18 Chapter 18 - Fighting again

⚠️SPOILER WARNING!⚠️

⚠️THIS CHAPTER HAS MAJOR SPOLIER ALERTS FOR THE ANIME, SEASON 4⚠️

YOUR POV

Ater everything that happend that night, What Jean had said, Really inspired me... I really love how he went from selfish to selfless in around 3 years.

We were on another Expedition. Hange and Levi had set it up.

Suddenley, We heard a bang. It sounded like a Gun. Sasha had been shot. She wasn't going to survive this time... Crap..

I took of my jacket and tried to stop the bleeding. Tears were streaming down my face. I knew she wasn't going to make it... Gabi had done it again. God that freaking physcopath.

"GABI, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU PLAYING AT!? YOU'RE 12!" I screamed. "YOU ARE ONE HELL OF A PHYSCOPATH!"

"You never cared about anybody but yourself. You killed your god damn brother because you felt like it." She said.

"I killed him because he was a pathetic little idiot! Like you! GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE BEFORE I KILL YOU TOO!" I shouted the last part.

She quickly ran and we were all crying... Including Levi.

"Come on Sasha... Just hang in there a bit longer... You can do it!" I muttered to myself.

She stopped breathing and blood leaked out of her mouth. I don't think I've seen Connie or Armin cry so much in my life...

"GOD! I HATE THAT PATHETIC EXCUSE FOR A GOD DAMN COUSIN!" I shouted to myself. "I HATE YOU SO DAMN MUCH, GABI! YOU'LL PAY FOR THIS!"

I hated everything... I hated Gabi so much... She killed my best friend...

"Y-y/n... Calm down..." Jean said, trying to comfort me.

"NO! SASHA DIED BECAUSE I COULDN'T KILL GABI IN TIME! SASHA IS DEAD BECAUSE OF ME!"' I shouted.

I Felt tears streaming down my face. It was like a waterfall.

Jean's Eyes Widened at my words.

"No, It's not... It's Gabi's fault... Just stay calm, It will be alright..." Jean said.

watching the life slowly die out of Sasha, I didn't want to fight with Jean so I shut my mouth. This broke my heart... To see Connie so upset... To see Armin wishing he was dead, Blaming himself for Sasha's death but It was my fault...

"I need to find her... I need to find Gabi and end her." I said.

I got up and Left. I found Gabi about 20 minutes after searching.

"YOU LITTLE CRAPHOLE!"I screamed, jamming a knife through her. "Now you'll share the same fate as my brother... I hope you rot in hell with him!" I shouted, Coldly.

Gabi is now finished off. Along with Reiner and Bertholdt. I now realise how bad of a decision I was making. I should've realised when Eren said sorry, That he meant it. I love the decision I made, To forgive him. I don't regret not killing Eren. He's grown on me. Hopefully, Sasha will have a good time up in heaven...

I walked back in and Levi had lowered his head in sadness, Connie looked Terrified. They all did. They had never seen this side of me before.

"S-sorry about that.. I know you've never really seen that side of me. I just got so upset and couldn't help myself... She's gone now. Hopefully she'll rot in hell with my damned brother and his bestfriend." I said, Chucking the dull blade out of the window.

Jean walked over to me and hugged me, Which I greatfully returned.

"I promise, I'm not a pyscho, I never even knew I had the guts to do that." I said.

"Y/n, Calm down. It's fine. We understand... She was your best friend." Armin said, Still crying.

Everyone nodded their heads in understanding.

"T-thank you... Should we go back to HQ now?... I'd kind of like too..." I said, Still having tears streaming down my face.

Captain Levi nodded and lead us all back to HQ.

Once we arrived I went to see Hannah straight away. We had to leave her here incase we encountered any titans. Luckily, she was in my friend, Trinity's care.

"Hey Trin, How has she been?" I asked.

"She's been so good, She has only cried once. By the way are you all right? You look like you've been crying..." She asked.

"Y-yeah I'm fine. You can go home now. You've worked hard." I said.

I stayed with Hannah for a little bit, still being traumatised at Sasha's death...

At that moment, Levi and Jean walked in.

"Hey.. How are you doing?" Jean asked.

"I'm still Traumatised... I never thought I'd see so much blood in my life... Then again it's practically my fault... If I had just finished her off when I had the first chance, None of this would've happened..." I said.

Levi sighed and Jean looked really upset.

"Tch, Brat. Stop blaming yourself for Sasha's death. Admittedly, She was a really bright light and it's heartbreaking that she's not here anymore, but you need to stop blaming yourself... It was nobody's but Gabi's fault. And she's dead now so it won't happen again." Levi said, Trying to comfort me.

