18 Wan't that a play?

I woke up and everything I did was just a pure mess...when something happens that we never expected or even dared to think that's when our glass bottle called hope crashes and spills the water called dream, I was very close to losing my temper even eating breakfast.

I climbed my bus at the correct time, Jaz did smile at me a little but I gave her a cold nod. And I sat beside her.

Why? I internally screamed, why jaz why!? You could have stopped me from falling for him when he wasn't actually mine!

But I couldn't control my tongue and the fire burning inside me.

"Is Cece engaged to Stephen?" there, that caught her by surprise

She was like a child's hand in a cookie jar.

My patience was running thin but this girl was just staring at me.

"Jaz... please tell me!" I pleaded and my eyes betrayed me by bringing tears and sadness.

"Yes, she was engaged to him. She joined this college for him so that they can get to know each other. We didn't tell you because we thought you could enjoy your girly times, you were just crushing on him and we also knew that this won't last longer, you were just playing ,didn't it?"

Then, I lost everything stored and safeguarded in the tip of my eyes.

My tears was keep on flowing and my heart started to pain

turned my head from seeing her and continued to cry without any sound.

What did she tell at last?

I was just playing....yeah Jaz I was playing, I was playing do or die.

And I actually died from all your secrets and your betrayal. Now I can't even talk with Stepehen knowing that he is not mine.

Why did you both gave me hope when you all the while knew everything is for nothing!

Until I entered my college I composed myself and I tried to shield away from her as much as possible.

That's when Stephen came into my view and I had no heart to see him, the lost boy.

I turned my head away from him to hide watery eyes as I walked into my class.

The lecture went on but my mind was not there, all I needed was some time and some words not from Jaz or Cece.

Jaz didn't talk to me much just like Cece they both were acting like nothing happened,I am not a fool!

Why should I cry? I scolded myself and furiously wiped my eyes clean and stood as soon as the bell rang.

"Guys...I wanna go to the library" I said hurriedly and started to run away from them.

I was only few meters away from the door, Suddenly my whole body collided into something hard, Stephen.

"Are you all right?" his face carried sadness and curiosity.

I wish you were mine to lean on.

"I want to talk to you, not here, not now but somewhere far away from the eyes and knowledge of anyone"I whispered.

His titled his head in confusion but somehow nodded,

"I will call" he said but I have no time for this guy so I ran again until I stood in front of Sylvia, "woah! Look who is here" she hugged me.

The way she looked at me made me look vulnerable and bare.

"Sylvia..." I started to cry out loud

Sometimes tears do help in our bad days, they say tears show weakness but I strongly deny it.

Tears are the reason we are still strong and the tears are the only reason we have moved on in our life.

The tears from our eyes is from our hearts carrying pain or sadness maybe happiness, sometimes.

Crying is the best medicine.