1 1: Logan

"My name;" the anxious side started, tapping his index fingers together. I look at the other two intrigued at how they were reacting to this moment, just as I guessed they were in shock. Granted, I was in just as much shock, I am just better at hiding it from everyone. Turning back to the unnamed side, I see him getting more and more anxious. To be fair he was telling the world information that he hasn't even told us yet. I momentarily hear the side take a deep breath in. It is time, I know it is. "MY NAME IS VIRGIL!"

I look at him, why wouldn't he tell us his name? It- it's beautiful... WAIT, WHAT?! "Vir-gil?" I can't smile! I can't let them know I feel things but, he looks -and probably is- so scared! Closing my eyes: "But that doesn't end in an 'an' or an 'on' shouldn't it be something like 'Virgan'?" I hear Patton say.

I hear Roman start to laugh. My eyes opened, it was bad enough making 'jokes' about us, but THIS! This is pushing it too far. Virgil just exposed one of his deepest secrets. I have no choice. "Why is that so funny?" It worked!? I mean; it worked, that is satisfactory. I can never let my emotions leave my mind. I will never even crack a smile, not in front of the others at least. I could hear the others talking at this point, or at least Roman, but to be honest, I am just wondering how I've even kept a straight face, but now an even more concerning thought came to my attention: 'How do I keep my life the same?'

"Whatever, I'm just glad that I can help, even if I can be a bit hard to manage..." How dare he say something like that about him! Logan! Stay calm! "In Tomas' case, you are indeed manageable."

I tune out once again, I had to keep my emotions stable, I have to be 'Heartless' as Roman often calls me. I just want to be heard, but more than anything else, I just want to be accepted, but that's never going to happen. Did Roman sink down? It's time for me to sink down as well.

I say something formal to Tomas, I don't even really care anymore, I just want to stay in my room forever. You know that isn't the worst idea I've had, it was still a bad idea, but not as bad as most of my ideas.

Finally, I'm in my room, I can smile! I haven't been able to do this for so long! Shoot, am I crying?! No no no, I can't cry! That is the one thing I will not let myself do; "Real men don't cry, Tomas!" The memory replayed in my head, and I need to get it out, I can't afford another panic attack! Not after Virgil has JUST reviled his name, Tomas, Patton and Roman would start to panic, thinking Virgil needed help, but I need the help. I can't worry about myself right now, Virgil is the one that I have to protect, I can't let him get hurt, he is why I haven't left Tomas.

"5 things you can hear," I say to myself, but that isn't the right thing! "Okay, 5 things I can see..." Floor, my feet, the clothes I haven't cleaned up in weeks, books that I have thrown on the floor yesterday. Number 5, my bed...

"4 things I can feel around me..." The clothes I've been wearing for as long as I can remember, the floor, tears running down my face. Just one more. Number 4, my bed that is holding me up.

"3 things you can hear." Mother!? Mother, Tomas' mother... Ignore it, Logan. You're better than this! 1. My heavy breathing, me sobbing, the door opening.

"2 things you can smell..." My body dodder, Virgil... "Now just 1 thing I can taste..." I feel something touch my shoulder, it's Deceit, it has to be him. "Blood." Deceit and I say at the same time.

I keep my eyes closed: "Wh-who's t-there?" My voice, soft, fragile, broken. "Virgil. It's okay Logan. You're okay..." My eyes open within a second, Virgil, it can't be him. He wouldn't care about me. "Deceit I'm warning you;" 'Virgil's' eyes open in shock, which is followed by a heart-shattering scream. "PATTON! ROMAN-"

"Stop, S-STOP I-IT!!!!!!" I look up to see all 3 of my 'friends' looking at me with sorrow, I don't believe them, they just want me to be cold again so they can go back to insulting me. I'm nothing to them, I know that: "I'm leaving..."

I use what little strength I have left in me, and sink down soon after appearing out the front of Deceit's door. He's the only one that views me how I am, human. I hate how I am human, I try to hide it from the others, and it had always worked. Well, it didn't today and because of that, I am not too embarrassed to even look at Deceit. "What do you-" I cut Deceit off before he could finish "Turn me." I look up at Deceit, trying my hardest to act cold, but I can't do it anymore. Tears start running down my face once again, when I hear Deceit talk again. "You know you can't undo this, right?" I just nod in response. "LOGAN!" That's Patton, why?! They don't even care about me! "Logan Logic Berry Sanders," Virgil, not again. "No, not now." The footsteps stop, its now or never... The footsteps start again, but this time I only hear one pair, "LOGAN, PLEASE STOP!" I turn around to the source of the voice, it was Virgil. Maybe, they care? NO! No one does, I'm just there, I'm just a robot... that's all. I take a step closer to Deceit; "Now." I see Deceit look at the others. "No, never." I feel a pair of arms wrap around from behind me, rage is now filling my mind and I can think of anything but how they hate me; "Please, Logan," "Why? Why do you want me to stop this, it seams like this is what you all want. You all just want me to leave, I'm just a heartless good-for-nothing robot, that's what Roman says." "No, even IF Roman thinks like that, which he doesn't, me and Patton-," "Patton and I," "SHUT UP LOGIC!" There it is, Patton is now showing me know how bad I am, I knew it would happen soon. "See what I mean? You all hate me. So why not, why not make myself even more hated, it's going to happen anyway." The room went quiet, I take yet another step towards Deceit, I look up at Deceit in the eyes, Deceit keeps looking away, why would he look at me. I didn't want to have this happen, but if I don't I feel like my soul will just melt. I touch Deceit's shoulder. "You made me do this, all of you. Now you are getting what you have always said I am, a robot..." I look back at the group one last time to see Virgil in tears, while the others start to walk away. Tears start appearing in my eyes as Virgil falls down to the ground, but I've gone too far now. If I stop the others will call me weak, it was bad enough them calling me the things they do, I don't want more. I can't survive with more, "I'm sorry, Virgil. This isn't your fault, just know that, goodbye, Virgil." I start thinking about all the things I have failed at, I read the books they told me to do this, the only other way is to get a dark side make you one of them, and Deceit wasn't willing to that. So I have to do it myself. I take one last breath in, now is the time to- "LOAGN SANDERS! Don't you do this, I know you think everything and everyone is against you, but I promise you that isn't the case. I will give you one reason right now if you stop this. Just give me a chance, please..." I stop, he has a reason, but is this just a trick? I don't care, I have a chance to be able to show emotions to the others. I take my hand off of Deceit's shoulder and walk to Virgil; "What is this reason?" I try to keep an even, steady voice but I couldn't. I'm in too much pain to be the robot I'm known to be. Virgil looks up at me and stands up, he looks at me in the eyes, I try to keep eye contact, I'm just too scared. I feel Virgil's warm breath on my face, 'how am I this close to him?!' I thought to myself. A blush formed on my face as I see him get closer. Then our lips connect, my eyes open in shock, but I quickly calm down and ease into the kiss. The kiss lasted about 5 seconds before Virgil pulled away. "Is that a good reason?" I look at him, was he just tricking me? I don't think so, but his tears were real, his emotions where real, but what is the others hate Virgil for this? "Will the others hate you?" He stays quiet but a smile appears on his face, not an evil one though, I genuine supportive smile. "At this point, I really don't care. Now, let's go to your room and clean up." I smile at Virgil as he giggles at the blush that was still on my face. "Yeah, let's do that."