3 3.Who is she???

"What's the matter, why are you serious today", was all I wanted to know after the party.

"Everybody has to be serious one day", replied she in a 'I-Will-Kill-U if you ask further questions' manner.

"Well that's true, but there has to be a reason for it", even I was stubborn since childhood.

"Ah...Do you think there is anything between us", she said in a sarcastic manner.

"What do you mean by that"

"I want a break from us. Just want to focus on my career."

"You can do that in your free time, what does that have to do with the breakup"

"Because, for me, things are not fine. It may be that you would be doing great, but I just can't handle the pressure."

I just stood silent; trying to make her believe that everything is just going to be great, but all went in vain.

"Hope you will understand", was her last words .

She took her scooty and flipped away. I was speechless and motionless. I don't know whether to laugh or cry at it. "What a day"- I thought. My dad came to see me on the same day after a long time and this was the day I didn't even think of waiting for. But I knew such a day would come. I was barely walking along the streets, just in her memories. What all I have done for her and she left me with a 'Good-Life' note on my face. I didn't speak to anybody and was weeping secretly. The moment I reached home, the first thing I did is made a call to her and was trying to convince her about every change she wanted to have. I even started telling her that I would change for her and become more surprising, but all were disappointed. I didn't sleep for nights, trying to figure out what she would be doing all day, without talking to me. You just can't forget the romantic nights, promises, and lover-oaths when you are in love. But, during break-up many of these things are remembered, though you never thought about it during your love-life. Now I knew why most of the youngsters commit suicide during break-ups, as they become depressed and just can't handle it.

"Well, what happened after that? Did you talk to her after an year or so", Raj, who is so interested to know about it anxiously.

"you know raj, these romantic promises and swears that we boys make is too much to commit suicide on failure. After that day, I met her during the Independence Day at our school, but it was not a good one. I thought she would come back to me but turns out to be the biggest twist"

Well after a year, during my semester vacations, I called her and started talking casually. Then I asked her about us and she told me this...

"I am very sorry, but I am actually in love with someone and I am committed to him. I know I break your heart every time, but I am really sorry. Please understand"

Then I was thinking about the 'handling pressure' thing. When I asked her, "So why did you leave me basically".

"Coz I wasn't in love with you, it was just... attraction", and that popped my ear so hard and loud just like a hydrogen bomb. We were in a relationship for two long years and this is what I deserve. After hearing that, I didn't handle my pressure so I slept directly which signifies about me being sad or upset. And I got up the next day as my first day of personal independence.

"It really sucked badly though", says my sensitive friend.

"I am thru with it, and you know what I think I had enough of this love"

"What? You've  just dated one girl and you are enough. Was this your before-I-die thing"

"Nope, it wasn't but there are more complications which we have to experience in life, buddy"

"Yeah, we have to. But that doesn't mean you have to just avoid it. Tell you what, don't date girls, just increase your network, talk to them and not try to be so close to them too"

"Thanks for your advise."

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Days passed by, years passed by and I became a senior in my college, entering my 2nd year. It occurred that all the events took so fast. I got slided to mechanical Dept from chemical. Then like CBI people, my roommates entered one-by-one. We were four in a room, but one of them was in kind of depression. It was clear to me that he was missing his parents. "Oye, Are you missing your parents?" asked him with a little confidence. "Ya, it's the first time that I am staying away from home..." replied him with a small bright smile on his face.

"Don't worry, time will fly away" and we dozed off.

As the sun raise over the college building, around 5:30 am, it was the first day of my college. It was the first time that I was enjoying myself of handling things in my way.

"Only strict formal pants and shirts were allowed in the college premises and mobile phones are prohibited." --was the only rule that was not yet followed by our dear students. Unfortunately, most of our classrooms were at the last floor of the building. As I climbed each step, I thought that I would become underweight in the coming months.  College life was one of the best life's I had ever had in my life. The semester went off well, having engaged with all the workshops, late night assignments, discussions over irrelevant topic, and lots of fun.

Unfortunately, we have also had a system of changing the hostel each year. It was tiresome to shift our luggage after every year in our huge campus.

After an year,  I met Raj, and he was still the same.

I left for my place after my conversation with Raj, and the moment I left, I received a text message from one of my school friend whom I have never spoken during our school days. And the worst part is I neither remember her name nor recognise her. It surprised me that she called me, that too after 7 long years.

"Hey I am sorry, but I couldn't recollect your name", I asked her after a few minutes of chatting.

"You need not want to know also. It is better to keep it as a secret from you".

Who is she???

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