Chapter Eleven ~ Say I Love You

It has been one week since the news about the twins and who the fathers were. The doctor was able to explain to us how my pregnancy would work since it is apparently very different from a regular pregnancy.

For all Submissives a pregnancy only lasts four and a half months since our bodies were meant to keep producing so if I wanted to I could have two babies a year. Not that I want to.....maybe....wait no I'm still young.

Every two weeks equals a month so I'll need a regular check up to make sure they are growing at the appropriate speed. Submissives have natural births unless there is an emergency which hopefully won't happen. In all honestly I'm scared and excited to give birth to my little beans.....I mean how can a human being come out of a little hole.

The boys argued with each other on where I would be staying at before an after I give birth without even letting me have a say on the matter. After about a good half hour I got pissed yelling at them to shut up or id shove my foot up their asses.

Of course me being an actual killer it shut them up real fast so I was able to tell them what my decision was. I told them I was going to stay at my place with my children and they could visit anytime they wanted. They didn't like it but gave in to my decision hesitantly when I gave them keys to my apartment.

I sat on the couch with my feet on the coffee table while I ate a chocolate pudding for breakfast and watched cake boss. I have been really craving sweet things especially chocolate pudding and blue bells "I heart chocolate" ice cream.

Ducky came running from our room holding the bunny my mother gave me that Leo was able to get before my place was "cleaned up". She came sitting on the couch next to me, "mommy want pudding too." I looked at her taking another delicious lick of the spoon and told her, "No"

She pouted, "Why"

I took another bite, "because I said so."

Her brows furrowed more, "Ow com you get one?"

I tapped her nose with the spoon and smiled, "Because I'm older and I'm your mommy."

She crossed her arms over her chest with a big huff and looked at me with her kitty eyes that she has learned I can't resist. I sighed dipping my spoon and held it out to her mouth, "Only one bite then you go eat cereal." She happily nodded her head and stole my spoon from me then went off to the kitchen for food.

I sighed slouching into the couch more as my thoughts for today's plans were. Today I have to drop ducky off with Leo at the mall then head to the office to do some work and of course there is that meeting I have with Zach.

He has been all I could think about this past week and I think I am going through with my choice. I touched my lips remembering the first kissed we shared, how I instantly felt the sparks between us.

I can picture it now, his lips on mine giving me slow sweet kisses then his tongue briefly brushes over my bottom lip asking for entrance. After teasing him a bit id grant his wish and soon our tongues would dance together while our hands roamed each other's bodies remembering every inch of skin.

My lower body was getting a bit wet and thankfully my alarm went off signaling me to get ready for today's work. I moaned taking one last lick of the pudding container before throwing it away and headed to the room to get mine and ducky's outfit.

Since most of my company, as well as other companies, believe I am a woman, I must look the part so I get out my thigh high black lace stockings and put on a tight skirt that went a bit above my knee.

Since I must look the part I put on a lace bra, that matched my woman's underwear that clipped to the stockings, which embarrassingly had stuffing sewed into it. The stuffing only allowed me to have A-cup breasts so thankfully they didn't have to be big looking. Then I tucked in a button up sky blue dress shirt and put on some four-inch shiny black heels.

After I got dressed I dressed ducky in a white sweater with black leggings and boots along with a black heavy coat that matched mine since it is getting colder.

I drove to the mall leaving ducky with Leo then went to get myself a hot chocolate before walking into the main building. Apparently, my office was on the thirty-second floor out of thirty-six which has an amazing view of the other skyscrapers.

My walk to the elevator consisted of many people greeting me as boss" and when I got to my floor I caught men eyeing me as if I was a piece of meat. I was able to find my door that had a golden plate that said "S. Blackwood" in cursive writing.

Opening the door I saw the large floor to ceiling window wall that helped light up the office. There was a grand light wood office desk with a letter B sculpted on it along with the latest technology placed neatly above it. To either side, there were bookshelves as a mini library and in the middle of the room were brown leather couches facing each other with a coffee table in the middle.

All furniture was either brown, light brown or dark brown except for the white fur carpet that stood out from the dark wood floor under the couches. I closed the door behind me putting my coat on the couch and sat down on what was the most softest office chair I have ever put my butt on.

I slouched on my chair letting it eat me, "The only thing that would make this chair perfect would....be...," I felt a switch on the bottom of the arm, "Oh my god it does have a massage option....wait why is my butt warm....God Almighty it has a butt warmer!"

I Skylar Jones Blackwood take this chair as my life partner with donuts as my side bitch.

