In love with my highschool rapist from hate to love

I was raped in highschool by none other than my crush and his friends, from I vowed to take revenge from them, but instead I fell in love with them. it was Monday like and like every other Monday",I stayed in the library to hide from kristen and his friends stewart, randy, Micheal. I had a crush on them. actually I had fantasies about them fucking me. and I actually got what I wanted but in a different way. I felt humiliated, they had taken photo and videos of them fucking me in the bathroom floor. I knew there was nothing I could do since they were rich, and had develop this hate for them.