5 Chapter 3: Protect You

I looked at my long time friend for a little bit of some time, as I was a bit shocked with what it was that he had said to me. I did not expect him to support me in some thing such as that, as I had heard him tell me a lot more about how it was scary, rather than it being a beautiful place.

Ben seemed to not be paying me any sort of attention now, how ever, as I saw he was biting in to the dry food once again. I was still just a bit shocked by his response to me, as I had my head tilted at him for quite some time. I knew that he was still paying attention to me too, as I saw him shiver a bit, as I knew that he noticed that I was staring at him.

I was also still a bit lost by that response as well, how ever, as after all, it had just been a dream. I thought back on the fact that he had told me that his mother had dreams of having to save him and his sisters life. If that was true, and the cat that I had seen in my dream was real as well, that meant that I had to go follow the sun, such as the older cat had said to me in my dream.

I blinked a few times, as I watched my friend continue to eat the nasty dry food. If I really was going to live out in the wild, than there was one thing that I was more excited about, over living in a two leg den. It was the fact that I got to eat good fresh food every day, rather than having to eat the same nasty dry food all of the time.

I was quite a bit skinny due to that, as I did not eat all that much of the dry food due to how nasty it was, but I ate just enough to suffice for me in the normal daily basis. I felt that I left so much for my friend, and that was a lot of the reason that he came to my den so often in the first place.

I was not so sure if he viewed us so much as friends, rather than me being the plug to get him free food. It was nasty food, and he and I both knew that how ever. I blinked a few times, as I shook my head. I knew that he enjoyed my company, even if he was a fair bit older than him, and I did not have the same bunch of stories to tell, such as he did.

I let out a bit of a soft sigh, as it all came back to me all at once. This place, and my friend. I would miss all of it, even if I did not really like living here, it was still a memory, and it was still the place that I had grown up at. I could not just shake that all away, as I knew it would be hard for me to leave.

But would it though? Would I even look back when I went on my way out of the two leg place? It was a safe place to live, bur I had always dreamed of living out in the wild, and catching live and fresh prey. I also knew at the same time as well how ever, that I did not even know how to hunt yet, and I was getting a bit ahead of my self.

I began to start to have a little bit of a panic attack, at the thought on all of it, as I was not so sure what it was that I should do now. Maybe it would be a better idea for me to stay here, until some one was able to teach me how to hunt. Who knows, I might even have to learn how to do so by my self.

I did not like being alone how ever, as it was a lot of the reason that I was so sad living at this place nearly every day of my life. I had been fairly tempted to ask Ben several times if I could go and live with him, but I was not sure how he would respond to a question such as that one.

Besides, even if I was able to go around, and not be confined in a two lest den, I still had to go and live in the two leg place, every day. It was not the wild, it was just a place to get me up and moving around. I blinked a few times, as I shook away all of those thoughts, as I dipped my head to the ground.

Just as I did so, I heard Ben begin to stop eating, as I knew that he was looking at me, as I could see the worried look in his eyes, from the corner of my own eyes, as it never failed to amaze me how seemed to be paying attention at all times, this his surroundings.

I put my head even lower than before, as I did not even want him to feel bad for me at all right now. I just wanted to cry, as I was not sure what it was that I should do. I was worried that if I was to stay here any longer, than the two legs would give me away to the shelter, as they felt like they did not need me any more, and they did not want me.

The thought of going to a shelter, with all sorts of animals squealing for help, did not sound all too much appealing to me at all. Besides, I did not like living here all that much, so why was I freaking out about wanting to leave this place? I shivered a little bit as the thought of that came over me again.

It was dead silence in the room that I was in, for quite a bit of some time, until finally, Ben decided that he was ready to speak up to me. I lifted my head up, as I did my best to not drop a tear from my eyes, which I was not even sure why I was so sad in the first place, as I listened to hear what it was that Ben had to say to me once again.

"I can tell you are worried... I know... I think you should do this..." He said to me, as I looked at him for quite a bit of some time, I eventually managed to at least nod to him. It was not really a nod that I was agreeing with him, more than it was a nod to let him know that I had heard what it was that he had said to me just now.

I once again dipped my head to the ground, as I then began to think on what it was that he had just said to me. Thankfully, it was clear to me at least, that he was going to give me some time to think on it, as I heard him begin to bite in to the dry food once again. I was not sure what to think for a while, so I headed to drink some water, as for some reason I felt as if that would some how clear my thoughts.

I began to drink out of the water, as it kind of made me sick, as it was a little bit nasty to me, the water that the two legs gave of me. It was better than nothing at all I suppose how ever. I had never got to have the taste of fresh water in the wild, so I suppose that I should not judge it too harshly.

