4 F Word

Eve

Now I'm sitting in this boring chemistry class with these people giving me weird looks like its a joke I'm back. "Miss Meyers penny for your thoughts", Jesus out of all these fuckers that are paying attention and she picks me. Great Mrs... whats her name again.. now I don't even know the name, how I just wish the ground would swallow me up because right now I can't stand these eyes gawking at me.

"Miss Meyers we are still waiting", this bitch is still at it, rolling my eyes I say, "actually I'm kind of in a mini vacation in my mind since your class bores the fuck out of me" the whole class stares at me some with their mouths wide open and thats when it kicked in that i just used the F word in front of her. I knew something wouldn't be right today, I was about to talk when she beat me to it. "I won't have you disrespecting me in my class you hear me missy? Now I'm putting you in detention for the whole week." What the actual fuck? Did I just land myself in detention and for a whole freakin week! Dad's gonna kill me.

Now here I am sitting and sulking for being in detention on my first day, how wonderful. At least I'm not alone there are two jocks at the back and I already know they're on the bad side of the school judging from the way they look, they've got this bad boy facade. Resting my head on the desk I just hum risky by Elaine not aware that I'm actaully making noise. "Bitch can just shut up already", a voice says but I don't think his talking to me since I'm nobody's bitch. With that in mind I continue humming, "did she not here what I said or is she ignoring me Drew?", the same voice says. "Oh trust me she heard you man but seems like she ain't gon shut up", the voice I assume is Drew's. Both of them chuckle "I think we found ourselves a tough one here Jeff", Drew says to the other guy. Okay so it's Drew and Jeff damn I swear I heard those names somewhere, they so familiar and in mind I just wrap it up and think I heard them in a movie since I'm a huge movie fanatic.

It was thirty minutes but it felt like I've been sitting for days, the boys were even in full chat not paying attention.The teacher was long asleep and I'm thinking I could just sneak out, thinking about sneaking out and its consequences I dismiss the thought immediately. Every minute I sit here I get restless, you'd swear that I have some sort of disease because I can't stick to one spot especially if i'm doing nothing not even talking. "Yo girly", Jeff shouts "she has a name you idiot", Drew tells his companion. I just angle my face so I can seem them and shout back, "What butthead" amused that I actaully said something they scooter to the desk behind where I'm sitting and look at me closely. Realisation flashes through their eyes and Drew confirms whatever was on his mind by saying "It is true... it's her Jeff." "I knew my baby wouldn't lie you jerk", Jeff replies.

Realisation dawns on me and it feels like I've been hit by a truck, shit did I have to meet them now..at this hour in fact did it have to be today. Damn I've always known i'm not Gods favourite but couldn't this happen sometime next week, okay I'm being a drama queen right now. Angling my face to the front and saying nothing to these two, my cell rings and I'm startled because the ringtone is savage love so its pretty loud. I immediately switch it off after reading that its dad thats calling. Looking behind me, I see no-one wait... where are these big heads. Seeing that theres no use staying while the teacher is asleep I also just decide to go home, walking out I realise I'll have to walk home.

"So much for a first day", I huff out walking past dad but no I'm not off the hook because I'm pulled by my arm and meet a face I was trying to avoid. "Sorry dad, I got stuck in detention" I decide on telling the truth because well.. I can't lie especially to this nigga, it's like he knows when I'm not telling the truth. "So why didn't you leave me a text?" he asks, oh shoot I totally forgot about him fetching me "ohh yeah, sorry I forgot about that but I promise it won't happen again especially now that I'm in detention for the whole week", I finish off quietly. Glad that he didn't hear me, I rush up stairs still in shock of seeing my worst nightmares. I guess its true that the worst nightmares are experienced with eyes wide open.

Entering my room I flop down on my bed and I start wondering how my life would've turned out if I was just treated like a normal kid, maybe I'd be having a best friend and maybe a boyfriend by now who knows. Instead I had to be picked on by one of cutest boy at school and to even think about how he never stopped until I would burst into tears or yell at him in anger just makes me question why he'd bother me out of everyone. With my thoughts wondering I didn't notice I fell asleep.

"If I woke up without you, I don't know what I would do", damn who'd be calling me right now. Rolling over and checking who it is, mom. The women seriously doesn't have a timing, instead of answering I just watch the phone ring and after it does I put it on silent. Yeah one thing about me I hate being disturbed during my naps, especially if it's a phone call. I know I'll just call you back, there's no need to keep blowing up my phone. Now seeing that I probably won't go back to sleep I just listen to my music at least it's one of the things that I get peace from.

I wonder where dad is, probably at work. Getting up I head downstairs only to find quietness, I guess I'm alone then. My stomach growls and I already know that's my cue to go to the kitchen and look for something to feed my hungry self. I find some fruit and pour myself a glass of water, well I've never been a heavy eater but I love food and I don't like sharing it. Seeing that I'm okay I head to bed since it's late and I'm pretty sure dads gon come home. I'm already feeling sleepy so I just play a few games on my phone and end up going to sleep.

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