Relatable

Look! I have key hole in my forehead! JK~

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-Charlotte-

It's already 3 days, since I read that letter. That thing literally disappeared in thin air, after I read it. Like the letter said, I familiarized myself with this town, there's not many special things happened, expect I accidentally approached some wolf pack, and that time I'm grateful I have unnoticeable presence, I feel like I'm a Tetsuya.

My presence is thin, in my previous life, because that I think my inner perks come with me in this world. My inner perks and this body perks merge, I have brain, this body have talent, I have theory, this body have experiences, I have MP, this body have HP, something like that. I impressive that now I can act, the one perk, I don't have talent in previous life. Summary: I can't lie.

And I believe the woman who gave birth to me, is in L.A. She's a model and designer, and because of that she's wants a daughter who can follow her path, and unfortunately her offspring is a male, so she transforms her own son to be a daughter. She's spoils Charlotte with money, not love, I can remember he attempt a suicide 5 times in 2 years, he became depressed, lonely and become anxiety if it's come with sociality.

"This town isn't so bad." Now, I'm in a Shopping district or you all call it 'Mall', I came to buy some cooking utensils especially forks and knives that I see 3 days ago, I don't know if I already said it but, I have strange obsession with forks and knives. I have thousand set in my previous life, my grandparents said it's a common thing in our family tree, because each family member have a strange addiction and obsession with something, like they said my father have addiction with smell of gasoline, my aunt have obsession with chocolate wrapper, and uncle have addiction with raw lettuce and ball of cabbage.

"Excuse me." I said to the employee, she smiled and said it's $ 45.80. I take my purse and take 50.00,

"Please take the change." I said, she thanked me while I leave. It's my first and second set in this world, I giggled when I look the set of forks and knives in my plastic bag.

Bruk!

I thought I bumped with wall, because hell it's hard as hell, I look from bottom and I found something I don't expect and don't want to see so soon, the face of the Alpha Kid. Unfortunately, he's the one who bullied Charlotte from preschool and primary school. But, suspiciously he stopped when entered the high school, or he like avoiding Charlotte.

"Oh, Cherry! What are you doing here?" I hear someone beside him, Amanda Wynne Wolfe, his sister ironically is my best friend from preschool, she helps me to stand up.

"I'm sorry, this stupid is always dragged trouble." She said, I stared at her brother who look away when our eyes meet. "What are you doing here? I know you long enough, to know that you always hate Mall with passion." Yeah, the same thing me and Charlotte have is the hate with passion towards Mall and fashion, yeah fashion.

"I just need some new cooking utensils." I said to her, which make her look surprised and strangely her brother too. "You don't buy it online?" I shook my head.

"I want to look the quality with my own eyes, beside my Wi-Fi is down for a moment." I lied, well a white one, because I want to look the set styles and I maybe or maybe not unintentionally purpose to smash my Wi-Fi with hammer. Truthfully, I just don't want that woman called me every night, it's irritating and somewhat disturbing.

"Oh well, while we are here, let's go to the café, we can talk there." She dragged me with her, I look behind and my eyes meet with the Alpha kid eyes, his eyes shone bright blue before he closed them, and eye smile at me. 'weird' I have to keep act around him, it just instinct.

When we arrived at some café called Starbuck, well the coffee is expensive. "So, why so suddenly you, the indoor teen, became interested to come to the Mall?" I deadpan stare her and sigh, "Like I said my internet is down and I want to look the quality myself." I take a gulp of my coffee and look at The Alpha kid, he's just avoiding my eyes and smile at himself.

".. Oh yeah, yesterday night I call and message you, but you didn't answer them." Oh, yeah I kinda forgot my phone is smashed into a piece two days ago, don't ask me why, I just can tell it's an Otaku ache relief.

"I accidentally smashed my phone, so I'm phone-less right now." They chuckled, we chatting for a while and the Alpha kid just silence through the topics, sometimes I caught him off guard when he looked at me. For a while, everything is good before,

Deg!

I felt my heart, stop beating for a second, I clutched at my shirt and my breath is heavy, my head is spinning. I can tell that something is or anything invade my mind, I can't feel the world, but I can feel something, something that hurt so much. Something that,

Called for help..

"Cherry, you ok?" My body jolt, I almost forgot I'm not alone. I give them smile and shook my head. "No, it's okay, I think I will go home." I stand up, suddenly the one who quiet entirely topics, decide to speak.

