Chapter 37

MARK

Its been days and all I could think about was Eunjees face and her echoing voice inside me head. Even the guys noticed how distracted I was during the day and restless during night. You might say I should go and talk to Eunjee instead of ranting about this things. Don't get me wrong, I did try clearing things out with her but after she admitted some things that night, when I was about to answer back she begged me to stop and forget everything that she said. She was so embarrassed and afraid that I chose not to push it further with her but that seems to be backfiring at me now since I cant stop thinking about what she said. Even after I brought her back to her apartment, she was just quiet and she didn't even invite me in so I had to wait for Jb to come down and when he did, he looks more satisfied than I was. So from then til now, all I could feel was irritation, I even snap to my members from time to time.

"Hyung?" Yugyeom knocks at my door before entering, he doesn't usually do that but maybe because I was so grimm this past few days that he is making sure that he wont get any from me, he is being careful. "Jb-hyung asked me to ask you if you want something from the convenient store?" He tells me slowly.

"I'm fine Yugyeom I'm not that hungry. Thanks for asking" I gave him a smile to which he returns to me aswell. He closes my door and so I went back to what I was doing and thats pretty much thinking. I scratch my head and decided I need a drink.

"Hey jackson" I went out of my room and looked for Jackson so I can ask him to come with me.

"Yeah?" He answers and I followed where his voice was.

"Lets go have some drink"

"Seriously? Now?" He eyes me and I just nod my head. "Are you serious? like this isn't one of your random split personality decision?" He asks me again

"Yes Jackson. I need a drink. so are you coming or not?" he eyes me confusedly, after scrutinizing me with his eyes he finally nods

"Yeah sure why not. I'll call Jb maybe he wants to come too. I can't go alone with you if your going to give me one of your shitty attitudes later. I might just strangle you" and now its my turn to eye him as he was scanning his phone. "What?! Im being serious here bro. You can be really shitty when you want to be and I just hate it when it happens." he clears and I know that he is telling facts and not just some random opinion from a stranger. I can be a real jackass if I want to be.

"Fine! Go ask the other guys too" I told him and he just hums in response.

I went back to my room and looked for something to wear. If we are all going then I should probably bring my hoodie and shades, just to avoid paparazzis around places.

"Hyung, the kids are staying so is Jinyoung. Jb and Youngjae are going to meet up with us at the place." Jackson tells me and so I went to gather my things and fixed myself.

By the time I was done fixing my things Jackson was already prepared and waiting outside for me.

"Mine or yours?" I ask Jackson

"Yours. I'm too tired to drive" He grins. "Plus i left my keys to Jinyoung just incase we need someone to fetch us later" He informs me. I grab my keys and we both went down to my car and decided to go to our favorite club to drink.

"Hyung can you promise me one thing?" Jackson asks me

"What?"

"After this night. Can you go back to being you again and not this shitty you? I dont know what happened between you and Eunjee after that night but it sure as hell affected you a lot." Jackson confronts me, well he is sort of the only one who can do that to me.

"I'll tell you guys later what happened because it really does bother me" I admitted.

"Okay fine then. Lets play some rocking music to set up our mood" He smirks then he connects his phone to my speakers. Blasting songs resounds around us and I just can't help but laugh because of Jacksons reactions.

//EUNJEE

Anne was practically dancing around our apartment that I had to guess that she had a wonderful time with Jb, though when I came back that night I could swear I heard Jb and Anne talking before Jb saw me and waved good bye, by the time I went to anne's room she was knocked out real hard. The next day I didn't ask Anne about what happened because her face was pretty much telling me what I need to know.

She keeps dancing in front of me, as if i'm not there and when she finally notices my presence, she starts pulling me to dance with her but I just can't help but laugh at how crazy she is right now.

"Jb must have done something great for you to be like this?" I teased her and abruptly stops dancing after hearing Jb's name.

"What do you mean? I don't know what you are talking about" Anne tries to hide her own embarrassment, its as if she was caught doing something naughty. I shake my head and grabbed some beer and gave her one before flumping myself to our shared couch. She follows my lead and sits beside me.

"Stop lying Anne, its pretty much written all over your face. You dont have to hide it from me besides you were never the expert on hiding stuff" I raised my brows as she was already been caught multiple times.

"How did you even know? I'm pretty sure I never mentioned him in front of you nor did I ever talk to him while you are with me" She tells me and I just grinned drinking my beer.

