1 Too fast

I dont know what happened…

When we first met. I didn't know what to say besides."wow." she was cute to say the least. But i didn't know anything about her. Favorite color, food, interests besides what was obvious. All i knew was. I grew fond of her. But why was that? Was it all physical? Was i rushing into getting a relationship? No. i knew i was. That's about the only thing i still remember. I did things i didn't wanted to do and came on too strong. I didn't want to share a life with her, instead it was sharing the title. At first it was inconceivable to me that i would do something like this, but now it has become a reality. And i hate myself for it. Ruining something that could have been grand has grown to rot. It is my fault, and only mine. She helped me realise that, but it was too late to fix it. She made the right decision that i didn't want to come true. And it has. I wanted an easy road and tried taking it. But i forgot that love isn't about taking the easy way out. It is a long and winding road that needs to be taken together to find happiness. No shortcuts allowed. And the shortcuts i took, ended in me crashing. I got carried on a gurney on my way to the hospital, and she walked away with a few scratches. But i know when i am done healing. I know i will be happy to see her again.