9 Nick

Nick

Now I'm in the cafeteria sitting with the hopes of seeing my girl, y'all heard me that's my girl. I haven't seen her all morning which I totally get because we don't share classes. I'm not even sure myself why I'm soo anxious upon seeing her today, I just hope she'll agree to have a minute with me. Everytime the doors open I check to see if it's her only to see these annoying bitches blowing kisses, if this was another day or if this certain someone wasn't here now then I wouldn't mind getting at the girls but now I don't even find any other girl that interesting nor attractive.

My main focus is earning my angels trust, showing her I've always cared. I'm pretty sure I won't earn it any time soon though, I've hurt her countless times .I wasn't even listening to the guys I looked down at my food not even intrested anymore but then I heard her voice.I looked up and I saw her how did I miss her? My girl, she looked so beautiful like I'm seeing her for the first time like in pre schoo I stood up and walked towards her but I saw a hint of shock in her eyes. I hesitated but it was too late I was already at where she stood with Lisa ."Uhm hi", I said sounding like it's the first time I'm even approaching a girl. She just shot Lisa a look that she'll be back, I signaled Lisa to go to the guys and let us be. She got the message but she made sure to give me the "I'll kill you" look and went to Jeff and I made sure not to stand close to Eve so I just stood opposite her.

Now looking at those mysterious eyes of hers I just get lost in them and I don't even know what to say so I just continue getting lost in those eyes, it is said that the eyes tell you everything. Now I'm trying to figure out what hers are trying to tell me but she just throws on this facade and her eyes clear any glimpse of emotion, she must really hate me that she can change her facade in just a second. Okay here goes nothing and why am I so scared again? I just wish she could just tell me whats on that mind of hers. "I apologise for just pitching up uninvited & that I ruined your night yesterday it wasn't my intention to having to just show up without even notifying you, I'm totally at fault I know what I did was uncalled for and if you don't want to even give me the chance of saying what I want say to then I'll totally understand I'll peacefully leave you alone but please before making a decision whatever that is, pleaee just don't turn me away so quick." Here I am waiting for a reaction out of her and she just stares at me

I don't think I'll ever get over this trauma of having to approach a girl I've always longed for and to even see that she just looked at me bored the fuck out of her mind, to think that I might have just made smile those years ago is just some thought.

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