26 Homebound

I opened my one eye and searched for my phone to check for the time. It's seven in the morning. I looked to my right and found the baby sleeping. I moved slowly up to peek at the sleeping Reeve and then I smiled remembering the dance that we had. Its like I want to scream deep inside. This trip is like a dream. I don't know if its the reality or not but I'm happy. I reached for the comforter and covered him while I stare at his sleeping face.

I looked at my hand and remembered the time that he held it at the beach. It had a sense of security that I know I can't find with someone else. This unrequited love of mine really. What to do? Everyday its like I'm falling deeper. But maybe the least that I can do is enjoy it for now. Savour the time that we have. I laid down again and closed my eyes. If this is dream I dont want to wake up anymore.

I opened my eyes again. I can't sleep and I can hear him moving. I turned to face right and found him facing me.

"Good morning!" With smiles.

"Good morning" I replied.

"How was your sleep?"

"It was fine I guess" his stomach growled and I laughed.

"I'll go first to prepare so we can have our breakfast" as I was about to move he stopped me by grabbing my wrist.

"Just stay still for a little longer" then he closed his eyes and I went back to bed. He snuggled on the comforter while still holding my hand.

He can be like a child at times. He really would choose to sleep rather than eat. I looked at the sleeping and him. They look the same. So I guess that's why they always mistake us as a family.

We are denying nor confirming it we just ride with the flow. But its kinda hard to pretend when what you feel is real. I wish I could tell him. I really do. But I don't want to ruin anything that we have right now. This unrequited love sucks right but I still I can get close to him and make him feel my love in simple ways that I know.

I know last night I said some words and I meant it. I wish he knew how much courage I gathered just to tell him those. Stupid me. Falling in love with the guy that's only here to help me with my dilemma.

I can feel his hand moved from my wrist to my hand. "You know I really want to hold your hand all the time" his words made me turn my head.

"But if you're not comfortable then I won't... It's like you know I feel this warmth and its good" Is he like sleeptalking or something.

"Your hands are warm too" I answered. Then he grasped my small hand. He didn't move and its seems that he fell asleep again. This guy would give me a heart attack. Its like my heart is going to explode now.

I looked at the time on my phone saw that it's quarter to eight in the morning already. I slowly pulled my hand away and got out of bed. I can still feel his touch on mine. I don't want to wash my hands right now. I laughed at what I'm thinking. What am I? A highschool girl inlove?

By the time I finished Kenji is awake already and is kicking his legs. I woke Reeve and told him to go and prepare which he obliged sleepily.

After preparing we went for breakfast and went back to our room to fix our things. We just sat there and watched some movie from the cable until its time for checkout.

We are all gathered into the lobby and after a few minutes we all rode the coaster bus to send us to the airport. I was watching the sceneries on my window side. This place is really a memorable one. Something I won't forget most probably.

We arrived at the airport and did our check-in and waited at the boarding area until our flight is called.

Me and Reeve were seated together. He let me sat on the window seat while he is on the aisle side. He helped me with my seatbelt and then placed Kenji on my lap then afterward he fixed his. I felt so sleepy and can't help but yawn.

"I feel sleepy too" he placed my head on his shoulder while securing it my hand.

"Sleep. I'll wake you up when we arrive" Waaaa how can I sleep when my heart is beating wildly right now. I can feel myself tightening my grasp on Kenji. He moved and took Kenji from me and then placed my head again on his shoulder.

I can feel my heart now beating normally. So I tried closing my eyes and before I knew it I drifted to sleep.

He woke me up by the time we arrived and I stretched myself. That was a good nap. He handed me the baby and took our things and then we left the plane.

We took the shuttle towards the parking where he left his car. We did a drive thru to order so we dont have to cook when we get home.

The ride was quiet but everytime our eyes met we either laugh or smile. Neither said a word but our presence is enough already.

When we got home he told me to go up and he would bring our things although I said I would help he disagreed so I went first.

When I opened the door and saw the familiar place.

I'm home!

Am I back to reality now? Will things go back the way they were before? Or will be better?

Just don't get your hopes up girl.

Less expectations means less disappointments.

Then I feel my heart sting.

2/15/2019