Worst Birthday

And eventually, everything changed. The memories of that leaked video faded. Somehow I and Nick got along again. We spent time together. Like best friends do.

And eventually, it was my birthday. I always looked up for this day until everything happened. I'm not excited about it, the time with my sisters, family, friends, I'm not excited about anything. I just wondered what was stored for me for my birthday? If I needed to know, I had to walk into my life all again.

And so I did walk into my miserable life. I don't know how much miserable it can be but it was enough for now. I couldn't take it anymore. But still, I moved on.

And for the bad habit I raised, I didn't stop that. Every time I'd have any problems I'd just sit on my bed or on the floor, think about it and think about what my life became then bring out my broken glass pieces and put that right above my wrist and cut.

I knew I wouldn't die of it. I knew I'd just get hurt and see little droplets of blood. But I didn't want to die. But I wanted to.

Confusing right? Yeah, I was confused when I was in this part of life. Confused and helpless, didn't know what to do.

I had scars all over my hand. Only the left hand to be specific. But I didn't mind.

So my birthday is on 3rd March. And for some reason, I never liked the month of March. I mean I always had an exam on my birthday and shit.

It's the day before 3rd March. I was wondering what people would do actually. Will they do anything for me? But I hoped they did after all I'm their friend right?

And it's my birthday. Sadly we didn't have school or extra classes. I mean nothing. So I knew nothing would happen but well it just felt a little lonely.

**bell ring**

I was sitting in the living room, watching TV. But at the bell I thought who would it be, ma is at her school, Sierra is sleeping. I opened the door and saw Miles and Nick.

I was shocked. But happy I guess?

Miles said looking at me, "So we did surprise you, huh?"

I smiled a bit and replied to him, "Yeah. Kinda. But what are you guys doing here??"

Nick jumped off and interrupted Miles. It was funny tho. "Nothing, Sam. We thought we would wish you. Well, we were just passing by."

Miles smiled at me, "Happy birthday, baby."

"Happy birthday, Sammy Sam," Nick said being as childish as ever.

I was happy that they actually came to my house to wish me. It's not that much but I was happy.

"Thanks," I said, with a smile, a really warm smile.

Nick looked at me and asked, "So? When are you gonna throw a party for us?"

I slapped Nick on his back. He jumped and laughed.

"Don't do this again." Miles looked kinda annoyed. But well I didn't care.

*Laughs*

"Okay we better leave now, Bye babe," Miles said that as if he was in a hurry.

And he left. Nick was still there.

"Well, I couldn't bring a gift. So a hug?" Nick smiled at me.

I was overwhelmed by this gesture. I mean it doesn't really mean much.

He opened his arms. I thought no matter how bad he was he's still our best friend. So I hugged him back.

"See ya, Nick." I waved him.

"See ya."

And he left. I was happy. But today Miles didn't hug me or didn't even try to kiss me. Every time he stays so eager to kiss me. But today something was different. But I didn't care. I was happy that they came over.

/// If you're thinking that I just forgot about the incident then you are wrong. Sometimes it's better to move on then to find answers and I also did the same.///

The next day.

I woke up and did my everyday routine. I don't have breakfast at home because I don't feel like it. Then I wore black jeans and a white crop top. Over that, I wore a denim jacket and I wore my favourite black boots. Why I dressed up like that? Because I'm going out with my friends today after school.

I knew something was wrong when I walked into the school. Was it?

Actually, Miles was acting kinda weird. Felt like every one of my friends was looking at me like I'm a criminal.

"Hey, guys? Anything wrong?" I tried to ask casually.

They all looked away. I don't know why but it felt strange.

"Guys, what happened?" I tried to grab their attention but well didn't work.

And then Miles walked in.

"So you hugged him?" He had this annoyed look in his face that I hated.

"Who? Nick? Yeah. I did. So what's the big deal?" I mean what could be a big deal out of hugging someone?

"You are asking me what's the big deal? Don't you have sense?"

"What type of sense you are talking about?" I was getting annoyed too. I mean sometimes I get enough of this

"You hugged him where you should've hugged me."

"Oh yeah? Then you didn't even ask me for a hug and he politely said it was a substitute for a birthday gift." I was on the brink of breaking.

"Oh no you're gonna say why I didn't ask for a hug and when I ask you to say why you're so clingy? His words. He looked to frustrated. But I hated it.

"Oh my gosh. Stop acting like a baby!"

I walked away from there. He was taking this conversation too far away! But I couldn't concentrate on anything but thinking why he was acting like a baby! He's a grown-up! Argh! It's so much!

After school me, Talia, Mia and Lara had fun together. I wanted to call over the boys but after today's little argument with Miles I didn't.

At home, I had a party with my cousins. I tried to shook Miles off from my head. And it was hard. But the party was blasting, with cakes, balloons and foods, the things I love the most.

But when they left my mind drifted back to Miles. I felt stupid and sort of don't care. It was my birthday so it's my decision. I'm gonna decide what I'm gonna do. And I fell asleep. I also didn't talk with Miles that night.

I don't know what was ahead. But still, everyone has to walk ahead in their lives until they decide to 'suicide'.