13 Part 12

[Past-Lucien]

Lucien stared at Lara. She was playing with the snow outside and looked happy for a change. He smiled when she looked at him.

Things between them were almost normal now, he knew he had finally succeeded in scaring her into submission though she did look like she actually liked him. He liked the thought of that. She should like him.

"Lucien," she peeked through the door and gestured towards him to come outside. "Let's make a snowball or something. It's the first snow this year. Come on."

"I don't want to get wet," he said but walked towards her anyway. He was still wearing the school uniform and he loosened his tie a little. It felt like it was strangling him. He went to touch her but she flinched almost involuntarily. When she realized what she had done, she grimaced.

"Are you still scared of me?" he asked, smiling. "You do know I wouldn't hurt you. I just wanted to scare you that night. I thought we were past that."

"I don't still believe you," she said truthfully and he yanked her by the arm. The teachers were nowhere in sight and the students were all outside which left the corridors empty. She inhaled a sharp breath when he licked her middle finger.

"What are you doing?"  She asked but didn't pull back. He sucked it for a while, his eyes closed as he concentrated on licking every inch of her skin on her finger. "Lucien stop."

"Are we dating?" he whispered. "Hm?"

"I… I don't know. I'm still afraid of you," she said, looking away from his face.

"Do you masturbate, Lara?" he asked all of a sudden and she went red at that. She pulled her arm back.

"No," she said, blushing. "I don't."

"I do," he grazed his nose underneath her jawline. "I jerk off a lot while thinking about you. You're too pretty."

Her heart thumped violently against her chest. She didn't know what to say to that. She did like him in a way but his mind was so twisted it scared her. "Okay." She tried to turn away but his gaze kept her in place. Then suddenly he turned around and dragged her along. "Where are we going?"

"To my room," he said.

He opened the door and she noticed there was an empty bed. Steven's bed. The sight pained her but she said nothing. "Because I have this room alone to myself now let's have some fun. Strip."

Her eyes widened. What was he saying?

"You're too shy to strip in front of me?" he laughed, his laugh echoing off of the walls. "Baby I'll teach you how to please yourself. Now, do you really loathe the thought of that?"

"No," she admitted honestly. But she still didn't want to be naked in front of him.

He sat down on a chair and laid back a little. "Come, sit on me."

She obediently sat down on one of his knees but he adjusted her so that she was now strangling his lap. She was blushing so hard that it made Lucien chuckle. "Have you ever made out with anyone?"

"No."

He leaned forward and kissed her. She kissed him back slowly, taking her own sweet time to warm up to him. She had no idea what she was doing. She knew about his crimes, she knew he was mentally ill but he had promised her not to hurt anyone anymore and she believed him. Despite seeing all the red flags she wanted to believe him and so she did.

What if he was a little crazy?

After a few minutes of kissing her, Lucien reached for her skirt. His strong and firm hands grazed over her thighs and she sucked in a deep breath.

"Relax," he chuckled and started kissing her neck.

Surprisingly she didn't object. Her eyes were staring at a spot over his shoulder. He entered a long finger into her and she bit down hard on her lower lip. She was expecting something but she didn't know what. With his other hand he caressed her jaw and kept telling her to relax. She didn't want to moan but they came out of her. She tried to stop by biting her lip but he pried them apart with his free hand. "It's okay to moan, I'm hella turned on too."

He added a second finger and she could take it no more. She came on his fingers and her entire body slumped in his hold. "Liked it?"

"No hated it," she said even though she didn't. She just wanted to defy him for no reason at all.

"Take off my shirt," he kissed her. "Since you're not a virgin it shouldn't hurt much."