1 In love but not courageous enough

The wise say love is a beautiful thing! Do you agree? Love is beautiful when you meet a soul that connects with your inner being in every way possible. In my senior year at school I got a chance to meet a very beautiful young lady from Swaziland. My first glance at her moved everything within my spirit, felt like love at first sight,her smile was amazing and nice. I wanted to approach her and say hai but I didn't have the guts to do so cause her presence would melt my feet and speech, I couldn't do much in her presence but look at her with my feet cold ,hands shaking. Each time she looked at me I felt shy and Frozen. After some time I started planning on how to approach her and officially talk with her but each time I saw her coming it's like fresh incense had poured on her skin and each morning she would look fresh and more beautiful with her natural skin shining. I talked to my close friend about her and how I felt about this girl ,he laughed at me for not being man enough in approaching her or making a move on her. Each time I planned to do so, my feet would just become cold, my tongue speechless cos her beauty would appear new each day that came, with time it started paining me inside cause I knew she waited for the day that I would officially approach her and tell her about my feelings but unfortunately I wasn't courageous enough to do so. She also gave me signs permitting me to approach her in some way but I didn't have no words each time I faced her. I never thought I would experience a crush in my life. My friends would narrate their stories on their crush but to me it seemed like just mere stories nothing realistic till the day it happened to me. I remember some days I would cry in my bed at the hostels knowing that I didn't have enough courage to say hi to lady I liked so much for unknown fears and low self esteem. To this day it still pains me that I couldn't approach my high school crush and say hi or express my feelings to her. I guess I never believed in myself at that particular time , I never wanted to see any guy talk to her cause it would pain me inside.