1 DAY ONE

Date: wed, 19/03/2020

Hey, do you know about that "LOVE" which is all yours ,given to you after knowing the fact that you are leaving, that love is like remorse for that guilt, that guilt which ,"I wish I would have let you know" or something like that.

that love which is like last time confession made by female lead to leaving male lead,

yeah that love is given to me by everyone i know, even by them whom I don't know.

because I am leaving after 15 days i got 15 days to live and leave, by the way I Am Daisy though This ain't my real name but I like Daisy so let consider me Daisy.

about the fact ,how I am Dying I don't wanna know because who and why to ruin your last cell left in your head understanding that stupid medical terms .

I am sentenced to die by doctors that what I really know. Let me mention ,no hate to doctor even they can't save me.

I am a dumb young teenager ,and should I share a secret I am little happy that I am Dieing. Because this is what I really wished for, when ever I felt I am losing.

Just like every other teenager, I was too running in the race of perfection, living under the fear of future and with burden I am losing myself.

I guess these last 15 days will teach me a life lesson , which I skipped thinking I have immense time to learn about it.

Today I thought of writing my last 15 days lesson or experience, I always thought its boring to write diary but this time I am Determined to write it.

as today nothing special happened all same ,medicines were forced in my mouth mom , dad and my younger brother being the cheerleader for me for eating medicine.

yeah I am the oldest one in the house. you know I guess the news of my leave is bringing change in the house.

I guess they are the big change because I think my brother will be more independent, I feel sad too that I won't be there as cheerleader and won't be able to see him grow but then too ill try to be his gaurdian angel.

Actually I think I fear the most is who's gonna look after my mom and dad, this scares me from dying who's gonna be with them.

anyway there's lot to say but words are less .

I guess lastly I love you mom dad and my Lil dear bro.

so that's it for today ,bye and good night. ;-) .