I shook my head at the same time too, as I remembered as to what it was that I had even been thinking about with Ben in the first place. I shivered at the thought of it at the exact same time too, as the thought of me going out and living in the wild seemed cool and all, but also scary.

I was not sure how I was going to make it, or whether or not I should be more afraid of the fact that there were a lot of scary creatures out there, or if I should be more afraid of the fact that I might not ever learn how to hunt, and even if I did, there would not be enough food out there for me, when the seasons changed, and the time got rough.

I shivered just a bit, as I was not sure if it was worth it or not. I had to tell my friend about it at the very least, as I felt like he was not even counting in that fact. I lifted my head, and I looked right at Ben, as to no other surprise at this point, even though I had just heard him eating, he was staring right at me.

I blinked a few times, as I hesitated on speaking as well, as it kind of scared me at times, how he was so able to things such as that. I had met plenty of other cats, and though he told me that it was a normal thing for him, I had not ever met a cat quite like my friend Ben.

I looked at him for a little bit more of some time, as I did my best to try not to get too freaked out by it, as I then nodded to Ben. Ben stared at me for a little while longer, and he then dipped his head low, and nodded to me as a sign that he was ready for me to speak. This time I did not hesitate at all, as I went ahead and did so.

"I don't know how to hunt, and I do not know where to go at all in the first place. I would not make it long out there." I said back to him. He looked at me for a few moments, as I saw him blink his eyes a couple of times too, as if he thought that I might have made a bit of a fair point as well.

He looked down at the ground, as I felt like he waa not all too sure of how to respond to what I had just said to him, nor was he even sure of how he could give me any sort of good advice at this point, after what I had just said. Either way, I was fairly certain that he had not put what I had said in to consideration at all.

He stared at the ground for quite a bit of some time, as I suddenly heard him let out quite the loud sigh. I tilted my head a bit, as I was not sure what was up with him at the moment. I could tell that he was thinking hard on what it was that I had said to him, but at the same time too, I also knew that he was not sure as to what it was that he should say to me.

I stared at him for a little while longer, as he looked back up at me, and did the same to me as well. We stared at each other, in quite a bit of some silence, until he finally then nodded to me, as it was clear that he had thought of some kind of response to what it was that I had just said to him.

I nodded back to him at the same time as well, as I could tell that I was giving him a little bit of an anxiety attack, which was not at all my plan in the first place. He let out a bit of a sigh after a little while longer, and then he finally began to speak to me, as I listened to hear what it was that he had to say to me at the same time as well.

"I have a friend... She helps cats like you... She some times will take a young kit, or a kitty pet to a shelter for a new home, or, in your case, if you want to go be a rogue, she will teach you all sorts of hunting techniques..." He began to say to me. I looked at him for a few moments, as all of the sudden my hopes began to get so high, it felt like I might just fly to the moon. Ben blinked a few times though, as it did not seem like he was done just yet, as he then continued to speak to me. "I do have to warn you, she is a bit of a mean and harsh cat."

I looked at him for a few moments, as I was a bit confused as to how he might think that it could some how change my mind about going out in the wild, some thing as simple as that. Maybe he was not telling me the full truth how ever though, as I began to think on what it was that he had just said to me.

I was quite a bit lost by it either way, as I saw a strange look on his face, which I could think as to why he might have that look for the life of me. I blinked a few times, as he now had his head up in the air, as it seemed as if he was looking up at the ceiling of my two leg den, as if he thought that he saw some thing there.s

I gulped a bit, as I was not sure what to think on what it was that he had said to me. If you were not a smart cat, such as I, than you might think that he did not have another meaning as to what it was that he had just said to me. I had seen it in his eyes, and I had also heard it in his tone of voice, that he was not telling me every thing.

I stared at him for a bit of some time, as I then let out an obnoxiously loud cough to get his attention at the exact same time as well. Ben looked back down at me, as he then squinted his eyes at me at the exact same time as well, almost as if he might be upset with me for some odd reason or another.

I was so lost as to what was going on at the moment as I blinked my eyes a few times at him, as if that was some kind of hope that me blinking his eyes would give me my answers. I shook my head how ever, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh this time, as I did not want to upset him any more, as I then finally began to talk back to him.

"Is there some thing that you are not telling me? Is there some thing wrong with that cat..." I said to him, as this time it was my turn to squint my eyes at him. He did not seem like he could do the same back to me any longer, as it looked like he got kind of nervous at the fact that he had seen me do so.

I felt like my theory might indeed be correct, as I saw him dip his head a bit low to the ground, as if he was not sure if he wanted to tell me the full truth for some odd reason or another. It kind of confused me, at the same time too as well how ever, it also worried me a bit, as I had never seen him like this before, as he was not a cat to really ever lie.

