19 Chapter 18: Happy Break Up
"I think you're no longer the Maria Clara I know. I don't need a woman who can't understand me." Your words cut deeper than a knife
#18: Happy Break Up
"LOCKDOWN MY ASS!" I shouted to Simoun and I push him a little. "What is this era? Covid19?"
It's already late because earlier, we stopped by in a river but we didn't talk. We both want peace earlier so when we start walking again, I asked him about the lockdown thingy. B*tch! Is this Covid?
He smiled for a while but he forced himself again to look serious. Even if he just smile for a while, I still saw it and it's genuine. I love to see his smiles
"Look, I am serious. If you don't find that necklace, then you'll be locked here forever," he said as if it's just a small thing.
"Forever? No way," there's no forever. "I'll find it as soon as possible. You'll see. I am better than you think I am," I said.
"I hope so. In that case, you'll finish your mission faster than I expected," he said and he stopped walking.
When I look at the road, our mansion is in front of us. Wow! We're already here and it's quick! Maybe we did short cut.
"Am I running out of time?" I asked him for the last time.
"No," he stared at me like he is reading my whole soul. He holds both my shoulders and forces me to look directly at his eyes. "But don't chill. You never know what will happen the next day. You did a lot of changes."
I don't know what's with his hands but I must admit that every time he touches me, I have this weird feeling of electricity. As if... As if I like his touch.
[ELECTRICITY BY: DUA LIPA]
[Falling into you, baby
Even Electricity can't compare to what I feel
When I'm with you
Ooh, baby
Giving up my ghost for you
And now I'm see-through]
"H-hey! Let go of me!" I rolled my eyes at him. I remove his hands from my shoulder but while I am holding his hands... I hate to admit it but I felt warmth.
[You give me a feeling, feeling so strong
I know you've been treating, treating yourself wrong
So let me care for you
Ooh, baby
I'ma love you differently
I'll give you Electricity
Give it to you]
"O-of course! I know it! I am born ready so there's
nothing to worry about. You just have to trust me--"I couldn't breathe properly because he hugs me. Tightly!
[And even if I could
I wouldn't turn on you
And I would stop the world for you, you know
I wanna let you know
I'll never let this feeling go
This love has no ceiling, I cannot deny]
"I'm sorry if you're hurting because of fictional characters here in Noli Me Tangere, but I promise you after this, you'll have a better life."
[Even if I could
I wouldn't turn on you
And I would stop the world for you and I
I wanna let you know
I'll never let this feeling go
This love has no ceiling, I cannot deny]
I don't know what is he saying but I let him hig me for a while because it's also comforming to me. I think I need those words and assurance that after this, I'll be free.
[All I see is you, lately
Wide awake and in my dreams
I see your face so vividly
I don't know what I'd do
Ooh, baby
If you only saw a friend in me
I'd be bittersweet]
Simoun waited for me until I enter the mansion before he leaves. Isn't he so gentlemanly? I wonder if he ever fall in love. Who was the lucky lady?
[You give me a feeling, feeling so strong
I know you've been treating, treating yourself wrong
So let me care for you
Ooh, baby
I'ma love you differently
I'll give you Electricity
Give it to you]
He said that I was hurting. True enough because Captain Tiago, Padre Sibyla and Damaso, Doña Consolacion, and Crisostomo hurt me in different ways. I am just overwhelmed that he cares for me.
[And even if I could
I wouldn't turn on you
And I would stop the world for you, you know
I wanna let you know
I'll never let this feeling go
This love has no ceiling, I cannot deny]
[Even if I could
I wouldn't turn on you
And I would stop the world for you and I
I wanna let you know
I'll never let this feeling go
This love has no ceiling, I cannot deny]
[I feel Electric, baby
So Electric, baby
Wanna let you know, let you know, ooh
I think I'm ready, baby
I think I'm ready, now
Electricity, I'm falling in to you]
[I feel Electric, baby (This current between us)
So Electric baby (This flow, this feeling tonight)
Wanna let you know, let you know
(I want it, I need it)
I think I'm ready, baby (This current between us)
I think I'm ready, now (This flow, this feeling tonight)
Electricity, I'm falling in to you]
[Even if I could
I wouldn't turn on you
And I would stop the world for you, you know
I wanna let you know
I'll never let this feeling go
This love has no ceiling, I cannot deny]
[Even if I could
I wouldn't turn on you
And I would stop the world for you and I
I wanna let you know
I'll never let this feeling go
This love has no ceiling, I cannot deny]
[I feel Electric, baby
So Electric, baby
Wanna let you know, let you know
(I want it, I need it)
I think I'm ready, baby (This current between us)
I think I'm ready, now (This flow, this feeling)
Electricity (Woohoo)]
[I feel Electric, baby
So Electric, baby
Wanna let you know, let you know
I think I'm ready, baby
I think I'm ready, now
Electricity]
When I entered the mansion, I saw an unfamiliar old man who looks Spanish
I saw Captain Tiago talking with an old man who looks Spanish. We haven't talk properly and we are still not on good terms that's why I decided to avoid him.