"Anne the walls around us are not so thin you know. Besides, the way Jb cared when I said you were knocked out proves that he really does care for you and I'm just not that stupid not to see the thing going in between you two" she nods at my explanation and then she suddenly hides her face before looking at me again. I laughed hard to her face because her reaction was so priceless.

"Does that mean? The other night you....you heard everything?" she asks curiously with wide eyes and embarrassment taking over her whole face

"What? What happened the other night?" I raised my brows teasingly and she just diverts her eyes aways from me.

"Nothing" she tries to avoid my eyes but I can clearly see what shes hiding.

"Something definitely happened and its not just kissing" I teasingly cheered jumping and Anne just stops me by pulling me back to the couch.

"Shut up or I swear I'll make you shut up" She points at me "Permanently" She clears and I just smiled at her embarrassment.

"Why are you even trying to hide it out? I mean you look happy enough to be with him"

"Its complicated but I guess you could say we're both fine now. Plus, i'm not trying to hide it. I am hiding it, we both know how that would end up if people starts knowing about us." Anne tells me then she takes a gulp of her own beer.

"Well, dont focus too much on those things. Just be happy that Jb and you are together. It doesn't matter what other people say, you stick with what your heart wants." I told her, its pretty much ironic since it came from me, from someone who literally gave up everything just because shes afraid that someone might hurt the person she loves.

"How about you? Don't even think for a second that I haven't notice that glum face you have lately and don't even try giving me some stupid excuse because I'm not buying it" She tells me, making the tables turn.

I wasn't embarrassed like she was though, what I'm feeling right now is a little bit away from what shes feeling. I mean I do admit that after I blurted out something I shouldn't, all I ever felt was longing and regret. I know for some reason that after I told Mark what I really felt, the heaviness inside me was lifted but then I did push the idea away when I told him to forget about what I said and now I'm back to being lonely again. I know its sucks that I still choose to be like this when I can just go jump at Marks arms and just be happy with him.

I sighed "Its complicated with me, I'm still trying to figure things out" I honestly told Anne

"Whats bothering you Eunjee? You are not like this" She urges me and so I had to tell her everything, starting from when we started talking to me admitting that I missed him. Anne was trying to think of ways to console but she can't find any but the things that really needed to be said was clear in her mind "Look, you need to face this one way or another. You just can't keep running away from it. You have to give Mark a chance to fight for you aswell, you can't just keep deciding for the both of you and as much as I can tell, Mark really cares for you. You need to give him a chance to fight with you. Give yourself a break and stop pretending that you don't want to be with him anymore when all you want to do is run to his side." I understand what she wants to tell me but that problem was I can't do it. I don't have enough courage to just do whatever I want, my mind wont allow me.

I whined in front of Anne who just laughs at my reaction, she actually loves seeing this side of me. The side where I keep tormenting myself about everything thats happening in my life, its gives her entertainment.

"You do realize you are just giving me the satisfaction of watching you blame yourself, right?" she teases me and I just sighed because there no point in arguing with her. Shes in love and shes just at her blissful moment so anything that I throw at her, she'll just throw back at me.

Good thing my phone started ringing, interrupting us from our talk. I answered the call without looking who the caller was "hello?" said by the caller. Anne was trying to put her ear to my phones other end, she might be hoping it was Mark, but judging by the persons voice, it wasn't Mark.

"yes?" I answered

"Eunjee. Its Jisoo, President Lims personal assistant. I was wondering if your free tomorrow afternoon? there is someone who wants to meet you" Jisoo asks me

"I guess I'm free by then, I only have a night shift today until dawn tomorrow. Who wants to meet me?"

"I wish I could tell you but I was instructed to keep it private until you two meet. So just wait for tomorrow you'll meet him anyways" Jisoo explains but he totally gave me a hint.

"So its a he? Are you sure its not President Lim himself that wants to meet me?" I teased Jisoo but what Im asking is not impossible since he used to do that before.

"Well its not the president, that Im sure of. Just be there tomorrow, i'll send you the address" He hangs up on me so I didn't get to tease him further. Anne was looking at me weirdly and I just shrugged at her reaction.

"This is interesting, Who might want to meet you now Eunjee?" Anne teases but I just pushed her and never answered her questions.