Ben stared at the ground for quite a bit of some time, which at least luckily enough for me I suppose, gave me a little bit of some time to think to my self, as to if my plans might perhaps be a good idea or not. I knew that this den was a lot safer than the wild, but did I really want to live out a long and boring life in this place?

I felt like the answer to that question was a hard no by me, as I knew that I would much rather risk living a short life out in the wild, that was at least a more fun and enjoyable life. Plus, if Ben really meant what he had said about my dead ancestors coming to see me, to tell me to do some thing, than surely that meant that I had to go out in to the wild, as that was what that cat had told me to do.

I was not sure if he was in fact a decedent of mine, as I had never met my parents in the first place. It kind of hurt me, as I was not sure what had happened to them, as the only thing I could remember, was always growing up in this two leg den. I had to assume that I had been at a shelter when I was much younger how ever.

I suppose that I would never find out on any of that how ever, as I lowered my head to the ground, such as Ben had been doing him self for quite a bit of some time now. Even when I tried my best to remember, I could not do so, as I knew that I must have been far too young at the time of that.

As I looked at the ground for quite a bit of some time, it seemed that was just when Ben decided that he was ready to left his head up, and start to speak to me. I just wanted to continued to look down at the ground for a little while longer, but I lifted my head up any ways, and then I nodded to my friend, as I waited for him to start to speak to me.

Ben just seemed fine with looking right back at me for a little while longer how ever, which confused me a little bit. He did so for some time, until he finally decided that he was going to nod back at me. I squinted my eyes at him, as he began to speak to me. I stared at him for a little while longer, as I listened to what it was that he had to say to me at the same time as well.

"No... Its just sad that you will be gone... I am going to miss you..." He began to say, as he then turned his head over to the dry food bowl, as if he was almost trying to tell me that he did not care about me, and he only came for the food that I offered him. I squinted my eyes, as truth be told, I was a little bit hurt by it, if I was going to be completely honest with my self. I did my best to not show it, as he continued to speak to me. "And the nasty food that you give me... Oh what a shame..."

I stared at him for quite a bit of some time, as I was a little bit confused as to what it was that he had meant by that. I knew that dry food was nasty, but it almost seemed like he had a much different meaning to what it was that he had just said to me, almost as if he was in fact trying to tell me that he did not just come to my place, to talk to me for only the food.

It made me feel a little bit better, but at the same time as well, I was a bit lost on what it was that he was even getting at in the first place. I kept my eyes squinted at him for a small bit of some time, as I tilted my head at the same time too, to let him know that I was not so sure as to what it was that he was even trying to tell me in the first place any ways.

He had a bit of a slight smirk on his face for some reason, which had me even more confused. It was clear that there was some thing that he was not telling me, but I could not think as to what it was for the life of me. I shook my head either way, as I knew that he would not give me a good answer to the question that I was tempted to ask.

I thought on what it was that he had in fact said to me, as I blinked just a few times as well. I knew that he was not all that close to his two legs, so it kind of gave me a little bit of an idea, as I stared at him for a little bit of some time, as this time it did not seem to get in to his head, as I began to speak to him any ways.

"Why don't you just come with me then? I don't want to be alone out in the wild..." I said to him, as I saw him dip his head a bit low to the ground at the exact same time as well. It was almost as if I knew the answer to the question that I had just asked him, which was of course, a hard no.

It kind of hurt me, as it confused me at the same time too, as to a cat that liked to explore a lot of places, I would have thought would be one that would want to go and see what was out in the wild with me, a friend of his, at least, that was what I thought about him.

Ben I could tell seemed to be a bit hurt by the question that I had just asked, as if I was not going to be the one that was going to be the most hurt, when he gave me the cold and harsh answer to the question that I had just asked of him. Ben stared at nothing for some time, until he then turned his head back over to me.

He stared at me in to my eyes, as he then shook his head, as if that was a good enough answer to me. I dipped my head a bit low to the ground, as Ben let out a heavy sigh. He then began to speak to me as well, as I kept my head low to the ground, as I listened to what it was that he had to say to me.

"I haven't been truthful with you this whole time... My owners give me plenty of dry food... That is not the reason that I spend so much time around you. I looked at him for just a couple of moments, as I tilted my head a bit lost as to what it was that he was getting at. I had assumed that his owners gave him food, so that was not a surprise to me at all. I thought that he just wanted to come over to my place, because we were both friends, and he had needed some one to talk to. I blinked a few times as well, as been continued to speak to me. "I was close friends with your mother and father... Your father left you, and your mother decided to do the same as well... She asked me to do one thing how ever... To protect you..."