1 my end

how i feel nostalgia for the past it really hurts, the past it's really the time where I belong my memories are last in that time also my thoughts and the people that I've loved, Ah! the people that I've loved in better way the person that I've loved and i still love.

My God! "love" it's really a beautiful word isn't ,when two people meet each other and feel something that makes them feel they belong to each other and nothing really matter when they are together, it's really frustrating, for me that word wasn't nice it was a painful and a sad word that can drag people to do crazy and stupid things that drives you to hell i really don't want to hear that word again i feel it's a disgusting word because of it i changed a lot and i I've started to not know myself any more. I know that i said that love isn't a good thing but at least that's the way how I feel and i don't lie to myself and believe that one day this all going to change, i used to have a high spirit but right now I'm just a trash a lonely person his heart is empty and full of tragedy who dosen't have a hope to claim on it or even a people that he can back to them and feel that no matter what happens they going to be their for you waiting for you with patient just to see you and tell you (welcome back ) i don't have no one like that I'm just in simple word "lonely" because of love i left everything behind my back and chased the shadow of love i became a hopeless person that can't be saved my soul disappear because the thing that was waking me is gone now and it's the people and the voices of them are not exist anymore,the past and personnes around you make how you are and me i don't have those things anymore i will give everything to bring them back it really makes me sad,I'm surrounding to my reality and i realize that i did this with my own hands and i stopped believing that someone or something going to pick me up from this shadow .

this me right now the that i became thanks to "love" and I'm righting this now because i don't really have anyone to share this with him like i said earlier I'm lonely and those sad memories become heavy on my heart and they burning me inside so, i decided to imptied what's in my entity in this pages for i can feel comfort