Can anyone love me back?

''On a loney night I was just crawling on floor with nothing but darkness around me''

Then I thought Do I truly deserve to loved my anyone in this world? Does anyone want a child who want to be loved. I don't think so

I just want to tell my mom please I can't do this I am 12 years old mom I want food I want to smile like everyone. But that face she will made after listening about my story I am scared to see that distrust, scorn and the anger in her eyes.

Maybe I should talk to father right? But he told me I am not a good child. While he always bring new ladies when mom is not home I didn't told anyone but father used stick to love me? But father it's hurting I want to hug you I want to play with you can you please hold me?

Mom Dad please don't leave me alone I am scared of dark places. Don't leave me in cupboard ahhhhh ohhh mom dad don't please. I will be good boy I won't ask for food or anything please don't do it mom.

After screaming for 6 hours I fainted. Later I wake up in hospital while Police is near my mom and dad. But why are they making that face and looking at me. Did I do something wrong again? Am I bad child.