Honestly, I sat on that chair for about twenty minutes before jay came into the office to make sure I was doing work. Of course, he got after me and took my chair away while I held onto it for dear life as he dragged it away out the office with me also dragging behind it yelling, "Don't take my husband away!"

It only made him get after me more about me not acting like an adult or like the feared killer boss I am. Now I'm stuck in my office typing a ten-page email to another company in Florida in a regular boring chair that has no intentions of pleasing my body.

After three hours I was finally done and thought I deserved a bottle of the half tea/half lemonade that was in the mini fridge. While taking my time savoring the flavor I was interrupted by a lady on the intercom telling me Zach is here for our scheduled meeting.

I gulp loudly as nervousness sets in but after a few deep breaths, I find the confidence to walk out of my office and into the meeting room he will be in.

Carefully I open the door and peek my head inside to see he has his broad back towards me while he seems to be fiddling with his fingers nervously. I quietly close the door and walk over to him but he doesn't seem notice I'm in the room so I reach my hand out and tap him gently once.

Before I can tap him again my arm was grabbed roughly and my back was slammed onto the dark wood oval table with my legs spread open and a hand on my neck. With my skirt now ripped, I instinctively put my legs up and wrap them around his neck for me to snap him.

We both stop to look at each other and he blinks his amazing eyes a few times before actually realizing who I am making his grip on my neck loosen. I loosen my legs from around him but they slide down his shoulders to his elbows and of course, he looks down to see my black lace panties that barely hide anything.

His jaw drops and he doesn't look away making me blush very hard with a yelp escaping my lips as my foot instinctively kicks his face to the side.

I sit up straight on the table trying to cover my privates with whatever my torn skirt can while he groans turning back to look at me while rubbing his now red cheek.

"I'm sorry! I um um didn't mean to I mean well um......nice body," he says not taking his eyes off of me.

Really? I mean I already know I've got a good body but did he really have to just stare at me in that area.

So did you come all the way here to rip my clothes up just to be a pervert?" he shook his head no quickly and straighten his clothes neatly before taking his jacket off and placed it on my ripped skirt. "ill make sure to get you a new skirt to wear before our meeting is over"

I glared at him for a moment but sighed rubbing the bridge of my nose, "Okay but get some food too because I'm hungry and this skirt was one hundred dollars." He smirked while standing in front of me, my knees briefly touched his thighs sending shivers down my spine and he seemed to notice it.

His smirk turned to a smile as he pushed my knees apart to get in between them and strong arms snaked their way around my waist pulling me closer to his muscular chest.

I tried moving away but he only pulled me closer till there was no space between us. "As you wish my angel. Do you have any more requests?" I felt my cheeks heat up from his words making him chuckle and rest his face on my neck with a sweet kiss to it.

My breathing un-evened as did my heart beat but I did not want him knowing what he could do to me. He mumbled something but I couldn't hear since I was too focused on getting my heart to slow down a bit.

"S-Shouldn't we be discussing important matters?" He laughs into my neck causing goosebumps to rise, "We can still talk like this or is the all mighty angel not capable of doing a meeting like this." A moan escapes my lips when his hands find their way under my skirt and on my ass as he begins to suck on my sweet spots.

He continues to massage my bottom and when his finger circles my hole, he puts a finger in making me gasp which lets him have full access to my mouth. His soft lips attack mine and his tongue will brush over my bottom lip before going into mine to explore.

Instead of pushing him away I allow him to do what he wants and he seems to know I've let my guard down on him as he pushes me down onto the table more till I'm laying down while he himself has also gotten on the table still in between my legs.

With my legs open a little more, he still tries to push them further apart but can't because of my skirt. Next thing I know I don't feel his finger in me but instead I feel a blade on my thigh gaining my full attention.

I was about to knee him on his jaw only I was too slow and instead of feeling my skin being cut I hear the sound of clothes being torn. His smirk is back on his face as he looks at me so I look down to see I'm only in my panties, bra and black stockings.

"You are truly a masterpiece my angel. You are a picture filled with beauty that non can compare and I just can't help but to love you more and more." I looked at him into his eyes to see his words were said with....love. Could he really love me? He knows I have a tainted body. He knows I'm a wicked person whose done bad things. I don't understand how he or the boys could say such words to me.

Such words that mean so much to me because of the people who said it. The words that spill out of their mouth fill my empty body with warmth and I only wish...I only wish to say the words back to them.

I want to pour my heart out to him, a man ive only met a few times but was able to make my heart beat wildly at our first meeting. Although I denied it, well at least try to deny it as false feelings, ive now come to realize.....that I love this man with all my being as want to spend the rest of my life with him. I want a life with him and my babies.

