CHAPTER 117

'I was so grateful because i wear a dress that has a pocket both side.'

After left the bank in hurry, i suddenly felt my pockets becoming heavy.

'You have to move faster.'

After withdrawing the money, i went into commoner's street. I bought a plain clothes and scarf. After buying all the things i needed, I stopped by an inn and changed my clothes. Even if I wrapped my face with a scarf no one will feel suspicious if they see me like that. I feel very lucky that it's winter now, otherwise I might not be as lucky as this. My appearance was completely different from before, so I'm going straight out of there and again I went into a shabby-looking inn.

"Welcome! Is it one person?"

"Yes, I'd like to stay for a day and have a meal."

"It's 3,500 sena for dinner and a room."

I was nervous that the owner of the inn would look at me strangely, but he took the money from me and gave me the chance back without any doubt. And then I was able to fill my hungry stomach. I was so hungry that my stomach so hurt because I been starved for about two days and had a hard time. I wanted eat some meat, but I thought it would be troublesome if I had a stomachache later, so I just ate soft cream stew and bread.

'Oh. I think I'm feel a little better now?'

After finished a bowl of hot stew, I went into a shabby single room and locked the door tightly before resting my sick boday as if it going to break at any moment. However, perhaps it's because I was too tired, my mind became restless, anxious and worried.

'Wouldn't someone recognize me?'

When I came out of the inn I stopped by earlier, I covered my face thoroughly, but i kept thinking about whether my behavior was awkward without realizing it.

'You shouldn't be caught before leaving this capital.'

I haven't completely avoided my death yet. Cliff, who didn't find my body, might be looking for me. If i got caught by them, it seemed like i wouldn't be able to avoid the original death this time.

'If I don't meet the step 3 exception conditions, no matter how hard I struggle Is it useless, right?'

So that's meant, my efforts to run away from the capital aslo meaningless. However, the reason I've met the exception so far is because I got caught while trying to survive somehow, so I can't help but make this effort happen.

'But where should I run too? I don't know anything about areas outside the capital expect for this capital city. . . . No, rather then that, let's sleep well now. So tomorrow let's buy some maps and travel essentials. . . . '

My worries were endless, but my energy must have been completely exhausted, and at that moment, as if a fuse had been blown, I fell unconscious and fell asleep. I had a deep sleep that I didn't even dream of. I felt my back in pain so I opened my eyes and it's already bright outside. When I gently rubbed my swollen eyes and looked outside, it was already noon.

'I feel a little better after sleeping well and wake up.'

Still, my entire body ached and hurt, but I didn't think I would be able to sleep more. I gave some coins to an errand boy at the inn, got some washing water, and washed it roughly. But the bruises and wounds from being hit by Shane or Sophia were still terrible, so I had no choice but to cover my face with a scarf even indoors. I went down to the first floor and paid to stay one more night and asked where I could get a map.

"A map of the capital?"

"No. A map of the whole empire."

"It might be a little expensive. . . . If you go out from here, go straight to the right and you will see the intersection that meets with the main road. If you go straight that way, you will see the on your left. You probably could buy the Maps you wanted is you going there."

I'm glad that the innkeeper didn't ask me more about my personal circumstances. I covered my scarf-wrapped head with another scarf again and go outside. I bought a cheap coat because I was dressed as a commoner people, and the cold wind permeated.

'I have to stay alert.'

I wasn't sure if it my skin or my mind that was chilled by the cold wind. But With full of self-confidence, I stepped forward and walked in the middle of the crowd who were passing by each other there with their shoulders lifted full of enthusiasm. When I arrived at the intersection that meets with the main road, I pretended to be shivering from the cold and pulled up my coat collar. Because i saw Duke Ludwig knight on the street.

'Did they release the knight to catch me?'

I became impatient. But I shouldn't made them look at me with suspicious. So, I walked at the same pace as others with patience as much as possible. After reached the store I barely could breathed. The owner of the shop was an older man. without asked my condition he counted all the items I wanted to buy, like an imperial maps, leather travel bags, portable lights, floating stones, candles, utility knives, first aid kits, and belts. Although my luggage was a little heavy, I bought some underwear, a woolen cardigan, a thick skirt, and winter socks.

'Now, all i have to do is packing my stuff and leave.'

When i returning to the inn, i packed all my things into my bag and rushed to her feet.

'Shouldn't i go to the carriage station right now?'

Since the search teams has been dispatched, there may already be someone at the carriage station. After pacing the room and thinking. I decided to stay one more night to rest.