But he called me...
"Maria Clara, my daughter," he called out while wearing a huge smile on his lips. Wow! As if we're good. He motioned me to join them.
I just followed him because that's the right thing to do. Maybe he is with the Captain-General like he said earlier. Wow! This day is so long. It's only this day when I saw the other side of Crisostomo.
"Is she your daughter?" The Captain-General asked.
"Yes, she is. Well, I'll leave you two. I have a lot of things to do," Captain Tiago or my father excuses.
"Hija," the Captain-General called my attention. "You're absolutely lucky to have Captain Tiago as your father."
I just shrugged off. "I think so," I just said. Well maybe, he is a nice father to Maria Clara. I am not Maria Clara and I pissed him off.
"I heard a lot of things about you," he said. I coughed because of what she said. What does he mean by that? Is it bad or good? Have I done good things? "You have a pure heart but what I like the most is what you've done earlier."
My eyes enlarged when I heard him. What did I do? Dancing? Insulting Doña Consolacion? This day is long and I don't know what he's talking about.
"You stopped the fight between Crisostomo and Padre Damaso. I think I must reward you. What do you want? Just tell me."
"Oh my! There's no need for that but I want some Gucci, LV, Channel, Dior, Celine--" I stopped saying branded things when I saw the Captain-General furrowed his brows.
"Oh, look at the brat young lady," guess who said that? It was Padre Sibyla! He is sarcastically smiling at me. I smiled at him too but it's fake Earlier I kinda like him as a person but now? I change my mind.
He is with Padre Salvi and simply elbowed Padre Sibyla. I think he secretly hates him too.
"I'm sorry for interrupting, Captain-General," Padre Salvi apologized even if it's Padre Sibyla's fault.
"Where is Padre Damaso?" The Captain-General asked them.
"He can't attend," Padre Salvi answered.
"He's sick," Padre Sibyla answered.
They answered in chorus.
"What the! HAHAHA!" I can't hide my happiness. "Why are you in chorus? Is this a choir?"
Padre Sibyla stared at me like he truly despises my attitude. I don't give an F, I also hate him more than he thinks. The Captain-General just nodded at them like he doesn't care about them. HAHAHAHA!
"Maria, let me show you that if you do good things, there's a reward. It's not bad to have a reward so let me," he said. I didn't say that I won't get it. "Any minute, Don Ibarra will arrive and I am glad to see the both of you."
I was about to speak but the attention seeker, Padre Sibyla interrupted.
"With all due respect, by any chance, did you forgot that Don Crisostomo Ibarra is an excommunicate?" He said. So what? If Padre Sibyla is the head priest, I also rather be an excommunicate.
"I am hoping for Padre Damaso's recovery. I think he must be back in Spain," the Captain-General dismissed, he doesn't care about what Sibyla said and he is cold to them. HAHAHA.
I look at Padre Sibyla and I smiled sweetly at him. He glared at me again like if glares can kill, I'm already dead.
Huh! You deserved it! You deserved the treatment!
The two priests back off. They just leave us alone and while they are walking away, they bumped into Crisostomo. Oh! Hahaha!
I saw the intensity of their look and the atmosphere is uncomfortable between the three.
Speaking of Crisostomo! I hate him! I am finding him everywhere earlier but he didn't show himself! He's also the reason why I run into Doña Consolacion. Thank goodness, Simoun is there.
Is Simoun my savior? I think so...
"Oh! Sir Captain-General, I think I must go," I excuses. I have no plan to talk with Crisostomo. Why won't he die?
"But Crisostomo is coming. Just wait for a while," he smiled. He is nice, but I don't want to see Crisostomo that's why I don't listen to him.
"Sorry, but I really have to go," I said and run.
