670 Best Version Of Yourself

*Flashback Continued*

After crying her heart out, she lost her voice even further. Since her heart had come to a decision, she felt relatively calm now. Chen Xiu had no intention of seeing a doctor for this. She didn't think she needed it now. She got up and cleaned herself up. Dressed up in clean clothes before she put on ointment on her wrists and ankles that had the bruises from the rope. 

"Ah!" 

Even when she screamed in pain, she still had to do it all on her own. And she did. 

For the next couple of days, whatever she ate, she puked out. Her stomach couldn't hold it in. That further weakened her body. And every night, she would think up of a new way to die.

For instance...

Holding the kitchen knife in her hand, she continued to stare at it for a long time. As if some whispered in her ear, "Just do it. There is nothing left for you here. This is the only way."