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I sat in class thinking about what I'm going to do later the letter is in my bag, the bell ringed I grabbed my bag and laptop and walked out of class one, someone tapped my shoulder I looked around and it was this small girl who was in my Math class she said hey I was just wondering if you can help me with this problem I said sure and said let's walk to the library she said ok, we got to the library and we sat down it wasn't a hard problem I explained it to her and I think she understood I got up grabbed my bag and said well I'm going she said bye, I walked all home and went to my room the house was empty my mom doesn't get back till 7 so I have enough time I rolled up my shelves up looked down at them disappointed all the scars to my wrist all the way to my shoulders,

I started to clean a little bit, I looked up at the clock and it was 5 I walked upstairs I walked to my mom's room and walked in the bathroom and opened the medicine cabinet grabbed a bottle and a half of a bottle of pain killer that was in the cabinet I count find anymore I walked to my room and sat down at the other said of my bed I opened the bottle popped a few grabbed my water on the side of my bed drank it poped more and more in my mouth grabbed my water to wash all the pills down at this point I'm not thinking straight I keep popping pills in my mouth when I was done I sat on my bed and I was just thinking about what happened in my life my dad left me my mom doesn't care about me she is always working I can't think about the last time we spent time together so she won't care if I died then my phone ringed and it was a boy I liked for a while now he texted me and said hey I passed out

I woke up and saw a bright light I moved my hand to cover my eyes my head hurts I looked over and my mother is sitting on the chair on her phone as nothing happened she looked up and saw me she was saying something I turned around and fell back to sleep I woke up and looked around and saw no one sitting there I sat up and looked around and just noticed that I was In a hospital and my head doesn't hurt anymore

The door opened some nurse looked up and said oh your up ill get you mother I said what time it was she said it was 2 in the morning I said thanks she closed the door

I failed god I can't even kill my self right, the door opened and my mother walked in and she had a disappointed look on her face she said so why you wasted my time I said why do not care about me like a mom should and not be at work all the time then she just sat down scrolling on her phone

when they finally let me go and determined that I was not treated to my self any more we left and when we were on our way home we didn't talk, when we got home she asked if I want something to eat I said yeah sure she grabbed her phone and said she said what do you want to eat I said pizza sounds good she said ok then called them then she said want to watch a movie I said sure, She is finally being nice to me I wanted to ask her why she is being nice to me but I wanted this moment to last it was kinda awkward doing stuff like this

Days passed and she was spending time with me more and more it was fun but I wanted to ask so bad I finally got the courage to ask her, she was making food and I was watching her I said hey why are you being to nice to me she turned around and started me in the eyes and said