[13]

At hospital

I opened my eyes and found my mother crying, I tried to open my mouth to ask her why, but then I realized that I was in a hospital and closed my mouth and was about to close my eyes when she asked

" Jane how could you do this to us?

" I'm sorry mom, I didn't mean to disgrace you, I never dreamed tha... I never thought that things would turn out this way."

" I never should have let you have to much freedom; mom said. Now tell me who is responsible".

'Ale.... John mom". I answered too exhausted to cry

"Christ! That guy is a cad to take advantage of you and then see what you have done to yourself for believing in a guy at your age;

Jane I thought I raised you more than this; she said pointing at me in detest. I can't believe you lied to me about going to the library, my God this is awful but let me tell you this you are going to raise that child".

Tears sprang into my eyes " what have I done to myself,

I...didn't mean to be such a trouble mom." I murmured as I look up at her.

Dad opened the door and came straight to me and slapped me, his eyes blazing with anger, he was so upset with me as he said " I never would have imagined that my daughter will turn out like this, I raised you to be different, I thought you were different from those stupid girls but my thoughts were always proved negative; dad went on furiously, jumping up from where he sat and beginning to pace the room. I never should have let you have free liberty, he said and sneered and strode to the door where he turned and glare back at me. You are a disgrace". With those words he turned and walked away. A moment letter the door slammed behind him.

I closed my eyes and wished that I could struck Alex, I wanted to hit him, to hurt him as he had hurt me.

" I hate you". I spat as if he was right in front of me.

Mom...

Yes sweetie

"I wouldn't have believed him if I were older right..?, now I know that I don't love him, I never did, I was just too young and foolish that's why I never realised that he just wanted sex and I was the right girl at the right time".

I stood up to reach for mom's hand, but I was trembling, my knees were too weak to support me so I lay down and cried.

I hate him with a vitriolic anger and I felt very bitter.

Mom took my hands and wiped away my tears with her hand" don't be over wrought with grief dear, ut alright, all you have to do is eat well and take good care of yourself at least for your baby sake and we will love him or her no matter what uh.."