INNER DENIAL

My Feelings can never be understood by anyone. I am amazing at hiding my feelings.I might say that I don't care, but truth is I care way too much. And whenever I trust someone they prove me why I shouldn't. My eyes expresses my pain better than my words''. I have seen and witnessed pain and that made me to be who I am today. I will never forget the pain I saw in my mother's eyes when she was brutally murdered, the way my younger siblings head were smashed with a big rock, the way my dad's eyes pleaded for the life of his family. I am the only survivor of my family. I changed my name GAEL which means Joyful to RYDER meaning Mounted Warrior, everything about me changed. Survival was my only hope, success my only revenge. Ryder becoming a drug lord and the most feared in Alberta. At the age of 27, he has earned millions of dollars and was feared by other drug lords. Most people tend to say Ryder has no heart, no emotion, no feeling but is it so? What made Ryder become this way? Was Ryder this way? Will he turn to be the Ryder everyone will love? Stay tuned , as you journey with us.