1 Chapter1: Dark puppet;I cursed and she's dead
With $241.76 of monthly earnings, Mr.Harka is now a responsible father from an intolerant husband with his perception and traditional concepts where more priority is given to a son rather than a daughter.
"Those long black eyelashes are wet because of that big watery eyes & there seems a little hole marked beautifully in her chubby cheeks when she smiles gracefully. Isn't she so adorable honey? " said Mr. Harkas's beloved named Fulmaya.
"What ?? Beautiful my foot! What's she gonna do with this beauty? Will she carry all these responsibilities, can face all this problem that I am facing right now?? Can she make my life happy and comfortable? Can she work overnight? NO!NO!NO! She is just a burden !! I wished to have a son not this beautiful with such f**king eyelashes, smile blah blah! " said Harka exploding like a bomb with all his temper...
And there's a girl, unknown of everything what's going around and who is playing right now - lying on the right side of her mother.
Time elapses, she is named Tara(moon). After 8 months, she started kicking in the air when she wants to play cause all she can do was lying on her bed. She started crawling and cuddling but not on her father's lap. At the age of 1-4, she used to fall but got no chance to hold his hands to stand again. Simultaneously, she has to go through pain. Before she could hold her parent's thumbs with her soft and small hands, she was sent to KUMARI GHAR (A palace where a Royal Kumari is selected from among several Kumaris during which her feet must never touch the ground and will leave residence only during certain festivals.)Now, she is a Royal kumari (virgin in Nepalese; a pre-pubescent girl who is carefully chosen for her beauty to represent an incarnation of goddess Kali.)
Here lies a time when her father is happy & proud of her as she sits upon a gilded iron throne wearing red clothes in her body, hair in a topknot, and fire eye painted on her forehead.
Tara was an elder sister now but was inside a four-wall room poorly lighted with candles and lamps. She could rarely meet her parents. For god's sake!, she had passed 9 years without roaming with friends, gossips, the internet, parent's care, and love.
She reached puberty at her 13 and now she was happy cause she could see the bright light outside that dark room as soon as she had her mensuration for the first time. But sadly she was put through a 12 day 'Gufa ritual' where she will spend her time in a fully dark room. She was now again not allowed to meet any men and see the sun.
During the 8th day of Dashain ( The main festival of Hindus in Nepali society) called Kala Ratri, the selection process of Kumari begins and the freedom & happiness of Tara's begins too.
Greenfields, busy people, blossoms, kids playing on the road, noisy vehicles, etc. were now visible for Tara's sight outside her window whereas her brother was playing and laughing with her father and her mother was doing some household works.
Unfortunately, Tara stopped bleeding for 6 months after her first mensuration. And thus her father takes this as the sin of her previous life and the sin of being a burden to his family.
Damn! her life was so terrible because of all these superstitions.
Whereas she got her regular mensuration after some months but was not allowed to enter the kitchen to drink or eat and worship god in the morning. If she does so, then there's a saying that "God gonna curse on her whole family. Something wrong will surely happen." :)
Tara is now 18, she was forced to get married but was studying as well. So refusing those marriage proposals and getting yelled as louder as thundering was in her daily routine. But somewhere besides all these Fulmaya's health was getting worse day by day but she never complained about it to her husband...
"Mom, do you think it's fine to hide everything? You may over bleed because of some serious problems. You should check it up first. I don't want to lose you like this" said Tara.
'No dear, How can I say to your father that, I am having heavy vaginal bleeding ? It's such a shame! And it's better to die rather than wasting money on treatments. " said Fulmaya.
Tara replied, "You've sacrificed yourself for this house & still you think money values more than you? What if you die? Who gonna take care of me and my brother the way you did? I will talk to dad if you hesitate to express your problems to him. But mom please don't shut ..."
"Just stop it! "{ Fulmaya interferes into Tara's talk.}
"Everything's gonna happen as my faith decides & according to god's will. I am none to decide anything & I don't want to be a burden for your father. Your father's having stress already" said Fulmaya with tears.
As Fulmaya said, according to the god's will she went to heaven when she was hospitalized in her critical condition.
Tara hugged her mother and shouted " Moooooom..... Oh god! Whyyyyyyy... Instead of her you should have taken me either ... moooom..."
"You b*tch...God was waiting for our good days. My promotion was near. God had sent those marriage proposals to sent you away from us and for our happy livings but you always refuse it. And see now your sin took your mother away... You are totally a hell, a f**king misfortune, " Harka yelled at Tara.
"But what have I done?" said Tara. {Shows her shocked expression ...}
"You... Yes, you! Cursed on your mom and now she's dead " Harka replied .. {Pointing towards Tara}
"Yes.. ! Yes! I've cursed on her..." { With a loud voice}
" You sent me to Kumari Ghar before I could speak fluently and I was silent."
"You never allowed me to play with my brother's toys and I was okay."
"You wanted me to get married because of my irregular mensuration as you see these as the sin but I never complained that how much it hurts inside... right here."{pointing towards her heart}
" I'd always done what you have told me. My childhood was completely ruined. For the first time, I've listened to my heart and thus I refused to get married and choose my career rather than a guy and you think I curse on her ?....."
"She was always by your side. You grabbed her wings by your f**king hands . "
"Nither she stopped working nor she takes any rest. You slept with her body but never talked with her soul. She was yelled, badmouth &cursed at days but suddenly you were warmhearted and calm and your love arrives at night when it's time to give a f**k. Her whole life was dark even she could see that sun rising in the morning."
"She could walk but the direction & path were yours."
"She could laugh but jokes must be yours."
"And you still think that I...I curse on her? How can I curse on my mother? How? "
"We both were in your hands. You cut off our wings and tied us with a thread of fear. We take a vow to never make eye contact with you. We always bowed our head every time we see you & in front of this whole world. But still, we couldn't see any light."
"People live on this earth, this is the whole world for them. But for us.... for us .. we are living in your country, your state, your world, where you rule and we accept; Where you control us."
"We were your dull, weak, hopeless & dark puppet and you say I curse on her and she's dead ?? "
"Yes I curse on her and see... see nah! ....she's dead ! HaHaHaHaHa :( " said Tara
{She kneeled infront of her misery carrying a broken heart}
