3 When I start loving you, I give you the right to hurt me

Saturday usually I don't have class on weekends in my first semester. But I still woke up early because of that dream again. At the same time I have a part time job, my parents still support me, but because of what happened they took me away from them so I decided to take a part time job, I think maybe one day they will forget me forever, that is not impossible it happens because once it happened. One month they did not send me the budget, they just remembered me because Jasmine called them. Jasmine was angry then because I didn't say anything, so that's why I really love my friend, she is the only one I have.

"Oh! Your early, should you be here 8 am"said owner of the coffee shop. It's just near the school so sometimes after class I go straight here.

"I don't have anything to do at home" I scratched my head.

"Ahh, all right, can you sweep the floor first?"

"Yes maam, don't worry" I said and I went straight to the stockroom where the cleaning supplies is there. It's just 5 am, by 6 we going to open the coffee shop. I finished my work and we opened earlier than 6 am, there were customers, most of them are students in my school.

"Lathe can you buy first now, we are short of oeoplet here, I do not want to leave you here " said ma'am Tanya.

Maam Tanya is kind and beautiful, she already has a husband and a child. I heard that her son is in Canada studying.

"Okay maam, where can I buy it?'' Showing her the list l.

"Ahh in the market don't worry we have suppliers so they know they know what will do, just show that list to them" maam said, I nodded at what he said.

"I'll go ahead maam" I said goodbye and got on the tricycle.

She also gave me budget for fare and snack because it was difficult to go to the market with too much traffic and a lot of people.

"Hello is anyone there?" I called the store on maam's list. Is this the right store I went to? She has a lot of flowers around, a lot of things hanging like a lucky charm like that.

I saw an old woman on the side watering.

"Excuse me, Maam Tanya sent me here".

The old woman turned to me, I don't know, but I can't explain my body's reaction.

"Is it Tanya?" The old woman repeated to me.

"Yes, maam Tanya is the owner of the coffee at the school".

"Oh what does she need?"

"This" and reached the list of needs that are quite a lot.

"Ahh is that so, go ahead come in, sit there first, do you drink tea?"

"Ahh no, sge was shocked by what I said.

"Ahh is that right, I'll make you some coffee".

"Oh no — need well, I'm trying to stop the old woman.

"Sit down, I'm Nenita, just call me Nina".

"Ahh I'm Lathe", we shakes our hands but why is my body reacting like that?

Nina has left, and when she returns she is carrying a lot.

Nina is beautiful, it can be seen in the features of her face even she is old. Nina is white, and has a good height.

"Hey are you listening to me?"

" —Is --I sorry or what is that again?"

"I mean do you believe in reincarnation?"

"What?" I was confused by her question.

"Should I repeat it again?".

"Haha , of course not I never seen or encountered that someone is reincarnation"

Suddenly the old woman stopped what she was doing, looked at me intently.

'Did I say something wrong?"

"Nothing", she said gently.

"Are you Nina do you believe in reincarnation?"

"It was a long silence before she answered and took a deep breath as if it was too hard to answer my question.

"Yes", at the same time she looks straight into my eyes while saying it.

"You know, I'll tell you story, in the long time ago" she started, I don't know but I laughed because I imagined my grandmother was talking to me like a child, so the old womanan stopped talking.

"This child do not laugh" she said to me.

"I'm sorry" I apologize.

"Long time ago, there was a man who was a very nice, so many people became obsessed with that man, Cristina was one of them. A woman being so desperate to that man, she was fighting with the other women who were getting the man's attention. She even used potion once to make the man ma fall inlove with her, but she did not know that she was slowly getting the man's attention. Cristina was beautiful, rich, all things she already have except the man, her love. So when she found out that she was getting the man's attention, she became kind, she stopped fighting, they became close but the man still did not say that she wanted her, that he love her, so she was still sad. But everything has changed with the transferee came, she is as beautiful as Cristina, kind and tender.

Many want to confess their love to her so that's how Cristina start to hates that woman. Although Cristina does not admit that the two are both kind, beautiful and handsome so she gradually they are look together. Cristina knows the man she love, loves the woman who just came suddenly on their live.She is hurt but when she sees the man's smiles when talking to the woman she wants, she is happy.

