. I know she just broke up so I told her we can go slow start at the line everyone eventually finds. Because I found a way to accept my past and still be okay hiding away at my home. This is just another piece to add to my puzzle now.