"You can feel the pain you made him feel. His cries and sorrows".
Ahhh! Bad dreams over and over again, a voice full of anger. I looked at the time as usual 3:55 am. At this time I wake up because of my dream. I lay down again, trying to fall asleep but I can't. I feel like a robot without feeling. I will never experienced the feeling of anger, joy, sadness and love.
I prepared my breakfast, yes I do eat foods, I am still human I can't feel hungry and most of all I can't tell what the foods taste like. I lived alone, my family doesn't understand what's happening to me, so they sent me away, far away from them. I thought they will help me when I needed them the most.
Back to reality, I always wake up early because of that dream. How much I try to remember the whole details but I can't.
"Sty", my only one friend called me Jasmine. She knows my situation and I am thankful because she did not leave me.
"Morning your noisy Jasmine"
"Eh I miss you eh", she said, how cute.
"We've met yesterday, do not dramatize as if we have not met for a year".
"You really numb! you only need to say I miss you too" she pout, she is really cute.
"Oh! I'm sorry you cursed woman she whispered. Well she knows everything about me, a single details. I had nothing but I have her, my best friend.
Our professor for Chemistry came and he didn't do any lectures, he just give quiz. How come? He didn't even discuss it?
"Okay class, lets continue tomorrow"
"Tss, he's boring " Jasmine complained.
"You're lazy," I said.
"Sty, I'm hungry, buy me foods pretty please?"
"Okay, hang over again? "
"I have a headache eh,yeah I still have a hang over. I love beers".
She loves drinking coffee and beers.
"If you're not my friend, you have to pay for it, right?"
"Fine, I'll treat you, so come on I already bribe you "she hissed.
" Yes ma'am!"
As soon as I entered the canteen they were all eyeing on me. That's why I don't want to go there's a lot of people, if not just because of Jasmine. They're eyes is full of judgment, I mean what will they gain from the judging me?
"Wasn't she was the woman yesterday?
"Yeah she is ugly! I can't accept that King kissed her"
"Maybe he potion King right?"
I just ignored them and bought Jasmine's favorite foods. After that, I left. I was judge because of my appearance but now, they talk about me because that man kissed me yesterday . I don't even know him. I was walking on the pathway when someone blocks my way. I just ignored him and continued walking, but he touched my hand, reason to stop me, I was thinking I might slip what I bought for Jasmine.
" What are you doing? Aren't you afraid of them, they are already looking at you? "
"The more I fear now is what I see in your eyes"
What is he saying?
"Why your eyes pushing me away?"
"Even if you greet me with hurtful words and sarcasm I am happy"
" Who are you? Sorry we don't know each other. "
People watching us and I received negative comments.
"She's feeling famous?"
"I can't believe this, King approaching her".
"She is witch".
Those are the comments I heard.
I bowed in embarrassment, this is too much.
"One word you said why I'm hurt so much?"
I don't want to say so I left him. I just want to avoid trouble.
"Stype, how long I have to wait , to recognize me?"
I remembered the first time I saw her. It was enrollment day, she was busy checking her form on the line. Call me gay, but I was mesmerized by her. Her long black hair swept by the wind. I'm late so that I don't know what course should I choose. I was curious what course she enrolled, of course I have planned to take same course with her. I hurriedly go to admin to get form, I choose accounting. She accidentally fell her form, it's my chance. I picked her form, Lathe Stype Valencia is her name.
" Here, I'm Chester by the way" I don't let miss the chance to know her.
"Thankyou, Just call Lathe or Stype".
"Sty then, nice meeting you, your gorgeous".
She smiled shyly but no response.
"I gotta go, thanks again".
She finished already, if I know I came her early.
it's my turn I give my form.
" Ma'am excuse me, what course did Lathe Stype Valencia take?".
"Wait a second, Mr.".
" Education Elementary".
What? Did I misheard it?
"What ma'am pardon, it should be accounting".
"It's Education, so go, many enrollees I need to entertain".
" Wait ma'am I will changed my course, I want Education--
"Mr!, you already enrolled, I'm sorry".
"But no, you have to change my course---
"I'll call the security if you were not stop".
That's it. First day, enrolment I got warning from the school.
I can't change my course, damn.
From that day I used to follow her, hoping she will remember me.
But everytime, I told my name she can't remember.
I was frustrated, for now it's fine with me looking at her from a far. I used to stalked her, I want to know everything about her.
I found out, that she has no senses.
I don't know what happened to her, why she lost her senses?
I keep searching what are the possible causes why she has no senses?
There is no medical science can explain it to me.
The more knowing her, the more she became enigmatic to me.
I'd been watching you everyday, but those times I can't figured it out who the real you, why are you treating me this way".
"Sty what is the story behind you?"