6 Chapter 6 :the art of loving oneself

Now Binta feels guilty to Gavina, she should be more honest with Gavina because she is now Binta's friend.

But, what is the power of Binta's character from the past that never escapes her not being open to people? because Binta has not found a suitable place to tell all her complaints. But maybe, this time Binta found the right person to tell the story.

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This time, Binta went to the cafeteria to just fill her stomach or just stare at the people there. binta must pass through the hallway and have to go down the stairs because her class is on the 3rd floor.

When Binta was in front of the 11th class of Mipa 2, suddenly someone dragged her away from the crowd and pulled her to the toilet.

In front of the toilet, Binta's hand was slammed by the women who were now in front of her.

"What do you want?" asked Binta in pain, holding her wrist which was pulled tight by her senior

"What do you want? Did you hit it yesterday because you were close to Akalaand you are now close to Fathur. You don't have to be odd. So that girl has a little self-esteem, your pride is now being trampled on by someone, "said the woman, snorting her feet on the floor.

binta felt that her pride had been put down by her class sister.

Binta could only cry, she could not bear it if her pride was really demonized.

"Why? You can't talk? Can't you? Already mute, huh? Or do you really accept that your self-esteem is so lowIt's good if you know yourself that you don't have self-esteem "challenged his senior named Kesya

"Sorry sis, my self-esteem is not as low as you think. Do you feel that your pride is high if you crash into a younger class just because of a guy problemnow I want to ask the older brother, where's your pride, brother, if you've bumped into a junior? "Asked Binta, who began to dare to challenge.

"Are you brave enough to fight? Don't just because your father with a gloomy look will make you dare to fight me" growled Kesya, raising Binta's chin.

"Sis, if you want to badmouth me, don't you ever badmouth my family. Because all this has nothing to do with them," moaned Binta, who was starting to feel disgusted by the behavior of her senior.

Binta can't stand it if there are problems connected with her family who don't know anything.

"Oh, yes, I introduced you to me, we didn't have any acquaintances but we just fought. You don't have to know your name because I already know that you're a whore" insulted Kesya

binta could not stand it if it had to be said a prostitute, suddenly the courage appeared to raise her hand to Kesya's face.

But unfortunately, it was restrained by Fathur who suddenly passed in front of the women's toilet.

Binta tried to let go of the hand that was held by Fathur

"Ta, I didn't expect that if you were like this, you can't go to Kesya. You have to have courtesy to seniors" said Fathur.

"You don't know anything, Thur, but you are pretending to be a hero so late" wheezed Binta

"Ta, I know how come you don't like Kesya but that's not how it is Ta" said Fathur

"Thur, it's not like what you think, you don't know what happened," cried Binta

"I'm tired of all this, I'm tired when I have to be like this, no one can believe in me. I think you are a human who can trust me, Thur, but I think I misjudged you, you are just like other people who always blame you. I am "continued Binta whose tears were gonestumbled again and tried to get out of the toilet and intend for his class to take his bag and want to go home to school.

"Ta ... wait for me" called Fathur who was chasing after Binta.

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Binta takes her bag and tries to wipe her tears and wants to leave this school, wanting to calm herself down.

"Ta, where are you going? Prevent Fathur

"This is none of your business, it's useless I want to tell you if you can't believe me either" said Binta.

"Ta, it's not like I don't believe in you. But your behavior is really too much with KesyaYou have to know your position as a younger class Ta, you have to be polite to Kesya, "said Fathur

"It's like this, you really don't know what happened to Thur. I'm really tired of living in this world, there's nothing to believeIt's true that the scope of my friendship was like this, no one could be a place for me to take shelter "Binta cried

Binta finally decides to leave school and will go, Binta doesn't know where she is going.

If he comes home, his mother will ask what happened to him.

he thought he would just take a walk around the school to calm himself down. There is one place that will be visited by Binta to calm herself down, namely the Centrum Music Park.

There, Binta listens to the music that is served in the garden. Binta sheds her tears, who knows what made her here and who knows what made her cry.

He is just too focused on what other people say to himself. to be very ignorant, Binta can't, her ears can only listen to what other people say to her.

This makes him don't know how to love himself anymore.

***

It's been about 3 hours Binta daydreamed in this park, I don't know what she had been doing earlier.

If you look at the clock that shows 14:00 where it should be the time to go home from school. Suddenly someone approached him and hugged him.

"You can do what you can without having to listen to other people's words. I will be there for you who always support you and trust you," said the woman who hugged Binta.

Binta was touched by the words of the person who hugged her and saw who the woman was.

"Vin ..." said Binta who was shedding tears seeing Gavina who came to hug her who came at the right time.

Gavina smiled "You are not alone, there is still me, and your family is always there for you," he said

"Thank you, Vin, who still believes in me," muttered Binta

"Ta, now you have to be able not to listen to negative words of people with you. You have to focus on what you aspire to and you have to be grateful every time you have on this earth" said Gavina.

"It's hard Vin, not to listen to what other people say to me, I have an ear that is used to hear people"

"Stay focused on the goals you want to achieve and try to do better every day. Don't give up easilyalways passionate and sure that you can be successful "smiles Gavina

"Thank you, Vin," said Binta