"Let us give you a ride." He said, Ama look surprised at his brother, "NO! I mean.. no, it's okay.. I have to make stop at pharmacy though." But, he's so stubborn and persuaded me to accept his offer, so I don't have a choice expect follow him to their truck.

In the way to the pharmacy, me and Ama talking about anime and stuff, in the backseat, sometimes I feel the Alpha kid stare at me through the rearview mirror, but I choose to ignore it this time, when we arrived I told them to wait in the car, at first, they want to accompany me, but I decline.

"Some of Aspirin and Painkiller please." The staff just nodded and before I walk to the love bench, my head start to pound again, this time I feel my body lost the power to standing, I just kneel at place and cry and scream in silent. For a while, I can't feel the world, I feel like someone invaded my head once again, but this time I can hear something,

"Please help me.. I can't take it anymore.."

"Are you okay, miss?" I look at the staff, I can feel the world again, I can breath, and I can move my body. The staff looking at me worried, I just give her smile and take her offer to stand up.

"I'm okay, just have some bad feeling.. yeah just that."

I hope so..

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"No, don't worry I'm fine, it's doctor order though.. so whatever if I want or not, I have to do it." I said to them with fake smile, before come out from the truck. I gave them the last smile and wave my hand, then jogged to the castle.

I lied, white lie, because it's of course my doctor's order but it's in my past life, and I want to 'look around'.

"If god is exist, if angel exist, please help me.."

That voice again, this time like they're very close. I run to find the person, I don't care if my breath is mess, I don't care I tripping on air, because whoever they is, I know they will do something I can image, because it's relatable to me.

After hours I run like a chicken to find her chicks, finally I found the house, the normal house, before

I knock the door, I knew they will not answer it, so I look around the house, I can hear someone crying, it's in 2nd floor.

'Oh fuchsia it!' I come back to the front door, and enter the house, I don't care if there's a CCTV in this house, I'm going to that person. In the 2nd floor, I can hear someone sniffling, I tip toeing to their room, and take a peek.

I can see something..

familiar..

He..

me..

Standing in the middle of the room..

In his hand..

my hand..

a gun..

a knife..

And then shooting sound..

slicing sound..

"Dude, throw away that gun." I said suddenly, he surprised and spun, looking at me and pointing his gun to me. Honestly, I will do the same if I want to kill myself with a gun in my room, my house when nobody here, and suddenly a stranger spoke at me from behind.

"Wh-who are you?" He said timidly.

"Yeah, I'm a stranger, my name is Charlotte.. there, so please throw away that gun please?" His body trembling like there's an earthquake in here.

"Wh-what are you doing in my room? Why are you here? How can you be here!?" He panicked

"Okay, first I'm looking at you, second because I can hear you, third because I can."

He's not moving, but he's not lowered his gun, he's sweating like he's already run 40 laps in the round fields.

It will be a troublesome.. but I have to do it.

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-1 hour later-

After a lot and I mean lots of convincing, he told me about his conditions. You know?

He's gay, everybody in his highchool called him faggot, his boyfriend betrayed him, his best friends pretending he's not existed, and his parents is homophobia asshole.

Oh right, his name is John Matthews, I know he attend the same school with me, I know Charlotte know he existed, but he's too timid to befriend with anyone like Amanda and her sister Carmilla, who is already graduated and went to Havard.

"…" We sat in silence, I hugged him, rub his back. I can't tell him everything will be okay, because if I say that, I will be lying, because I know it won't, If I don't do something about it. He pulled from the hug and he smiling at me.

"Thanks Charlotte, you're a great help." I smiled at him, I patted his head.

"Maybe we can hang out after school tomorrow, how about it?"

"Yeah, that will be great but.."

"It's okay, just be strong and prove your ex that you're don't need him to be happy."

He nodded, but he have a 'but..' face. I stare at him uncertainly, I worried about him, if his parents.. well screw it.

Maybe I will regret it.. but I won't, and I will not admit it.

"Well, I'm not trust you enough to be here alone. You will sleepover in my home tonight." I told him and dragged him out of his room, before we get out from his house he yanked his hand from my grip, make me to loot at him.

"But I can't! I can't sleep in girl's house! It's scandal–!"

"I'm a boy." I cut him and dragged him again to my home.

"Wha–" I ignore him and contact my trusted Uber driver. For minutes we waiting, the Uber arrived, the driver greets me and driving us to my home.

"Please don't tell my mom about me bring boy to the house."

"Okay, Charly you can trust me." I thank him and we ride in silence.

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'I have bad feelings about this.. and that black cat and crows didn't help at all.'

-To be continued-