16 Cold Night and From Outside

I walked through the passages of the cave trying to find the exit and my way home but the only thing I got were stone walls, darkness and dead ends. I wasn't really sure I was at the same places over and over and ran in circles. I didn't wanted to give up. I finally made it out of the cell and now I didn't really wanted to get back. Trapped, surounded by metal rods like a bird in a cage.

I was sick of it. I wanted out. Home to my family and friends. I was so lonely. I felt hopeless. Everywhere I went nothing changed. No light, no nothing. I sighed and sat down to the cave wall taking another break. I was tired. I ran around since hours. It's probably morning soon. I should at least try to sleep a little. So I made myself comfortable on the cold ground as hard as it was but I didn't had a choice.

I planned on getting back in my cell when the person will bring breakfast and fresh clothes at 7 am. I fell asleep after an hour but didn't slept good. It was too cold, the stone was too hard and I didn't felt save. Also I still was hungry and not very happy. This fleeing from my cell got me nowhere. As I thought the cave was big and chaotic enough to be a labyrinth but I couldn't get out of it. Maybe there was a secret way in and out I didn't know about.

When I woke up at 5 am I couldn't sleep anymore. It was still so cold. I tried to walk around to find the exit but I didn't had much hope to find it. I just reached a dead end again and went back to the cell. I sat down near the cell door and looked inside. The food from dinner yesterday Was still there. I wondered how cold dumplings tasted.

My stomach made noices because I still was hungry. I sighed and stared at the metal rods. I still had half an hour to wait till 7 am. Till the person will hopefully bring breakfast. Also I was really thirsty. I didn't drank any water from the sink since yesterday evening and I was running around a lot. I felt how my eyes dropped because I was tired. I felt sleepy. Carefully I laid down to rest a little. I will wake up to meet the person soon enough. I wondered if it would say something but it never did before, so it probably won't. Did the boys wondered where I was? Or did they see I was running around in the cave too? Did they had cameras there too? Could they see me now too? Were they worried about me?

I wish I could see them and talk to them. I didn't even saw a picture of them or could listen to their music. Only thing I had was that image above the metal rods the first day I got here. I couldn't say anything. They just looked at me for a few seconds and left without a word. I imagined Patrick and Pete smiling and waving at me. I still loved them. Even if they trapped me in here. I missed them.