//CASTER

I've been in Korea for a few days now and Kang Jin made sure that I was well taken care of, he practically gave everything I need to survive here. I mean Korea is not bad but I am more comfortable back at home. I've been here a few times before but all of them were for business related things, now the reason why I'm here is personal.

I looked to my villas balcony and I saw how refreshing the scenery was. I breathe in the air and it relaxes me, its like home.

"I see you are enjoying the view now?" Kang Jin arrives without me boticing his arrival. He comes here everyday to keep me company, his been trying to take me outside but I was too busy doing busines related stuff that I didnt have a chance to go out with him. Though I know that my reason for coming here was looking for my cousin, i did bring with me some of my work that needs to be done. We do have businesses here and I still need to check on them so thats the reason why I'm stuck here.

"I do remember locking my doors and yet you are here" I told him as he grabs one bottle of water inside my fridge.

"Well, I did get you this place so you can enjoy your stay here in Korea and I do own this place so I do have access to your villa whether you lock it or not" He smiles at my irritated look.

"You should be thankful that your my friend because if you weren't, I would have kicked you out right now" I told him to which he just laughs.

"So whats your plan for the day?" He asks me, I was actually planning to go meet up with Eunjee now but I realize that she might be on duty today so I had to check on her schedule first.

"Not much. I still have to check Eunjees schedule before I go meet up with her" I told Kang jin

"Whats with her anyway? Is she somehow your lost cousing?"

"Yes" I immediately answered, Lang jin was silent for a second, analyzing my reaction if I was joking or I was being honest.

"Seriously?" He asks again

"Yeah. I've been hiring people to investigate her and so far she fits the profile" he eyes me and I can't help but see the creeped out look in his eyes. "Yah! Don't you dare stare at me like that. I had to do those things to find her you know. Plus, Gran is dying so I had to do something to speed up everything" I explained

"Are you going to tell her everything?"

"I'm not sure yet. But she deserves to know them all" I honestly answered.

"Well, if you need any help, I'm always here" Kang jin stands up then taps my shoulders " If you dont have anything else to do today, why don't you go with me and meet up some of the cute girls I got while I was doing some business? They are waiting for me at one of the clubs I usually go to. I'll make Jisoo update you Eunjees schedule." he tried to pushed me but he knows I'm not into those kind of stuff, I am more of a office kind of guy. I like my peace and I dont like drama, Although back when we were just in college we used to like going out a lot and just messing up but after I inherited Grans businesses, my life just just kind of revolved around that.

"I'm fine here. You should go have fun" I told Kang Jin because I didnt want to spoil his fun.

"Come on, you even brought your baby here and yet you're not even using it" Kang jin insisted and he was quite right since my baby is just outside this villa waiting for me to use it. " Come on Caster, lets do something fun, its not everyday we get to hang out you know" Kang Jin was right, I guess I'll have to use my baby today.

"Fine" Kang Jin smiles then pushes me inside my bathroom to fix myself.

// MARK

The guys and I are really enjoying our time right now and I can't help but just laugh at how silly they are and also maybe I'm little bit drunk, judging by how much I've drank already, its many.

"Come on Hyung, you need to do this!" Youngjae tells me as they were doing some stupid trick that was really funny so even though its stupid I still joined them and did it anyways and after that we all laughed again even though nothing was really funny.

"Hyung! I think your too drunk, you sure you can still stand after this?" Jackson asks me

"Jb, tell this guy to stop killing the mood" I stuttered to Jb.

"Yah! Shut up Jackson" Jb scold Jackson and so that got me laughing again because I totally won and Jackson got scolded.

"Seriously guys, its all fun and all, but you all need to chill out and stop drinking or you'll get sick tomorrow" Jackson scolds us three but since we were really drunk, we just laughed hard at how funny Jackson looks right now.

"You guys are seriously going to get it tomorrow, I'm calling back up now, I cant handle you three on my own" Jackson rants but again no one cares so we just ignored him as me and Jb kept messing with Youngjae.

I heard Jackson talking to someone but I didn't know who it was, all I could focus right now is the slow beating of my heart and the chased breath coming out of me. I held onto my chest and tried breathing hard but no air came. Jackson notices my reaction and thats when everything falls into chaos.

"yah! Mark!!!" Jackson shouts for my name but my eyes are starting to get blurry and my breathe comes hazy. I felt hands holding me from side to side, shaking me to come to my senses but I felt numb, I was breathing hard and all I could think before I lost my consciousness was I want to see Eunjee one last time.