2 Chapter 1. Finding a new home.

Finding a new home is harder than I thought..

A lot has happened since I left the hospital. I went home again. Yes, I said I wouldn't do it anymore but I'm going to need money if im ever going to try and live by myself. Don't blame me for not thinking it out clearly. Upon entering, my mom didn't even look up from her phone. That already showed how much she "loved" me. I wanted to scream at them. They beat me in the hospital and didn't even give a f*ck! But I didn't want them to hurt my sister because of my behavior, so I decided to leave. If I'm ever coming back to that place it's to break my sister from this sh*thole. Im just so fed up with their sh*t. I grabbed one of my larger bags and dumped all my stuff inside. It was a blue bag with white stripes, and it looked very girly. I put my money, my clothes, a pair of shoes and my necklace inside. I basically already had everything I owed in there. I didn't have a lot off things since my mother always broke it for her 'entertainment'. She can be a very racistic and toxic person. If I wouldn't have left myself, they would throw me out just to see me suffer, and I would have been left with nothing at all.

They had my chains, but they can't imprison my mind. That said, I should have taken my earplugs with me when I had the time. Now I can't listen to any of these awesome songs anymore.

I went to the room opposite from me, my sisters room. I knocked on her door only to have her hug me imidiatly. "Oh thank god, your alright." She said with tears running down her eyes. "I thought I lost you for a second." Was it really that bad? Did they beat me that bad? She let go of me. I looked at my sister and she looked tired. Shes been working very hard lately with her final exams. "Hey sis, are you okay." I asked her. She looked at me with pain in her eyes. "If I'm being completely honest, no. But I'm much better now that you're here." After hearing that I felt like I was being choked. I was leaving her behind with these monsters. I stuttered "Sis, I- ... I'm moving out." She looked at the bag I was carrying with me. "Oh.. I-"

Everything fell silent. After what seemed like hours I finally talked. "I'm so sorry sis, I wished I could take you with me but I can't." She looked at me with a sad smile. "Its okay.. I know it's good for you. And if im honest, I think I'm moving out after I finished my exams." My sister was very mature, and after hearing that, I knew she would be fine.

After I said my goodbye's to my sister, I walked downstairs. My mom asked "Where are you going this late?" I wanted to say: Away away from this shithole or something as savage as that, but nothing came out of my throat. I looked back at the house I lived in. After saying a goodbye I got on my way to go to my best friends house.

He always welcomes people who need it. I could still remember the time that he smiled and said 'If you need help, you don't have to tell me you're coming anymore. You're always welcome here.'

I have stayed at my best friends house for a week now. He is very welcoming, and doesn't mind me being here, however he has a girlfriend so I will have to hurry up with finding a new house. I can't stand there "evening sessions". They are so loud..

Im definitely not going into detail with that one. Anyways I searched for a new house, but they are all super expensive. So thats why I searched for a house with a roommate instead and well. I saw a decent house with a roommate and I booked an appointment. If everything works out I'll be living there.

Now I'll just have to visit him.