'Because I already paid to stay here for 1 more night anyway. . . . '

With that excuse, I have a meal in inn again and after finished my meals i lay down on the bed to rest. But the next day, I paid the inn owner to stay one more night again. Because it rained.

'I don't have an umbrella, so if I go out now I will definitely catch a cold. so it's quite dangerous if I catch a cold with this condition.'

Meanwhile, I borrowed an umbrella at the inn, i bought two books at the bookstore on the main street, and a slice of whipped cream cake at a nearby bakery. After that, I locked myself in the room and read a book while eating a small piece of cake, that might be the last cake i can eat after leave here. However the next day i had a fever, then the day after that, it was so cold outside. Then the next day I postponed my departure because i want to eat some cake one more times. It was a peaceful time, but the corner of my heart still uncomfortable.

Because I know what the reason why i felt so indifferent.

'If i leave like this, I'll never meet Killian again, right?'

Every time I thought about it, my heart ached. When I look back on my life, including my past life, there is no single person who has given me more joy and happiness like Killian did to me. At first, it was simply because of his appearance, but as time goes by, he the only person who truly believes in me and tried hard to protect me, so it was so difficult not to fallen in love with him. I didn't want to believe Sophia's story, where he just used me as a billboard, even though now she was completely abandoned by the Ludwig family, but it was so hard to let go of the little hope I had in my heart that I believed Killian would come looking for me. That evening, while eating in the inn's dining room, I realized I couldn't hesitate any longer.

"I hear the Duke Ludwig knights looking for someone."

"Who?"

"I heard that person is from the family, who started the territorial war to the Ludwig family last time? The whole family was captured, but only one person escaped. The daughter of the family and at the same time she was daughter in law of Duke Ludwig."

"She must be a talented person."

The two men continued their conversation while eating hard.

"Do they put a reward for catching her?"

"Not yet, but I think it will be soon."

"If only the wanted flyer is posted, saying that a noble lady has run away, I think I might catch it quickly."

They say like it's was not big deal to them,but it was horrifying news to me, who was listening behind their back.

'A Wanted person. . . .As expected, I was abandoned by Duke Ludwig's family. . . . '

If they really looking for me, as Killian's wife, there must be rumors saying that they were looking for the 'daughter in law of the Ludwig family' and not the 'daughter of a family that launched a territorial war'.

'I had to escape quickly before the reward cash is placed.'

I returned to the room I stayed with half of my dinner left. When my expectations of Killian coming to find me were shattered, I suddenly felt my whole world became dark.

'Whatever the end of my fate. . . .I have to accept it.'

But even in this situation, I can't hate Killian. In the end, I was grateful that he treated the person he going to abandon so kindly.

'Even though there's many things happened. . . .but all these years passed it was like a dream. Right?'

I force myself to laugh. I'm happy enough to be with Killian even if it's just for a moment. I've enjoyed to be able to experience the joy of life that I have never felt before, during my 28 years as a choi soo na in my past life. I decided to erase all the difficult memories and leave only the happy ones. But I couldn't sleep well that night.

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"It's a carriage heading to Drivan! We're leaving in 30 minutes!"

"The carriage heading to Apentus will leaves in 40 minutes!"

With a heavy step, I arrived at the carriage station near the south gate of the capital. The atmosphere there was so chaotic than i expected. As Anna said, the long-distance carriage lined up like a covered carriage, and both the coachman and the passengers shouted loudly. I was so grateful because the weather getting more colder so i could cover my face tightly with my shawls and scarf about my neck. However even though i was wrapped like that, it was still cold that i could felt my toes seem to be frozen.

'Where should i go? Drivan? Apentus?'

It was one of the remotest places on the map that I chose after a few days of thinking. Drivan is a port city where people and jobs gather. There are many opportunities to make money here, and when the time comes, you can even escape to another foreign country by boat. Apentus also a city as big the city of Drivan. Where commerce was developed, and has a more tolerant mind than in the capital, so there are many shops run by women. However, these two places have one thing in common, it's a place closer to Ryzen city.

'If i could survive, maybe someday, I have a chance to see Killian even from a distance, right?'

It was a place where I couldn't get rid of that hope.

"We headed to Driven! We are leaving soon! If you haven't ridden yet, hurry up!"

The coachman of the carriage headed to Drivan walked around and shouted loudly. I sat on the bench at the carriage station for a long time and think about it again, while chewing my lips. Then, in the end, the carriage going to Drivan city departed. After a while, this time, the coachman of the carriage going Apentus began to yell.