Let's Take Our Winding Crossroads Again, Shall We?

He was my world. He was my everything. But I wasn't his. Still, I insisted to be one. Now he's gone. He disappeared from my life. I am just counting the few remaining time of my pathetic life. Remembering the days I made ridiculous decisions and created problems after problems. I smiled bitterly. I made my life this miserable but I still wanted to blame others. If I wasn't blinded by selfishness and jealousy I could see the real picture. If I wasn't clouded with too much envy I could avoid those tragedies. If only I could re-live my so called life, I would treasure everything especially him. I wouldn't be consumed by greed. If only... I finally closed my eyes with my being fully consumed with regret. I whispered softly one last time... His name and I'm sorry. I thought I will never open my eyes again, but... I did. **** Hiatus