12 Confusion

(Evans POV)

There is light in my eyes. A light that I figured belongs to the sun, indicating that it was day already. When did I even fall asleep?

Meh, who cares I am way too comfortable to move from this spot.

I figured I fell asleep on the couch and am now on my big favourite pillow.

So thinking that, I wrapped my hands around it and hugged it tighter snuggling in it more. It has been a while since I had such a good fulfilling deep sleep and I was grateful for it. Those eye bags on my face needed to go.

Surely after a few minutes I was threatening to fall asleep again so I stopped thinking about anything.

But in that exact moment something touched my hair. It was a very light touch and it felt like someone lightly grazed their fingers over my head. That gave me tingles.

Thinking it was just my imagination I ignored it and went on snuggling closer into the pillow.

I would have fallen asleep thinking that, if it wouldn't have happened again just two minutes later. This time the touch was more prominent.

I felt a hand playing with my hair, twirling it with its fingers and massaging it slowly, probably as to not wake me.

Then I remembered what happened the night before and realised that Aaron had presumably stayed the night.

For a moment I almost wanted to move away and tell him to stop but decided against it since he was most likely doing it to comfort me anyway. And it did feel really nice so I stayed in place and tried to go back to sleep, but not before hugging him tighter.

I was thinking about why he would do this in the first place before peacefully drifting into the realm of dreams.

(Aarons POV)

I could tell he woke up for a bit since he started to stir more. I couldn't help but smile when he snuggled in closer to me hugging me tightly while starting to drift off again.

I don't think he realised that he was on me so that must be the reason.

If I were the every day asshole that I sometimes- ok, most times am, I would have woken him up by splashing some water on him or something like that but since I am trying to win his trust, I let him sleep in today. We didn't have work today and it was very early anyway so either way, I let him sleep.

I took in his beautiful features while I was at it.

What?, he's asleep let me be ok?

He has really long black eyelashes that were resting lightly on his upper cheeks. He has a very rested look on his face and the dark circles that once were under his eyes are gone now too. But that wasn't very obvious at first because his hair was sheltering his features almost as if defending them from a strangers eye.

His short minty lime green hair was resting beautifully on his face and it took everything in me not to touch it. I was afraid Evan would wake up and push me away. I was afraid that he would think of me as a freak. A weird gay freak, something I wasn't entirely.

This is the first time a guy makes me want to be around him all the time and hug him and snuggle into him at night. A guy that makes my heart race every time he is around, that makes me want to know more about him. A guy that intrigues me in every way. One that makes butterflies go crazy in my belly and one that makes me want to kiss-

No, what am I thinking. This is not what my parents would want. They would be so disappointed if they saw me right now.. but I don't really care at this point. They can take all of my cards away. They can throw me out or disown me but I don't care as long as I have Evan.

Just what is wrong with me? He is clearly straight seeing as he had a girlfriend before. One that didn't deserve one inch of him. Not one hair, not one touch, not one kiss.

This makes me so angry knowing that there were people using him. People that didn't care about his feelings. People that would have left him at any given moment.

With all of this anger building up inside me I started to go against my own words and started playing with his hair in the hopes to liberate myself from all of the stress.

I massaged his scalp and played with his hair, wrapping it around my fingers and twirling it around itself. It felt really nice touching him. I could feel Evan relax at my touch and I couldn't but smile. At least he doesn't completely hate it.

While I was playing with his hair my eyes became droopier and droopier until I myself fell asleep.

For the second time that night, I had the best sleep of my life with Evan in my arms.

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When I woke up again Evan was still sleeping and he was still hugging me just like before while smiling to himself.

I really didn't want to wake him up but if I don't he will not be able to sleep at night seeing as it was 4pm, it was pretty late.

"Hey Evan, it's 4pm, don't you want to wake up?" I said with a warm low voice so I wouldn't disturb him too much.

He grumbled something I wasn't able to understand and completely ignored my existence.

I smiled at that.

"You pig, wake up you slept all day!" I said a little louder this time while shaking him.

He once again ignored me and only snuggled himself more into me. Jesus what a lazy puppy.

Even though I knew he was awake now but trying his best to disregard me as best as possible I had a joker up my sleeve.

"Well too bad I guess Cody will hug me all day long then." At that Evan opened his eyes and shot up in a second almost falling off the couch in the process.

I laughed out loud at his misery and enjoyed every single glare I got from him before he got up and went to the restroom.

As much as I love him I can't go too long without annoying and teasing him-..

Love him? WAIT. Do I love him, I never said that!?

Jesus what is wrong with me!!!

"Are you just going to sit there all day long and stare at some random spot like you always do?" My train of thought was interrupted when Evan spoke before laughing and going to the kitchen.

Punk.