1 Chapter 1

It was during that certain day, the day where I first saw you. You, who was so deep in your reading look so mesmerizing to me. From then onwards, my eyes could only followed your silhouette. It was started with just a mere interest but then, the more I looked at you, the more I anticipated the time when I can see you again, even from a far just like I have always did. Time passes by, without knowing, the me that was innocent start to slowly falling in love with you and when I realized it, it was at the point of no return. I could no longer unloved you.

I was surprised to see you again, at the time where we were officially engaged for I never dare to imagine that my fiancé will be you. Somehow, even though this bond of us were arranged by both our parents, I felt happy, knowing that it was you. I hide my excitement behind my poker face, so that no one knows what I truly felt, cause in this world of us, where people wear a mask of their own to hide the real intention hidden behind their mask, I did not dare to show how happy was I to soon being yours. How scared I was, if you ever be harmed because of me, Gui Jian.

In the period of time that we have before our wedding, we met twice, once for our wardrobe fitting and once to look for our wedding band. During that time, no matter how much you try to settle things as quickly as you can, I was still happy, because in those short moment I could see you and be with you, Gui Jian. I remember the time when we were to choose our wedding band, I asked you which style do you like and you said that you did not care. Did you know, that was the first time that I knew your opinion on our arrangement. How my heart dropped knowing that I was the only one excited for it and the smile that was once on my face, was no longer there anymore. I try to erase the awkwardness that was there by choosing the wedding bands that caught my eyes the most, knowing that it did not matter to you whichever it was that I picked. I choose that pair of platinum rings with emerald, as it symbolized love and to me, it symbolized my love for you though you may never know about it, Gui Jian. As soon as we settled paying for it, I saw how anxious you were, keep on glancing on your watch, therefore I told you that you may go if you want to as I did not want to keep you here against your wish and with that, you then took your leave.

A week before the wedding, I came to know Gui Jian, I came to know the reason why you were not pleased with this engagement. I came to know that you have someone that you love and that person was not me. Gui Jian, I wonder why you never came to tell me the truth, maybe if you did I could break this bond that made you unhappy back then, cause now I could not, not that after I realized that you meant more to me than I ever thought. I love you Gui Jian.

It was the day, the day of our wedding. I saw how reluctant you were to put our wedding ring on my finger and I saw how your eyes glanced at the crowd in front of us. My eyes followed yours and it fell at the lady who could be seen trying to hold back her tears. My eyes then moved to your face and I saw a pained expression showing on it I figured out, the identity of the lady, and I knew she was the one who occupied your heart. I could only smiled sadly at that fact. Gui Jian, sorry for I could not let you go. Please let me be selfish, just this one time. Allowed me to selfishly loved you Gui Jian.

Seeing her today, I have expected for you not to come back tonight, but why was I still be disappointed and hurt knowing that you would not be back. I guess I thought so highly of myself when the truth was that my heart still greed for more of you. Even when I knew you would not be back tonight, but I could not help but to wait for you. Maybe... Just maybe... You will come back tonight. But I knew the truth that it was too good to be true. One hour... Two hours... Three hours... You still did not come back home. I gave up on waiting for tonight as deep inside my heart, I already knew you would not come back.

A month pass by in a blink, I walked inside the 'home' that supposed to be ours and like any other day, I never saw a glimpse of you after that day. I have always called you but you never answered it, not even once. Sometimes I wonder, what am I to you, Gui Jian. Was there any space that could fit me in your heart even just a little space. Without you here, I always busied myself with the work in the office, hoping that doing all these things will took my mind away from focusing about you as not remembering you was much better than downing myself in my sadness of being pushed away by you and for that, they called me heartless, cold and emotionless Liu Ai Nuan. I wondered if you ever heard that rumor about me too. Did you think the same way like they did of me, Gui Jian?

One day, unexpectedly you came home. It was late by the time I arrived home late as it was due to the extended meeting in the evening. I looked at you who sat at the arm chair at the living room, you were playing with your phone.

"Hey Gui Jian, have you had dinner?"

I asked of you, softly, and finally you took noticed of me.

You looked at me with those cold eyes of yours, fury can be seen within those pair of eyes.

"Umm... Already."

You replied just as coldly as your eyes that was on me.

"Late because of work?"

He asked to which I nodded at, confirming it.

"Come home early next time."

He reprimanded me.

"Don't make grandpa worry that you will overwork yourself."

He added up and as he said that, I now knew that he was back because of grandpa, as Grandpa Gui really care for me as if I was his own granddaughter.

"Okay"

I replied him.

"Don't you have anything you want to say or ask?"

"No, there's none that I am concern of."

"Good then."

He asked me a question to which I replied and after hearing my answer he said his last word before making his way upstairs. Even so, I could not help but to notice the changes in his eyes that shows his emotion. The ignited fire within his eyes seems to burn more than it did before, I wondered what was the cause of it.

Soon after, I made my way upstairs to the room I lived in, opening the door I saw Jian, half naked with towel hanging loosely at his waist. My heart palpitating in the inside and I felt my cheeks reddened but even so I try to act cool, like I was unaffected by it. So I looked straight into his eyes with a question, 'why are you here in the room?' to which he verbally answered.

"I am staying here and it's not wronged for me to do so . We're husband and wife, don't forget that."

He warned me with a dangerous tone.