1 CHAPTER ONE.

All my life I have lived to fight what Iam.I have never had the courage of coming out of my closet...am weighing the outcome.If I.do this....I'll be disowned by my family....my friends will reject me....the society will judge me.Nobody will want to set their eyes on me.....I'll be treated like an outcast....I'll be condemned by everyone.I'll be used as a bad example to others.Nobody will want to associate with me.And that is not what I want for me.

How I wish this world would not be full of judgemental souls.....how I wish everyone one will understand us and accept us.Like God made us this way...

We didn't choose to be who we are...It just happened.... fighting the feelings is not easy....You can't stand boys or men approaching you but there is nothing you can do about it.

Because you want to live a private life.... you've got nothing to show that you are in love with women.

And also hiding from the society.People out here think it's easy to just wake up one day and breal the news to your parents that you are gay....In Africa it's not!! It's so difficult to even gain the courage to stand on your own grounds..... people espect alot from you.

If you are a first born in your family....your younger ones look up to you....the moment you go astray....they will follow the same route....so you have to be that perfect child for your younger ones to eager.You crush your feelings for them.