Because she can't give that to the man l, to be happy. But everyone was shocked with the woman, when she did not accept the love of the man she loved, she saw how her man got hurt, and begged to accept his love. She confronted that woman, "I don't love him, why are you forcing me to like him?"

"You are useless! Can't you feel that he loves you so much? Maybe you like someone else so you don't like him? "

"Ha? Nothing? Cristina believe me, I just don't feel anything for him, I''m sorry. "

Cristina first understood the reason of the woman. Is it difficult to pretend that you love someone.

But something terrible happened , and the old woman looked me in the eye.

"--- a — what happened?"

I do not know why I was affected?

The old woman was still staring into my eyes as she continued to tell the story.

"The man was found dead in his room" I do not know but I felt like I was crashing inside. Why? Am I feeling anything?

Why suddenly I felt something.

"It is suspected that the man committed suicide due to rejection becauy of the woman he love, some say he was killed because they are rich in his family and have many enemies because of family business.

But people believed that it was suicide.

Cristina returns to being a demon, she blamed the woman for losing the man she loves.

"Ha? But why? She was just honest that she didn't like the man? Why is she being blamed?"

I can't help but ask.

"Cristina was blind by the truth then, all she could think about was her revenge on that woman. The root and end of everything. Cristina became even more angry when the man she loved asked for help in her dream.

I was shocked, dream? Like me I have dreams but the difference is I am not being asked for help I am being blamed for that dream.

"They bully the girl at the school, making it difficult for that girl to go to their school every day, the old woman said sadly. But Cristina got the justice she wanted for her loved one".

"How. I'm confused, huh? Was she killed too?"

"Oh, I'm done with these other heavy ingredients, I'll just deliver them, at Tanya's coffee shop".

"Okay, Il go ahead Nina, I'll just bring these light ones, she just nod.

But because of my curiosity, before finally leaving I asked what was the name of the woman Cristina hated in the story.

"Nina ? When I called him, the old woman turned to me waiting for the next thing to say.

"What is the name of the woman Cristina hates?"

The old woman seemed shocked to what I asked.

"She is Hasmyne" .

Hasmyne I do not know but I feel ambiguous.

"Do you have any more questions?"

"A — hhh I'm fine, I'm leaving", I said she nodded.

I'm just going to walk back at coffee shop, it too much traffic, while walking I can't help but think of Nina's story as if it were true, and why is my body reacting like that?

I was shaken by the thought that I could just imagine that my body was already feeling something.

Is it because I didn't ask the name of the man in Nina's story? Maybe next time, and I just kept walking, I was stopped because of the man who was looking at me.

Who looked like he was there for a long time, he was tall and handsome like the man Nina was telling. I was overwhelmed by what I was thinking, tss, and the man turned around and pointed at me.

"Yow, Love, I was looking you earlier, theose gays flirting me".

At the same time, he pointed to the parlor, as if he were a child reporting to me now.

" Those women they taking picture of me, what am I an actor? Tss! Someone is asking for my number, but you are not asking for my number, so why should I give it to them, you know love---

" Hep hep!" I stopped him from blabbering like little boys do.

"Who are you?" His face darkened as if he did not like what I said.

"Tss! damn here we go again" he was shaking his head.

"Hello there miss Lathe, I'm your future husband not only that, I am the man you will only love, King and your service".

And what ?Man to love? Tss! he know nothing.

"Whatever!" I just said that and left him there. But I stopped walking when it suddenly he screamed and the women who heard it collapsing.

"Lathe! I like you. Can I court you? Ahh no, I will love you, even if you do not like me. If it is necessary to look like a fool so that you can remember me, it 's okay, if you do not remember me even though I'm so handsome, I have many ways for you to remember me and you will never forget".

I was just listening to him, and I did not expect the next thing he said. I did not know because of his stooping.

"And in case, all of that is still not enough, just take my life first because when I start loving you I had given you the right to hurt me, and kill me over and over again".

"They said too much love can kill you, I don't care as long as you are mine".