My babies....

I haven't told him im pregnant.

Oh god he wont like me. He will reject us and call me dirty. I don't want that. I don't want it.

I didn't notice tears were leaking out of my eyes till he pulled me closer and wiped them away with his thumb. "Please don't cry. I won't apologize for loving you so please please don't cry. I love you. I love you so much I don't know what to do or say. But I know you have feelings for me as well or else we wouldn't be where we are now."

He slid his hand under my chin to tilt my head up towards him letting him see my puffy face full of tears and probably snot. His thumb gently traced my bottom lip before going to the back of my neck where he was pulling me in for a kiss.

Before our lips could connect and they were briefly touching he said, "Please say I love you."

My eyes widened at his request for me to admit my feeling to him. He crashed his lips onto mine without letting me respond. The kiss wasn't a hungry one but a gentle loving one like our first kiss at the bar that made my heart beat.

The feeling of warmth started again as we continued to kiss now letting our tongues explore each other's caverns and the tears kept coming down my face. He pulled back looking at my face that felt red and my puffy lips that were parted because of my panting and my half-lidded eyes that couldn't stop the tears.

"Please don't hate me."

His perfect nose scrunched up a little in confusion, "Why would you ever think I could hate you?! I love you Skylar! I love you so fucking much baby I never want to let you go."

He got off the table and pulled me off so that I was standing up while he looked through his coat on one of the chairs near the door.

I stood there almost completely naked trying to wipe my tears away with one hand while the other tries to hide as much of my body as possible.

I don't want him to hate me

I want him to love me and my babies. I love their daddies too but Zach makes me feel so different when I'm with him.

Thinking things a bit harder made me come to the conclusion to tell him of my pregnancy and that his reaction would determine whether we became one or not.

I faced my back to him to look out the large window on the other end of the meeting room. It was a perfect cloudy day that had the cold wind blowing enough for me to want another hot chocolate and cuddle with Leah and my babies under a blanket.

My image was interrupted when a throat was cleared and my name was called from behind me.

I turned and gasped loudly while tears slid down my face again.

There he was.

The sexiest man alive.

The most dangerous man in the mafia world whom they call a devil.

The man I love with all my heart and soul.

There he was, kneeled on one knee with his hands up that held a velvet navy blue box. In the velvet box was a silver diamond ring of angel wings. One wing faced up and the other faced down and they were entirely made up of teardrop diamonds.

"Skylar I loved you when I first laid eyes on you and knew you had to be mine as soon as possible. The need to make you mine got stronger and will only get stronger even after you become mine because I never plan to stop wanting you. I want you day and night twenty-four-seven. All I want to do is love you and pamper you like the real angel you are. I want to spend forever with you, with our children and our children's children. You have no idea how nervous and happy I am right now but will you make me even happier right now with a simple answer my angel."

Tears kept coming down my face as he continued, "My angel. My beautiful Skylar will you become this devils angel? Will you marry me and love me even after death?"

My legs couldn't hold me any longer so I slid down to the floor and moved into his arms wrapping my arms around his neck.

"What a whore you are Skylar."

I looked up from Zach's shoulder and daddy was sitting on the chair by the door with his leg over the other and he had an amused face on. "He is only asking you for marriage so he can kill you later on and inherit the company. He'll kill you and those abominations like animals because that's what you are. Dirty filthy animals that don't deserve love."

I shook my head and buried my head in Zach's neck repeating the word please. Zach began to rub my back and I pulled my face away while wiping my tears away and opened my mouth to say something. Before I could reply he shut me up by kissing me lovingly then hungrily and I just couldn't help but kiss him back.

His hands moved from my back to my bottom playing with the lace panties while groping and pinching my ass.

"Say yes my love. Say you love me. Please be mine forever and always."

He pushed me down so that I layed on my back and he began to kiss my neck until he found my sweet spot and started to suck it leaving a hickey there. His lips moved lower until the brushed over my right nipple making me whimper underneath him.

He gave it a quick suck then a kiss and moved back up so that we were face to face.

"Will you marry me Skylar and become Mr. Skylar Jones Henderson?"

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"Yes"

"Yes, I'll be yours forever!"

"I love you Zachery so much!"

He smiled picking me up from the floor and spun us around and placed me on the table again. We kissed again while he began to unbutton his long sleeve, "I can't wait anymore my angel I'm just so happy right now."

I opened up my arms to him, "Come take me, my love"