I looked up at the ceiling, Trying to stop myself from crying.

"I'm not blaming myself... I'm just trying to think about what I could've done to stop her from dieing.." I said, Still holding Hannah.

"Listen to me, Y/n. Sasha is gone..  There is nothing we can do about that... I wish that she was still here too but whats happened has happend..." Jean said, Walking over to me and Hannah.

He knelt down and hugged me.

"I just don't want to believe it..." I said, Feeling a tear come down my face.

This made him hug me tighter.

"Neither do I... She played a very important role in our lives, The bread lover she was, How kind and sweet she was no matter how angry anyone was at her..." He said, "She kept a Smile on her face..."

~{FLASHBACK}~

"DON'T SCARE ME LIKE THAT AGAIN, YOU DUMMIE!"

"I'm going to miss you..."

"DON'T GO... PLEASE!?"

"I-i am so sorry for killing your girlfriend..."

"NO! SHE CAN'T BE!"

"I stole meat from the officer's Pantry!"

"I won't get sent to jail. Calm down!"

~{END OF FLASHBACK}~

"Hange.. Where's Hange?.." I asked, Putting Hannah down in her Cot.

"Outside." Levi said.

I quickly ran out and after Hange.

"HANGE! I NEED YOU TO RUN SOME TESTS ON ME!" I shouted.

She turned around with a wide creepy smile.

She quickly ran after me. She then sat me down and started runnning some titan tests on me.

Everyone stared at me in shock. Probably thinking 'She's lost her mind'.

"No results... Can you try transforming for me?" She asked.

"What? Uh.. S-sure?.." I said.

Everyone moved back as well as me so they were all at a safe distance.

I chomped down on my thumb and nothing happened. It also hurt really bad.

"What the hell?..." I muttered.

Hange stared in shock.

"Hange... what the hell is happening?" I asked.

"Y-your Titan powers have disappeared... you're not a Titan anymore..." Hange said, Still looking at me with concern.

My nose then started to bleed.

"It's the damn stress... The stress is doing this to me... W-what's my heart rate?..." I asked, Getting a little dizzy.

"32.. 'You need to sit down... It's dangerously slow." She said.

I took one last look at everyone then I fell to the floor, Everything going uncomfortably black.

What the hell was happening to me?...

JEAN'S MIND

We came back to HQ and Y/n immediately went upstairs to check On Hannah. Me and Levi decided to check On Y/n as she had been there for a really long time.

She then asked where Hange was. We told her and Y/n asked Hange to run some tests on her... Strange day...

"No results... Can you try transforming for me?" Hange asked.

"What? Uh.. S-sure?.." Y/n said.

She got up and we all mived a safe distance away from her.

She chomped down on her thumb and nothing happened. It looked pretty damn painful...

"Hange... What the hell is happening?"

Y/n asked.

"Y-your titan powers have disappeared... You're not a titan anymore..." Hange said, still looking at Y/n with concern.

My eyes widened.

Y/n's nose then started to bleed

"It's the stress.. It's the stress thats doing this to me. W-what's my heart rate?" She asked, looking a little dizzy.

"32... you need to sit down, It's dangerously slow.." Hange said.

Y/n looked at everyone before she collapsed onto the ground.

"FOUR EYES, WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO HER!?" Levi shouted.

"I Don't know..." Hange replied.

She then gasped and started doing loads of Typing.

"HANGE! WHAT IS HAPPENING!? WHY ARE YOU CRYING?!" I shouted over all the typing.

"L-Levi..." Hange said, pointing to her screen.

"Oh my gosh... Why would she pass out and stop being a titan if...?" Levi asked.

"What the hell is happening!?" I asked.

"Congrats, You're a father of two now, brat." Levi said, Turning to face me.

My eyes widened once again.

"What?" I asked.

"She's Pregnant. It's apparently a symptom. She'll wake up soon." Hange said.

"Then why would she stop being a Titan if she's Pregnant?" I asked, Turning my attention back to the unconcious Y/n.

"'It's only temporary. It happened with Hannah too." Hange said.

Everyone except Levi hugged me and congratulated me.

"Okay. Okay. She would tell me of she was pregnant." I said.

"She doesn't know." Levi announced.

My eyes Widened again.

"Strangest day ever... How could she not know if she was pregnant?" I asked.

"She has been pregnant ever since we went on the Expedition." He said.

"Oh okay..." I said.

I knelt down next to Y/n and picked her up. I took her to our bed and wiped the blood off of her nose. I then sorted out Hannah, She got upset at the sight of Y/n being unconscious.

"You're going to be a big sister!" I said, in a playful voice.

She made really cute baby noises.

Don't get me wrong, I can't wait to be a father of two, It's just tiring.