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"So... You're just here," I almost jumped because of the minion who just talked. I also hold my chest. I stared at Crisostomo who is now smiling because again, I am shocked because of him.
I opened my mouth to backfire but I remember that I shouldn't talk to him. I just crossed my arms and turn my back.
I hate you! Do you think I'm easy? Ha! You wish!
"What is it now? Are you mad at me?"
Still, I don't talk. Why would I talk? I rather look mute.
"It's scary. Who talked? Is there a ghost here?" I said I don't wanna speak but look! My mouth! But it's better so he will know that I'm furious.
"Ha!" He unbelievably exclaimed. "You think you are the one who should be mad, My Love? Ha! I can't believe this!"
"Oh?" I faced him with a firing eye. Yes, I'm really mad! I guess my eyes are red now. "So it should be you? I am finding you everywhere earlier and guess what? I run into Doña Consolacion and--"
"You run into another guy!" He changed what I said and he sadly smiled. Yes, he smiled but it didn't reach his eyes. "You hugged another guy. You are cheating with me."
He is still smiling even if his voice sounds he is hurt. He is forcing me to smile! Maybe I really hurt him! But who cares? I said that I am mad!
"Oh please, don't be malicious. Simoun is just a friend of mine! It's normal to hug a friend when she or he needs to!"
And right now? I deserve a hug. In the midst of all of these? Crisostomo knows nothing but Mr. Librarian? I think he knows all of me. From the very beginning.
"It's normal? Then I think I must hug Victoria. I think I need a hug," he said sarcastically. I didn't know that he can be this kind of piece of shit.
"Oh please. Stop being jealous. Victoria is not your friend. She is MY FRIEND!" I emphasize the word, MY FRIEND. The audacity of him to tell me this? Does he think that I'll be jealous? In his dreams.
"Come on, that's not my point!" He couldn't control his emotion and shouts. Good thing that we are in the garden and no one is here. "I'm sorry. I don't mean to..."
"But you already shout! How dare you!" I rolled my eyes at him. "Just tell me what's your point! Don't shout at me!"
"I'm... I'm," he couldn't say what he wanted to say but he looks apologetic. "My point is that you shouldn't hug anyone. Especially when it's a man and I don't even know him."
"You don't have to know him!" I shouted!
"But I am your boyfriend. Your fiance." He calmly said.
"But you don't respect me earlier," I bravely said. "You are hot-tempered. You pissed so easily and--"
"Wow!" He said like a helpless man. "I a hot-tempered? I remained silent while Padre Damaso is insulting me. I couldn't hold back when it comes to my father!"
I didn't say anything. He has a point but still... He is a hot-tempered man! "Y-yes! You should shut your mouth!"
"I think... I didn't want to say this but I think we need some space. I'm sorry but I want a break." He looked into my eyes like he is so tired of everything. He smiled, but it's fake. "I think you're no longer the Maria Clara I know. I don't need a woman who can't understand me."
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FEATURED SONG: STITCHES
I thought that I've been hurt before
But no one's ever left me quite this sore
Your words cut deeper than a knife
Now I need someone to breathe me back to life
Got a feeling that I'm going under
But I know that I'll make it out alive
If I quit calling you my lover
Move on
You watch me bleed until I can't breathe
I'm shaking, falling onto my knees
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
Tripping over myself
Aching, begging you to come help
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
Just like a moth drawn to a flame
Oh, you lured me in I couldn't sense the pain
Your bitter heart cold to the touch
Now I'm gonna reap what I sow
I'm left seeing red on my own
Got a feeling that I'm going under
But I know that I'll make it out alive
If I quit calling you my lover
Move on
You watch me bleed until I can't breathe
I'm shaking, falling onto my knees
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
Tripping over myself
Aching, begging you to come help
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
Needle and the thread
Gotta get you outta my head
Needle and the thread
Gonna wind up dead
Needle and the thread
Gotta get you outta my head
Needle and the thread
Gonna wind up dead (gonna wind up dead)
Needle and the thread
Gotta get you outta my head (gotta get you outta my head)
Needle and the thread
Gonna wind up dead (wind up dead)
Needle and the thread
Gotta get you outta my head, get you outta my head
You watch me bleed until I can't breathe
I'm shaking, falling onto my knees (falling on my knees)
And now that I'm without your kisses (without you)
I'll be needing stitches (and I'll be needing stitches)
Tripping over myself
Aching, begging you to come help (begging baby please)
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
