2 Resolve for a new beginning.

WARNING: This chapter has dark thoughts that might be triggering. Read at your own risk! Know that you are not alone and if need help because of your own thoughts reach out and talk to someone you can trust!

Pursing his lips, Kaylin took a deep breath. Yes, he was tired of the racism, elitism, and whatever else was wrong with the world he lived in. He wanted it all to stop, why couldn't anyone else see how stupid everything was becoming.

'I don't have to keep living with it though, I don't have to risk my life for some lazy fat ass that doesn't know what I am going through.' Kaylin looked into his eyes through the broken mirror as the thought went through his head.

'I can't, no, I should not give up on my life just because it is hard' He narrowed his eyes at himself. Why were these thoughts so bad, was it because he turned 21 in just a few short hours and he was just mentally done with everything.

'Just f***ing off myself, like no one would care, it isn't like I haven't tried to befriend people and be strong for them to lean on me, only to leave when they found out what I was living with. Better now than celebrate another birthday alone!'

The last thought swirled in his head. Making Kaylin dizzy in the swirl of emotions. As he gripped the sink to not fall over he took the time to acknowledge how he felt. Regret, sorrow, anger, disappointment, and longing.

'F*** it' He thought as he rose his head and looked at himself one more time in the mirror.

'Oh, I am choosing to give up? Well, at least I don't have to live with the decision!'

"F*** YOU!" Kaylin roared, "shut up, you are my thoughts, and I say no! I refuse to give up no matter how much I want to! I will become a better person and I will make a better life, not just for me, but for all those who suffer as well, this has to end." He takes a deep breath and manages a small smile, "No matter what has to be done, even if I have to take a title as someone evil. If trying to better the world for those who can't better it themselves because of race, gender or age is evil. Then somehow, I gladly accept this, I am starting at the lowest point, aiming for the top. Past that even, I will better myself, to help better others and this crappy thing that is called life. That is my resolve, now stop hindering me."

Panting as he looked at the mirror from his little tyrade, he found himself giving himself the bird and he didn't realize he had done that. It was comical and he couldn't help but giggle at it. People might think he was crazy if they heard him. However, he didn't care. He felt better than he had in a long time.

'Man, I needed that I guess.' Has his stern face actually softened with the biggest, kindest smile he had ever seen from himself in years.

Only for the silence to be broken, by the sounds of clapping.