I will HAVE it all

I lived...maybe...maybe not. I had a life that is very common. A very normal life. I was happy, but something was missing. As I lay on my deathbed on my 105th birthday, how ironic isn't it. I try to think what else am I missing? __________________________ I am not a Native Speaker so please don't be to harsh with roasting me because of grammar error. If there are any mistakes please let me know I will try to correct them right away. This will be my first time writing so I don't really have a target but I just really want to try writing and hopefully I can improve as time goes on. Thank you in advance for trying out my work.