1 Hesitation at its finest

What's wrong with me? Tell her what's wrong. Why are you hesitating? Please tell her. She'll be able to help you.

"What's wrong Taylor?"

"Nothing"

Why did you just say that? Now she'll think there's nothing wrong even though there is. Tell her please. I can't do this anymore. I feel so dirty.

She'll probably feel disappointed and disgusted at me. I can't let her be dirty and ruin her. But what about me? I don't want to think about.

I don't want to think about that moment. Or what happened that night.

That moment is forever scarred in my mind because of my decision. It was my fault. It was me who distracted him. It was me who signaled him to come into the room with my body not my voice. No one will know what will happen if you don't say anything.

I need to distracted myself. Maybe I'm too young to understand what happened. I'm being too dramatic. Maybe it's my pre-teen hormones kicking in.

It was my fault.