1 Chapter 1

Jake's POV

3:00pm

They say life is short so make the best of it. But for me it doesn't always work like that, because no matter what you do, life doesn't always work the way you want it to be, there will always be something that tear your plans into shreds.

They say if things go as the way you wanted it to be then life would be boring, but sometimes it's nice to be like that way, doesn't it ? having a life that has no problems or whatsoever, where you would live to have an adventure without having any fear that people will judge you or make you look bad in front of the others. But I guess it doesn't go that way, huh ?

Every people has their own boulder to lift and that boulder become more bigger as life goes on and as you make your own decisions, sometimes it becomes a problem because it became bigger than you could handle, you need someone and you went to ask them for help, your family, your friends or your relatives but sometimes it's better to lift it alone because you know that they also have their own problem and you just don't want to add a weight on them, so you didn't ask for help and just sit there behind your rock.

I'm Jake 21 years old, I have few friends because some of them also got a life to live so.. yeah. I have a family as well like you but uhmm.. we aren't communicating because I'm sort of anti-social and I'm not good at communicating at people right now.

I marked a date at December 31, 2020. When I first mark that, it was around 2017 life was really hard back then and I said to myself If I can't make my life better maybe it's better to die since, I don't have any reason to live and I'm full of negativity and instead of getting my life better I think I am only making it worst.

And now I'm here.. standing at the edge of the rooftop..

???: What are you doing up there ? It's dangerous you know plus it's very windy up here, if I were you, I'll go down immediately.

Jake: I was just wondering, what does the bird feels when it flies up the sky... and how strong the wind blow on it's face, when someone shoots it down.

???: You are so weird, you know that ? so what's your name ?

Jake: Aren't you suppose to say your name first ?

???: Hmm... fine fineee.. my name's lily and you ? *reaches his hand*

Jake: (lily eh ? what a cute name just like her) the name's jake ooop.. ack!! *drops at the floor*

Lily: *pulled his hands* I told you it's dangerous, didn't I ?

Jake: (that hurts you know) you don't have to pull me down since I would go down anyway. Nice to meet you though

Lily: I'm sorry it's just that I can see in your eyes you were ready to jump any moment.

Jake: Nah I won't. I'm just here to feel the wind (not really) plus *pulls out something in the bag* I'm here to drink this little guy.

Lily: WTF what do you mean by little guy ? That's a 1500ml of alcohol. Are you drinking all of that alone ?

Jake: Well kinda.. you could join me if you want.

Lily: Well.. I'm not really a drinker so I only drink beers not those. But if you want me to then..

Jake: Okay I won't force you, then time to start.

Lily: Hold on !! I'm just kidding pour some for me too.

Jake: Alrightyyy

*Jake and Lily drink until the sky become dark*

Jake: Hey, it's pretty dark now don't you think ?

Lily: oh it's sleepy time, then goodnight now Mr.Stranger.

Jake: Okay goodnight.. WAIT NO NO YOU SHOULDN'T SLEEP HERE YOU KNOW

Ughhh!! this is so troublesome. I can't just leave her here, can I ? Maybe the bottle, I can, but her ?

Hey, hey! wake up, you need to go now or you'll catch cold tomorrow morning, I got something to do too you know ?

Lily: huh ? dad ? what are you doing there ? please don't leave me, I don't want to be alone, dad ! dad ! wake up please.. *sniff* *sniff*

Jake: why is she crying so suddenly and what happened to her dad ?

well it's not my business, I just want to jump now, atleast while I'm still drunk because alcohol gives me courage to do things I'm scared of..

Lily: dong weame mwe awone (don't leave me alone) *hold on to Jake's leg*

Jake: HOY LET ME GO NOW I SAI-- FINE!! I won't go so please stop crying and let go of my leg.

Lily, was it ? tell me, what happened to your dad ?

Lily: He died.. kid..

Jake: Died ? kid ? wait the what now ?

Lily: Hmm.. hmm.. *shakes her head* shh..

Jake: I guess she's too drunk to talk.. *yawn* I'm tired now, I guess I need to carry her to her room.

Hey Lily where do you live ? Let me carry you there..

Lily: twee.. oh.. sweeks..

Jake: Let's have fun there shall we ?