5 THINKING ABOUT HIM

I don't know but lately I have been thinking of Jordan, my heart beats every time his around me I don't know what to call this type of feeling, I have never felt this kind of feeling for anyone, then why him? I have been looking in to his blue eyes, they are just like the ocean, and I'm slowly falling in them, if this is love then, no it can't or could it be? I'm not sure the other side my heart says it's love but my mind says it's just a feeling, is it just any feeling or it's something else? What should I listen to, my heart or my mind? If it's love, is this the feeling you get if you are in love with someone?

"So many questions in my mind but who can I ask? I can't go to my mother nor my sister, I guess I have to answer them myself? This is the kind of feeling I got when i was still in high school when I liked Kim but this feeling is deep. Is it a sign that I'm falling in love with the supernatural being? But how is that possible?" Does love come this way? His only my friend, can I also love my friend?. Becouse all I know love is not a joke but if you truly love that person you will be with them forever? What should I listen to? My heart or my mind? My mom always tells me that I should always listen to my hear t. And my hear is saying that I have fallen in love with him, if that is the case then.... "So I love him? Mingalin screams....." I love you Jordan! "I love you! Wow I don't know what is that but my heart beats so fast. Why is this...... Did you call my name? Jordan what are you doing here? You called out my name didn't you?... How did he hear me? Should I tell him that I love him no wander my heart was beating so fast but I can't tell him that I like him how about he doesn't like me back? No I can't tell him. Amm hello Mingalin are you still here? Ahm yh I am. Okay but why were you screaming out my name? Did you hear me? Did you hear what I said? No I didn't hear what you said I just heard my name and a knew it was you. Ooh yh I called your name I wanted to see if you were going to come, yh that's why I called out your name. Okay can I go know? Yh you can totally go. OK bye see you tomorrow.

" when he came in to the room I couldn't stop my heart from beating I wish I could tell him but can't maybe it's not the right time for him to know I will tell him when the time is right". I wish he also feel the same way about me. This the first time I have ever fallen for someone this deep, my love for him is uncontrollable. I never knew that love is beautiful like this. My love story is different from the others. I can't believe I'm in love with a supernatural being. If this is true love I'm not going to let it go. If Jordan was meant for me I will keep him. And I will love him for who he is.

********************************************************************* one day I hope he will be able to understand and tell me that he also has a feeling for me, every love story starts with friendship but ours started with a fight then friendship, and we became so close to one another that he can even hear my voice from a far distance. On day I will ask him if he truly loves him but not know. My love story will be different, it won't be like in the movies. This love story of mine will be different.

********************************************************************* Tomorrow is my day off for work so maybe I can call him up and go out for lunch. Maybe I will get to know him more I think that would be right . Yh I hope he will be free tomorrow. I wish I could tell my sister but she doesn't believe in supernatural beings. My sister is my best friend hiding this from her is just like backstabbing her. I promise I will tell her when the time is right, but not know. I hope she will understand. I will ask Jordan tomorrow if he loves me. Tomorrow I will and see how he feels about me. His blue eyes got him stack in my mind and know I'm thinking about him. Let me think about him and experience this beautiful feeling. I won't let it go. I love you Jordan. My mind has been thinking of you and I hope you don't get a headache but I do love you Jordan and I hope you will understand despite our differences between us. Becouse know I don't think I can leave without you Jordan. And I hope my family will be able to accept you for who you are, I can do anything to be with you Jordan. Absolutely anything. I will confess my love toy you and that to soon.